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Many of us experience emotional downward spirals when you feel defeated, lonely, unloved and just plain defeated. I am one of those people. It's not a feeling to be ashamed of or sympathize about. It means that we are the most loving of all because we spend so much time with concerns, loving, proving ourselves, and putting that person that falsely made you believe they love you wanted a future with you and/or others wants instead of our own needs first, whether deserving or not! 
I have finally learned my lesson from the consequences I am facing because of my choice to not love myself. This will be a very difficult task for me because I feel that "LOVE" doesn't love me back in many ways. I have completely given up on it! It has been used as a weapon against me and I have physical and now the worst of emotional scars from it! Like milk, I am officially allergic to it, therefore, I have made the decision to do my best to lock it up, burn it and remove it from my world completely! It may come across as becoming a dick, asshole and/or any other genetalia, but I cannot concern myself with that. I guess my message to all of you is, it is impossible to crave something you've never had or experienced. And I know this is easier said than done but love comes in many forms. You'll know deep down inside what kind it is and if what you're feeling actually falls into the category of love. But you have to be honest with yourself!  If you don't feel it... It ain't there! Don't be afraid to be alone, because you aren't. No one is unless you alienate yourself from the world! No substitutes and for those who use it as a weapon... You should be ashamed of yourself! "Love" has done so much damage to my life and only has very few meaning to me. The misrepresentation and use of the way it's supposed to feel has done so much damage to me and i'm sure many of you out there.  I end with... Love don't live here anymore ✌.
#LoveDontLiveHereAnymore #AllergicToLove #LoveDoesntLoveMeBack #Misrepresented #Love #WhatIsLove # TheMeaningOfLove #DamIWentIn #FuckLove
Many of us experience emotional downward spirals when you feel defeated, lonely, unloved and just plain defeated. I am one of those people. It's not a feeling to be ashamed of or sympathize about. It means that we are the most loving of all because we spend so much time with concerns, loving, proving ourselves, and putting that person that falsely made you believe they love you wanted a future with you and/or others wants instead of our own needs first, whether deserving or not! I have finally learned my lesson from the consequences I am facing because of my choice to not love myself. This will be a very difficult task for me because I feel that "LOVE" doesn't love me back in many ways. I have completely given up on it! It has been used as a weapon against me and I have physical and now the worst of emotional scars from it! Like milk, I am officially allergic to it, therefore, I have made the decision to do my best to lock it up, burn it and remove it from my world completely! It may come across as becoming a dick, asshole and/or any other genetalia, but I cannot concern myself with that. I guess my message to all of you is, it is impossible to crave something you've never had or experienced. And I know this is easier said than done but love comes in many forms. You'll know deep down inside what kind it is and if what you're feeling actually falls into the category of love. But you have to be honest with yourself! If you don't feel it... It ain't there! Don't be afraid to be alone, because you aren't. No one is unless you alienate yourself from the world! No substitutes and for those who use it as a weapon... You should be ashamed of yourself! "Love" has done so much damage to my life and only has very few meaning to me. The misrepresentation and use of the way it's supposed to feel has done so much damage to me and i'm sure many of you out there. I end with... Love don't live here anymore ✌. #LoveDontLiveHereAnymore  #AllergicToLove  #LoveDoesntLoveMeBack  #Misrepresented  #Love  #WhatIsLove  # TheMeaningOfLove #DamIWentIn  #FuckLove 
Feels good to be back to the world again... My first night out in a very long time with awesome people who have always and will always have noting but love for me. Sometimes, we get lost in nonsense and get caught up with negative people who actually set out to destroy you and take away your energy until you are like them.... NOTHING! 
We have to remember to not lose ourselves, love ourselves and remember who is important and recognize those red flags. 
I am a work in progress... I have hit bottom... But I'll be damned to let anyone else make me feel less than what i am and less than what they are and ever could be!
I am back and will be better than ever... So stay tuned for some fun selfies and experiences I would love to share with you... 😉
#BadAssBeardedHomo #Barbado #Scruff #ScruffyHomo #Woof #GayMixedBreed #GayBengali #GayPuertoRican #GayPortoRock #GayLatino #GaySouthEastAsian #SexyFatherFucker #DFL #InstaHomo #BeardedHomo #BeardedVillain #GayMisFit #InstaBeard #NoOneWillTakeMyLight #PositiveEnergyOnly #AlwaysMisRepresented #SelfLove
Feels good to be back to the world again... My first night out in a very long time with awesome people who have always and will always have noting but love for me. Sometimes, we get lost in nonsense and get caught up with negative people who actually set out to destroy you and take away your energy until you are like them.... NOTHING! We have to remember to not lose ourselves, love ourselves and remember who is important and recognize those red flags. I am a work in progress... I have hit bottom... But I'll be damned to let anyone else make me feel less than what i am and less than what they are and ever could be! I am back and will be better than ever... So stay tuned for some fun selfies and experiences I would love to share with you... 😉 #BadAssBeardedHomo  #Barbado  #Scruff  #ScruffyHomo  #Woof  #GayMixedBreed  #GayBengali  #GayPuertoRican  #GayPortoRock  #GayLatino  #GaySouthEastAsian  #SexyFatherFucker  #DFL  #InstaHomo  #BeardedHomo  #BeardedVillain  #GayMisFit  #InstaBeard  #NoOneWillTakeMyLight  #PositiveEnergyOnly  #AlwaysMisRepresented  #SelfLove 
The best people I have ever worked with... Minus a few... (You know who you are). What a fab night... Thank you!
The best people I have ever worked with... Minus a few... (You know who you are). What a fab night... Thank you!
From friend to fam... This guy has a special place in my heart! He had been there through my worst and will continue to be there for by best yet to come... There's one more, but he hates taking pics... 👎 @ballardwesley 
Two of my rocks!
#BadAssBeardedHomo #Barbado #Scruff #ScruffyHomo #Woof #GayMixedBreed #GayBengali #GayPuertoRican #GayPortoRock #GayLatino #GaySouthEastAsian #SexyFatherFucker #DFL #InstaHomo #BeardedHomo #BeardedVillain #GayMisFit #FeelingMyself #InstaBeard #NoOneWillTakeMyLight #PositiveEnergyOnly 
#Besties #Friend2Fam #MyFriend #MessHall #Shenaniganz
From friend to fam... This guy has a special place in my heart! He had been there through my worst and will continue to be there for by best yet to come... There's one more, but he hates taking pics... 👎 @ballardwesley Two of my rocks! #BadAssBeardedHomo  #Barbado  #Scruff  #ScruffyHomo  #Woof  #GayMixedBreed  #GayBengali  #GayPuertoRican  #GayPortoRock  #GayLatino  #GaySouthEastAsian  #SexyFatherFucker  #DFL  #InstaHomo  #BeardedHomo  #BeardedVillain  #GayMisFit  #FeelingMyself  #InstaBeard  #NoOneWillTakeMyLight  #PositiveEnergyOnly  #Besties  #Friend2Fam  #MyFriend  #MessHall  #Shenaniganz 
All Night.... I won't stop!!!
#DancingQueen #BattleHymn #DanceParty #TimeToRepent
We've been friends since kindergarten... And still going.... Love this beautiful woman! So happy to still have you in my life! You deserve everything and more!!! #KindergartenFriends #LongTimeFriends #WeFly #LoveHer
Yo Bro! Let me borrow some of your cologne.... Aighhht... Here... @aadelrio27 😂😂😂 #EcuadorVacation #Ecuacation #EcuadorShenanigans #Bromos #😂 #Boomerang #DontKnowHowToAct #GoodTimes #SillyBillies
I think we had enough liquor... Wouldn't you say???🙊🙊🙊😂😂😂
#EcuadorVacation #Ecuacation #Fam #DrunkAsses