Having one of those days. Maybe weeks? Months? I'm not sure how long I've been feeling this way, but today is particularly dark. It's a combination of grief, working with people who don't know how to listen, burn out, and feeling a void that can't seem to be filled. So, despite having what seems like a pretty sweet life, I'm just not feeling it. Mostly my darkness goes unnoticed but I feel like I need to make space and stop pretending things are okay. Self care isn't working. I dont need or want recommendations for how to deal with this. There are particular friends who have recently "sat with me" or reached out in some way. Thank you.