I thought I would vent some things here. To be honest, I haven't been on track for losing weight since the beginning of this year. In fact I've been eating out more now than I ever have and I have gained quite a bit. Even still I'm over -30lbs from my highest weight. I've watched the scale creep up and it makes me sick to my stomach. How could I let this happen again after all of my hard work? I don't know what's wrong with me but I feel more drained every day. I'm losing my desire to cook because of the mess I have to clean up afterwards. I've lost my drive and I'm trying really hard to find it again, but we all know the hardest part of anything is starting. I'm sure some of you guys have been in this situation.. How do you get out of the rut? -
Hello, MUSC... -
I never thought I’d be in the hospital that put an expiration date on my pop pop. I never thought I’d be in the last hospital he ever went to. I just never really thought I’d be here, and yet here I am. My papaw in-law is having a really tough time right now, and had to be air lifted to MUSC, so now... I’m here. Things are looking rough, but this too shall pass. All of this is only temporary, and just... I have to remember that. #deeppost#venting#personaltalk
In case you’re wondering why I haven’t posted lately, it’s because I’m a fatass and will never lose weight. I’m going on a vacation soon for the first time in my life, and I’m stoked. Ill look like a beached whale in my bathing suit but maybe that will give me inspiration to lose weight this week
I wonder sometimes if anyone actually thinks about me. Thinks about how I am doing or how I am feeling, because I do, I think of others. But I can’t help but wonder if people think of me or if I am just someone they talk to because I am there. I wonder if people just talk about me because I am a friend’s friend or if they actually genuinely want to talk to me. Comment if you have ever felt this way... #venting#ventingsession#ventingtime#ventingaccount
We expect to be treated like “them” but we don’t ACT like “them” there’s a separation for a REASON gotdamnit!!!!!!! Wooooo Saaaaahhhhh.....when we WAKE UP and realize what runs THIS country is VOTES and not rights !!!!!!! We will be a stronger people. F your feelings you don’t run ish less you own ish and WE don’t own enough !!!!! Sick of the complaints....sick of whining...DO SOMETHING press the damn button when you have the chance to and stop saying voting don’t matter cuz WHITE don’t say that stupid shit......#venting#irritated shit won’t change unless WE change it!!!!!! #work#play#slay#blackrose
Okay, so here's the thing;
I cried over you, I felt guilty for so long, and I felt like I was in the wrong for what I did. Well, guess who figured the hell out what you did?
So you tried to tell me about how I "used you" (apparently), but you were going behind my back, going after my EX best friend and some random girl (sense I'm better than that), both of which I had a connection with like the little snake you are? Okay.
I won't give out names, because ya gotta save some of the petty for the problem.
So here's what happens,
First you try to be smart, you only say the things you should, you tell her where you stand, so she doesn't mistake you for a friend.
Because you've been on that road before and unless you're in a Karan Johar Movie, it doesn't work. You have a great time for a while, you don't know where you stand, you both care about each other, you like her, so does she. You're never sure about the latter, because how can the Gods ever be so kind? Everytime you look at her, you have a feeling that this is the most amazing piece of existence and you just can't think of her without smiling.
Then she tells you it's not happening for her.
You're not fine of course, because you're a next door Ted Mosby, you were about to tell her that you love her. You try to make you're peace with it because it's okay. If you're both not happy it's not worth it. But somewhere you know it isn't over, so you tell her to get in touch when she misses you, that's the last thing you tell her, before you're not going to see her for a long time.
Then she does, the very next day, at first she pretends to not have heard what you said then. Then she admits to it, regrettingly, but nevertheless. So you talk, for a while. Then the utter curious fellow in you needs to understand where he stands. So you ask, she says tells you it's not what you had hoped for. So you ask her what it is, she says she doesn't know. So you tell her that you need some time and space. You try to be smart, you tell her it's not healthy for you to talk to someone you have fallen for and they don't feel the same. Of course, you know, you've done that before. She says it's fine, she gets it. So you take the wisest advise that you ever received about a sad time. You sleep.
I will get there. And when I do I will be so happy! 😁 thank you all for the support on my socials during my progression to get everything in order to stream! It really means a lot! #thankyou#venting#streaming