Hello my friends,
I had to revamp my photos for the Etsy shop Blue Sky Magpie and here is what I've come up with.
Adding a crystal and a living plant really accentuates this vase!
I've only just begun my journey onto Etsy and I have zero likes, zero followers and I still have hope!
I found what I love to do and I'm putting myself out there and I have nothing to lose... Accept for $.20 per listing.
I just wanted to share this with you just in case any of you are holding back on something you love. Maybe you're scared to put yourself out there... But I'm telling you, with all of my heart. You are the only one that can truly make ”you” happy!
You have nothing to lose.
Get yourself out there.
Start a blog.
Start an Etsy shop.
You may surprise yourself with a brand new sense of confidence and love and belief in yourself!
I'm cheering for you. Encouraging you. And supporting you!
All my love to you all 💕
”...lack of boundaries has left me feeling powerless which in turn has ignited the feelings of anger that I've carried over from childhood.” - an excerpt from my new blog post titled: Accepting Myself on My Healing Journey
(Click on the link in my bio to access the post)
Photo Credit: @mark11photography
....Together, may we take back our power and rise up and move forward...
Well... here’s another little secret you may or may not know about me... I am a super Queens of the Stone Age Fan!! It’s bad... like REAL bad!! 🤣
We have many aspects of ourselves and I am not afraid to share every part with you!
I encourage you to share aspects of yourself that you don’t normally come out with! Every part of you is beautiful and it is time to share and embrace every beautiful part of yourself to the world!! Sending so much love your way!! 😎💀💋💫
Hello my friends,
I have been busy painting this weekend!
Bought these vintage chairs $2 each @wstscalgary
They just needed a coat of fresh paint and a good sanding!
I’m keeping them for our front yard decor!
I’m in love with their rustic charm!
I am beyond grateful for this incredible sunshiney weather and for being able to paint outside! “Cooped up inside NO MORE!” Sending creative encouragement your way!
Love you guys! 💕
With Mother's Day fast approaching, I want to share a personal experience with you. Last year, I was in the clutches of postpartum anxiety. Despite being on meds I still lost my mind on my kids, multiple times a day. I was filled with rage & self-hate. I hated that I wasn't able to be the mother that I wanted to be for my kids.
Instead of speaking to them with kindness, I was yelling & swearing at them. I was a mess. Not to mention the constant thoughts about not being a good mother. I felt like my kids didn't deserve to have me as a mom & that I was a failure.
When Mother's Day rolled around, I was so ashamed of myself that I asked my husband not to do anything for me. I didn't want to celebrate. I didn't think that I deserved it.
During the next 8 months, I battled, I did the work, I became spiritual, went to therapy, saw a naturopath, began supplements, working out, meditation and affirmations.
After some seriously dark moments, where I wasn't sure that I was going to make it out alive, I actually made it out. I could see the light. I felt the self-hate melt away. My thoughts became kinder. Those rage filled moments are behind me now and I am able to think for a second before I react to the kids.
I am sharing this experience in case you are feeling like I was, 1 year ago.
I want to remind you that you are a good mom. Your kids are better of WITH you! Don’t believe the negative thoughts you have about yourself, they aren't true. I’ve lived through this and come out the other side. You will too. You are being WAY TOO HARD ON YOURSELF and in time you will come to realize that you need to begin loving yourself. As soon as you start, your whole life will turn around. The postpartum will melt away. But you need to do the work mamas. Get the help that you need. Find a therapist, ask for help.
I am sending you so much love and support and I encourage you to make Mother's Day plans! You deserve to celebrate.
You will never be the same woman after postpartum. You will be Stronger. Wiser!
Please keep the faith, it’s going to be okay!
Hello my dear friends,
I’ve been revisiting my chalk-painting projects and I wanted to share this lovely blue table with you. I’m selling it on my BlueSkyMagpie etsy shop!
I am in the process of searching for my true life’s purpose and the question I asked myself that steered the direction was: what would I be doing if I had all the money in the world? My answer came as quick as a flash: I would be painting! Everyday all day. Furniture, canvas, sidewalks!
I love to paint. It is my therapy.
Therefore, I can confidently say that this is one of my life’s purposes, even though I feel like I have a few still lurking beneath the surface.
As for my Etsy shop, I figured it wouldn’t hurt to create a shop and sell my items, but if I don’t sell anything, then I get to keep all of my goodies!! I just love to paint and create! If I sold something that I poured my heart and souls into, I would absolutely love that, but If it doesn’t work, I won’t regret putting myself out there.
I want to encourage you to get creative and put yourself out there!
Also, if you are like me trying to figure out your life purpose, try asking yourself what you would do if you had all the money in the world. It may surprise you!
So grateful to each and every one of you for taking the time to check out my Instagram posts and offering me so much love and support.
You are amazing! 💕💫
I’ve been anticipating this day for some time now and now that it’s here I am overcome with so many emotions, but for the most part, I am feeling proud of myself.
100 days ago, I decided that I needed to choose sobriety. I became depressed around Oct/2017 & as we entered the holiday season, I began drinking as a way to cope. After one of the darkest moments in my life, unsure if I wanted to continue to live. I was consumed in self-hate. Guilt. Grief. (The drinking combined with my anti-depressants messed with my head & I began to have suicidal ideation, it was very scary) I hit my breaking point, I felt like a complete failure as a mother. I felt the wounds from my past split open. I let myself believe that everyone would be better off without me.
Out of the darkness, I woke up and I realized that my kids needed me, and that I had to commit to healing myself, to become the mom that I always imagined I could be. I needed to stop drinking & turn my life around.
As most of you know, my mother suffers from alcoholism. I’ve always known that I needed to be careful with my drinking. Depression & anxiety runs in the family. When you’re depressed & drink alcohol, the alcohol acts as a depressant & thus, one can spiral further down the depression hole.
For me, if I give myself an inch with alcohol, I am hooked. I crave it. I feel like I NEED it to relax me. I can never stop at just one drink, it always turns into 1 bottle of wine... I have zero control.
I haven’t had an easy time telling people in real life about my sobriety, but social media has been a great resource for me to begin speaking my truth.
Thank you to each and every one of you, I am so grateful to each and every one of you showing your support, as I journey into this new direction.
(To my dear friend @Katblack, your bravery and determination to become sober helped me to come to terms with my own decision to become sober. I admire you so much & I feel so honoured to be on this journey with you. So proud of you & for creating @vivifycalgary )
Hello my dear friends,
I found this picture that I took of myself in the throes of postpartum anxiety & OCD. This was one that I had intended to share on Instagram at the time and I decided against it b/c I was too afraid to share the truth about what was going on with me at that time.
I wanted to share this with you b/c I like how it shows the dark circles under my eyes, dry lips, unkempt eyebrows, no makeup. It shows the reality of my experience.
I think it is so important to be able to share our true reality, especially during our most difficult & challenging times.
I truly believe that when we share these parts of our lives, it allows others to do the same and that’s how we dissolve the expectations that society has for us to show up perfectly. Flawlessly.
I think it helps to end the stigma surrounding mental illness too, we begin to see that mental illness affects the people we love. Our sisters, brothers, mothers and fathers...
I hope that by sharing this part of me it will encourage you to do the same. I have felt a complete sense of freedom in sharing my most personal experiences and being open and up front about them. I hope that you will feel the same.
Together we are strong. We can stand tall and lift each other up as we come forward in our authenticity.
Sending so much love and support your way xo
Hello my dear friends,
I’ve been working through a lot of old anger that still resides within my being. I’m in the process of letting go.
It stems from childhood & into adolescence.
I believe that I am in the middle of a grieving process.
The grief that I feel is for the childhood that I never got to experience.
I feel the loss of a relationship that I never had with my parents.
I have been so angry with myself for so many years. Not realizing that so much of it didn’t have anything to do with me. I was a product of two people who weren’t able to come to terms with their own childhood. They didn’t have the ability to understand their own emotions.
I am accepting of where I am in my process into healing.
The anger and the grief is a part of this process and I am so ready to let it go. I know that it will take time, but I am finally going to be here with myself and accept where I am.
Go easy on myself for the strong emotions that are coming up for me.
And as I say over and over, this is the time when self-care is especially needed.
If you are going through a similar experience, I hope that you will be kind to yourself. Don’t rush or hurry through the process. Give yourself as much time as you need.
One day you will be able to release all of this anger and grief and you will be free. Free to live the life you’ve always deserved. One where your past trauma doesn’t trigger you. And one where you accept yourself fully, just as you are. You are a beautiful being. You are going to come out of this, on the other side, so much stronger then you ever thought possible.
I am sending you so much love and so much support and you are not alone. I am right here with you, in the process of healing.
I have been reflecting upon my journey into healing and recovering.
I’ve found it to be like a pendulum, constantly swinging from left to right, dark to light.
I’ve had to learn to open up and stop being so ridged in my beliefs.
Once I became more flexible and open to receiving the goodness that I truly deserve. ‘Stopping the self-hate cycle’. I moved past the fear that everyone was going to abandon me once I started being honest with who I am and what I believe in.
I realized the challenges I was facing within my mental illness could be transformed into opportunities. That’s when I decided to use social media for good and share my story with the intention of helping others who were going through the same experience as me.
I truly believe that we create our own reality through the perspective we hold. Once I began to see my worthiness and that I could help others by sharing my experiences, I felt like I was set free and my life was worth living. Exactly the way that I knew I deserved to live!
I am sending so much love and support your way. 💕
Today is world projsemicolon day. This is a day for sharing your story, semicolon tattoos and raising awareness for mental health and suicide prevention.
As many of you know, I grew up in a dysfunctional home. My mom suffers from alcoholism and my dad was an enabler. I am an adult child (ACoA) and with that, I have struggled with anxiety & depression most of my life. I've also suffered from postpartum anxiety and OCD with both of my babies.
I wanted to share with you a story about my experience with suicidal thinking. I've experienced it a few times in my life. As early as grade 6. I lost my math book at year end & was so afraid of how much trouble I was going to be in. Since my role in the family was keeping the peace and being a pleaser, this was absolutely devastating to me. I felt like I was a failure, I hated myself for it & I thought that the only answer was to commit suicide. I thought about it for weeks. Thinking about how I would do it. I never told anyone. My parents obviously never offered a way to communicate with them. They were too consumed with their own trauma to notice. Somehow, by the grace of God, I decided against my plan and never breathed a word about it, until now.
I believe that we need to open up lines of communication with our children. Even as young as grade 5. We cannot be so consumed with our issues, that we ignore the needs our loved ones.
It's time to start the conversation and end the stigma around mental illness. We are your children, daughters, sons, mothers, fathers, sisters & brothers.
I encourage you to share your story, help end the stigma & be a voice for those who can't speak out.
Sending so much love to each & every one of you out there struggling with mental illness. 💕
I still haven't stopped thinking about Humboldt & praying for the survivors and families of the survivors and those lost.
In the wake of this unimaginable tragedy, I’ve found myself reflecting on my life’s purpose & what’s important. My #1 priorities are my loved ones. For e.g., making sure I continue to try my best as a mom, be kind to myself and be there for my kids. Try not to be on my iphone, so much. Fit in special time to play with the kids & not put so much pressure on the housework.
As for projects & work, I just want it to be meaningful and fulfilling. I also would love for it to be helpful for others, in some capacity. With that being said, I wanted to share my most recent project. The message I am trying to convey is to: ‘be true to you’
I believe that’s what everyone’s purpose is. Once you start being you, your life begins! You have set yourself free. You can be anything you want to be. The hardest part about this; is ‘staying’ true to ‘you’; when not everyone will like it and some people start to disappear from your life.
For me, on my journey, by sharing & speaking up about my mental illness and some of the negative experiences that I have gone through, I have felt free. At the same time, I’ve been wanting to hide out and conform to societal norms because it feels too scary to think that I may not be liked or accepted by everyone. But I know in my heart that I need to keep going. Stay the course and keep the faith and hope that I am exactly where I need to be in my life right now.
So with that, I just want to say, when you feel like giving up, don’t. Keep trying. You’ve got this. Give yourself permission to just be ‘you’. Everyone has something unique that they can offer to this world. So share your experiences, your story. Who knows, you might be able to help at least one other person! ~
Keep the faith & stay positive.
Sending so much love and gratitude your way xo