I want you to know it's okay you're feeling the way you are. There's no shame, judgement, or weakness in feeling as you do. All emotions come & go, and acknowledging them is the first step to surrendering them...
But it's up to you to decide how long they're welcome to stay.
When you shame yourself for an emotion you're experiencing or when you attempt to avoid it, it becomes a part of you. It has nowhere to go but deeper inside of you. You are inviting it to stay balled up in the dark corners of your being...begging it to never leave.
So, take a good look around - what emotions have you asked to stay?
Bought all the gender neutral clothes & toys, avoided discussing dancing & ballet, have managed to avoid tv & movies... also, couldn’t resist pushing my love of the colour pink... and so, here we are 🤣🤣🤣 Issy wearing a purple (not pink 😆) ballet outfit and playing with a girly doll/movie character. Of course. 🤣🤣 #PARENTLIFE 🤣💞💕💜🤸♀️🎀🏩🌸🦄👛💃🏻💅🧚🏻♀️🤷🏼♀️ Also, look at little Chloe already attempting to get up on all fours... no doubt keen to catch up to her sister & join in the ballet classes 🤣💞
Do you ever feel like the Universe has the biggest sense of humour?
This picture reminds me of what my calendar looked like at my old job and to be honest it makes me feel like if I’m scheduled like this there is no joy in my day. So, I’ve kind of avoided structure like the plague for the last 2 years.
Today I met with our son’s Neuro-Psychologist and was given a plan to implement in our house to help with behaviour issues. And guess what? We need to provide a LOT of structure and have our days be completely routine and predictable.
On the plus side, I think if we are going to set this up for our kids then we will set it up for us and it will really help with our consistency and productivity.
And the journey continues...
PERSIST+PERSEVERE: I've been working on this painting for over 4 months taking more than 50hrs of my sweet time, and up until 2 days ago I hated it and thought it was a big ol fuck up, but like any book I start reading I can't quit until it's finished. Throughout my time painting I was thinking writing a lil blurb on the idea of persistence; that just because you persist and persevere at something doesn't mean it will always work out/in your favour, but, turns out I think both are true. Sometimes you persist and it's awful, but most of the time it turns out beautiful 🌼 #thisdotpainting#nearlykilledme#almosttossedthemotherfuckerinthefire#whatyouresistpersists#ifsomeonewantsitletmeknow#youcanhaveitforfreeeeeee
Going with the flow is a form of action too. And it sure beats trying to paddle upstream. Relax. Put down the oars. Let the current be your guide. And never forget -You have enough, you do enough, you are enough.
It’s so incredibly easy to get stuck in our heads, worrying about things that if left alone, would resolve themselves on their own. “Worrying is praying for more of what you don’t want.” The more we worry, the more that problem persists and gets bigger. Sometimes all it takes is a few minutes of turning your attention to nature, and allowing yourself to be swept up in its limitless abundance in order to put things into perspective. Try it, you’ll feel better.😘🌺 #whatyouresistpersists#totallystolethatquotefromsarah
"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." – Lao Tzu
Sometimes a quote is just a quote, sometimes it‘s exactly what you need in an (anxiety-fuelled) moment✌🏼
Shifts! Shifts! Shifts!
When you "click in" with source.
The feeling of alignment is instant.
I am receiving.
The door is wide open.
I welcome you.
Alignment ISN'T thinking positive thoughts until rainbows, unicorns and stardust are spewing forth from your head. No.
FEELINGS are the key.
⭐"If you want to see the tangible, before you've accomplished the intangible, then it's never going to come. You need to feel the feeling first."⭐
You can post all the positive affirmation quotes you want. You can distract yourself with all kinds of activities that make you feel good...at the moment, but when all that is gone and done and you are left in silence with yourself, what is your CORE VIBRATION? Fear? Controlling? Worthlessness? Shame? Guilt? Pain? Hurt? Sadness? Not being enough?
If your vibration isn't a match to what you want, then you cannot get what you desire. Its an energetic mismatch. The universe responds to energy; not quotes, not words, not vision boards. FEELINGS. What good are quotes, words, pictures if your feeling is that you'll never get it? Or a feeling of anxiety? Or lack of deserving? Or a fear that it might not be for you?
Instant energetic mismatch.
Instead of focusing on what you want, focus on HOW YOU FEEL and then how you WANT TO FEEL. That might mean diving into your pain, fear, worries, doubts, and traumas. Face them. Understand them. Their roots.
Because the only way out, is in.
I'm embracing the lessons. 💖🕯️
The primordial power of snakes spans all timelines and cultures. The snake is an iconic symbol of fertility and divine cosmic power.
Now is a prime time to ask yourself what skins have you outgrown? This wanning moon is here to assist you in the shedding process. Rebirth and renewal are on their way.
Growing up I journaled, a LOT. I had a mountain of notebooks filled to the brim and cherished that time I took each day to write out what was happening. Back then, it was mostly about the day's events, what boy I was crushing on, and expressing my anxiety about whether or not he liked me back. (I am SO grateful to be past the teenage years!) Unfortunately, they were lost in a house so I'm not able to re-read them for fun, but I do have some fond memories of the magic they held for me.
These days, journaling is more about processing my thoughts and getting them out on paper so that I can reflect on what's going on and dig a little deeper over time. Sometimes you have the answers within you, but without creating space to get them out of your head they aren't as glaringly obvious as when they're staring back at you on a piece of paper.
I had an email exchange with a client last week about how journaling is such a powerful tool for self-discovery and healing, and the common thread of that convo was that we realized we were both avoiding it in some way. It's easy to throw out the good ol' "I don't have time" excuse, but when I really sat with my resistance towards putting pen to paper I realized that for me, lately I've been actively resisting journaling because I didn't want to acknowledge some things I've been working through.
When you put the shitty thoughts and feelings on paper it forces you to take a look at them, which can be really challenging. It hurts to see that things aren't working in our favor, and it's especially difficult when we're acknowledging the crappy thoughts and feelings we're experiencing about ourselves. But the truth is we have to acknowledge it all (good + bad) so that we can move beyond it. I use the phrase "what we resist persists" to remind myself that I need to be willing to work with that resistance to make my way through it. It feels good to tell the truth no matter how dark and dirty it may feel. We can recognize the patterns or behaviors we're exhibiting that we don't like and actively course correct so that we're in a healthier space.
Double tap the image if you love journaling, or if you want to start!
With all my talk of manifesting & the law of attraction I wanted to share with you guys a manifestation I experienced yesterday!
About a week or two ago I mentioned to my husband Adam that I wanted to start taking collagen. It's AMAZING for skin, joint, and hair health. The Chronic Illness I had when it was at it's worse caused a TON of hair loss. I have probably half the hair I used to, and I'm ready to get my thick hair back!
So I mentioned this to Adam. I also thought about it a few times, just reminding myself to buy some at some point. I've also been visualizing myself running my hands through my thick luxurious hair 😇
Well yesterday I came home and a package was waiting for me from @theprimalblueprint I opened it up and inside were two huge tubs of collagen! The EXACT ones I was going to buy!
I was FLOORED.
I immediately called my mom thinking she must have ordered them for me? But she didn't!! & My husband didn't either! I still have NO CLUE how I received these or who purchased them...
Well wait, actually I DO know! The law of attraction brought this to me! When you get into alignment, stay in your happy place, and believe that anything you want or need is available to you, things just fall into place. You don't even have to work for it, the universe/spirit provides.
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He said, I want you to think to yourself... “I’m a piece of shit.” That was the first time I heard that from a coach or therapist.
But I had been resisting, repressing, and fighting that thought trying to push it down. Like fighting to keep a beach ball underneath the surface of a swimming pool.
But I followed instructions. I thought to myself, I am a piece of shit... and the moment I accepted the thought instead of fighting it... it let go of me.
You may find it useful to take what you’ve been resisting... fear, sadness, rejection, loss, weakness, failure, boredom, ect... Invite that experience in. Allow it. Bring all your attention to it and just allow it to be there. You will not like it but you will notice that you can accept it.
Once you’ve stopped resisting that thought, it will no longer run you.
This picture was taken 3 yrs ago. The beginning of a transformation I had no idea was coming toward me. I look pretty happy. I wasn't. If you met me you'd probably never guess I had a secret. I'd been walking around with this shadow called "you're not enough" since childhood.
I grew up an only child with a loving father that always had to be right. If I discovered something new, he'd already tried it. If I wanted to go somewhere, he'd already been there. As a kid, each time I tried to connect with my dad he would unknowingly shut me out; he wouldn't allow me to fully experience him and he wouldn't fully experience me.
In those moments, I made up that I wasn't enough. How this "not enough" showed up was in people pleasing, and subconsciously looking for approval. It was the climb for more and better without a top, and it showed up in my relationships with friends, my extravagant lifestyle and in my marriage.
After my Communications Course I was journaling when I saw something for the first time. I asked myself... If I was enough, what would that look like?
1) Would I look different? Would I have shorter hair, brown eyes, smaller hips?
2) Would I sound different? Would my voice be higher? Would I speak with more complex words?
3) Would I feel different? Would I be more outgoing? Would I be with people differently?
4) Would I be willing to love more or allow people to love me just as I am? What would that look like with my partner?
5) Would I have a larger house, a nicer car, a more successful career?
When I began to recognize my story as "not enough", it became ridiculous and the answer to all those questions was I AM ENOUGH, perfect just the way I am! It was a breakthrough I had to experience for myself and it feels f'ing amazing to be free of my shadow! 💪🏼#freedom#blackandwhite