I wandered so far not so long ago and it’s the first time I’ve felt truly outside of Gods presence and it was the worst season of my life...I battled true anxiety losing so much weight I could never get warm enough and lacked energy to even pull myself out of bed, I drank heavily to try to keep up with those around me and paid for it with severe migraines that lasted for days, I pushed away friends who earned my trust and who fight on my behalf for my best and I shrunk who I was, becoming the unseen child once again for a boy who didn’t deserve even a complete sentence of my time. I was unrecognizable.
It is a daily struggle to pursue a path our flesh wants nothing to do with but our spirit needs in order to thrive. We are prone to wander and obedience is challenging but there’s nothing else more worth doing. .
Once upon a time there lived a unicorn who decided at a very young unicorn age that she wanted to help others be their very best selves. So every day she asked the Creator who made her (and all the things) how she could do just that and obeyed when she heard the Creator tell her how. That is how this unicorn found me and that is how my life changed for the better. I don’t always want to hear what she says (like when I get lost in the potential of angry boys and compromise my character/standards or when I am quick to speak and slow to listen or when I revert to the dysfunctional patterns I was raised in) but in hearing her and embracing my own convictions, I am a better version of myself. She sharpens me, champions me, encourages me, holds my hand through the painful ebbing before redemption comes, makes me laugh the hardest (and herself as is evident in the last photo) and believes in me. She loves with all the colors of the rainbow 🌈and righteousness and holiness are her bffs.
Happy day you were crafted wondrous unicorn! I’m so very glad that you were and that we are ride or dies. .
PS. You’re also the BEST party planner 🏅
Get your sunscreen on or else. .
I had a facial for the first time ever a few months back. When I inquired about how to treat two enlarged pores on the side of my nose I was referred to a dermatologist. Up until that point I had never been to one nor felt I had any reason to as I thought such visits were for people who struggle with their skin. Once inside the room, the doctor immediately asked me about the scar on my nose and I told him it was from a pimple I had tried to take care of myself a few years back. He informed me that he believed it was something more and I now cannot have more gratitude for his insight and familiarity with skin cancer. I am so grateful that God pointed me toward a dermatologist after encouraging me toward a simple facial as I could have gone many more years while it continued to grow further. Mind you I don’t look like this right now (this was only biopsy day) but I’m still oh so grateful despite the bruising, swollen, painful puffy face I have and the stitches that were put in today! Get your skin checked at least once a year friends, it’s as important as getting a checkup for your body!