I don't have a funny quip, or fancy one liner to share with you all. I'm probably not going to have you rolling on the floor with the lines you're about to read, but I feel like I need to get them out before they destroy me. Today has not been a good day. Actually, I take that back, the last year has not been a good for me.😞 I feel like every story you hear comes from someone who has found their way out and is making progress, or who is on the other side 'loving and living life to the fullest!' No one ever seems to share the struggle when they are head deep in the middle of it. That's where I am. I'm struggling at such a level that it's burying me alive.
I've never been more unhappy with myself than I have been the last year. I can't pinpoint what it is that caused it, or what situation suddenly turned my world upside down, but it happened somewhere.
Last November I got married to a man who has shown me the most unconditional love, yet I feel undeserving. I became a part of an organization that is challenging an important part of who I am in my community, yet I feel unworthy to step into this spotlight.
The truth is I'm incapable of loving myself right now. I don't know how to fix this. I can't seem to find the way out and I'm so disheartened in continuing the search because every path has lead to disappointment and failure.
I know this post is absolutely depressing, I just find it so important to portray the raw, unedited, unfiltered side of life on a platform known for it's perfect cuts. I am not one of them, and right now I am struggling and hoping that I find a way out.
Ya girl says if ya don’t dance, then ya no friends of mine!! 🙅🏽♀️ Ha, who am I kidding, join my party & lets do the robot! Now, Summer’s fast approaching—who’s down for a roadtrip!?! We can do the robot ALL of the time!🙅🏽♀️😂✨ (I do the robot everyday...I gotta pump myself up somehow lol) #JoinMe
Brought in reinforcements from Florida to help us knock out our home remodel. If you had all four of us lined up, I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t guess that Mike and I are the ones from Idaho. #AllCamoEverything
50. I love the rain more than just about anything at all
The way it washes me clean
The way it cools everything off
I run around in it like a wild child
Getting soaked down to my feet
It came down in buckets that moment I broke free
So you damn the rain
For making you remember all the pain
Of losing everything
You still miss my touch
Still love me too much
To ever curse my name
So you damn the rain
Met two badass climbing women while out last weekend! 🗻 Combined, they have over 50 years of climbing experience and it definitely showed! They lead their routes with extreme ease and even gave us some pointers. ✊ Here's to all us badass women getting out there and conquering the world!
Time is precious, to me. I value my time very highly. I don't consider this selfish - I consider it taking care of myself. I choose to spend a great deal of time with those who mean the most to me - in places that make me feel alive. But, alone time is also something I need, and treasure. I don't know about you, but I have to have time to reset and just let my mind be still - without having to put on a face for others. Perhaps that's why I love dogs so much - they never expect me to be more than I am ❤️ #truthtuesday#canyondechelly
“Was it cold?” She asked over coffee, shuddering at the thought of sleeping in a nylon tent while the temps dipped well below freezing. “Of course! It was freezing. Like the teeth-chattering kinda cold.” I answered honestly, holding my mug of almond milk latte with both hands—still warming up from the prior weekend’s escapades.
I relayed what my friend had said when we met outside our unzipped frost-covered tents the next morning: “Shiiiiiit. That was the coldest night I’ve ever had.” “Then why?!??” She asked genuinely. Her eyes bugged out and I think what she meant to inquire was: “Are you crazy?!?” The thing is this: winter camping is certainly not at all glamorous. With the right gear, you can get that 7 x 3 nylon “home” feeling intermittently like Tahiti. Which is impressive. Comfort is absolutely possible. It’s also definitely fleeting. No doubt your fingers will freeze when you try to tie your boots in the morning, your toes will lose all feeling for a long while which will be slightly alarming and kinda relieving, your breath will crystallize and make the inside of the tent sweat so you can enjoy not only being cold but also being damp and cold which is one helluva combination, and you will absolutely wish you were home in bed. At least once. Probably 87,000 times before morning. So, yah, it’s not Club Med. It will not be your best sleep ever.
Although I realize that the former may read like a list of cons, to me it’s just a list of tiny and temporary misery and hijinks that I choose to endure for the opportunity to watch the sun rise in remote places. To see things so jarringly beautiful that my vocabulary is reduced to just three words: (1) WOW, (2) Whoa!, and (3) Wooohooo!!! When we set up our little tent village here, we were the happiest, the proudest, the fullest. We were also the coldest. But we didn’t give a shit. I mean, look at this place. Some things are worth a sleepless night and a few uncomfortable shivers. This is one of them. #adventure
El Bolsón, you beauty! After exploring a sculpture trail in the woods, we plodded up towards Cerro Piltriquitron. We thought we were high up... Little did we know that this was just the beginning!
Hiker or trail runner in Southern California looking for an endurance challenge? How does conquering the following 11 peaks in one day sound:
Last year less than 10 people were able to complete all 11 peaks. Although the challenge is to encourage participants to conquer the 11 peaks, the participants have the option to do less or just challenge themselves to climb as many peaks as possible. Come and join us (@trvrsapparel and @trashfreeearth)! 💪
Event registration fee is $45 and last day to register is May 1st. Save your spot today! Click the link in @TrashFreeEarth's bio to sign-up or visit
The Fool’s Traverse is 25 miler challenging endurance event created to raise awareness for outdoor stewardship throughout our public lands. The event consists of 11 checkpoints within the Mt Baldy area of which participants will need to strategically navigate as much of the course as they are physically capable in order to increase eligibility to win prizes.
Participants will also be educated of the human impact in Southern California’s local wilderness while enjoying the outdoors and learning new skills for outdoor navigation. 🙌
It's #NationalParkWeek !
National Park Week is a great time to get out, explore, and hike some of our most unique landscapes and magnificent trails here in the US.
Some of my @Im_NicoleMarie favorite parks here on the west coast include places like Zion, Joshua Tree, Death Valley, Sequoia, Yosemite, Grand Canyon, Channel Islands... and there so many more I’d like to visit including Big Bend, Capitol Reef, Badlands and the Great Smoky Mountains, just to name a few!
Tell us your favorite park you’ve visited or one on your bucket list and make sure and share your National Park adventures this week during National Park Week.
Thanks to @goparks and the @nationalparkservice for all they do to help enrich our country and its natural beauty! #findyourpark