So many exciting things happening this summer for @thetogbag 📸 including the launch of our belt bags in about a months time👌😍 Make sure you’re signed up to our mailing list to be the first to hear the launch date 📸 #watchthisspace
I'm a strong, fierce, powerful woman. I'm a warrior, building myself up from everything that tears me down. I'm currently being dragged through hell, but you know what? I'm breathing. I won't let worry control me. I got this.
Photographer- @jimdonnellyphotography 😊
I think this has to be one of my favourite shots from Chatsworth this year 🏇
My Chatsworth blog post should be up today, so make sure you check the link in my bio for all the shenanigans from this year!
Yesterday was such a weird one. This was a photo I sent to my best friends because I was so anxious about what I was wearing / whether I looked smart enough / whether my tattoos were covered enough to shoot a corporate event / whether I would be too hot / would I get too sweaty / would I be comfortable enough / don’t even get me started on shoes. (You can even see in my deflated, exhausted expression I was teetering on the NOPE GET BACK INTO BED - look, Bear is even willing for it to happen like the devil on my shoulder.) I know now that I can look at that and be like yes I looked fine! All was good! And tbh, I don’t even think they’d care if my tattoos were on show, my anxious brain has just decided that everyone will.
But the point of this, sometimes all the therapy in the world and all the coping mechanisms in your emotional toolbox cannot help when anxiety blindsides you.
What can help is reaching out and asking others to be your logical eyes and ears whilst your brain freaks out.
Find someone, or multiple someone’s that you trust and get them to be dead honest with you in times of panic, then you can use their words to override your own naggy neggy ones.
Therapy and recovery doesn’t “fix” you, you are allowed to have off days, bad days and weird days. It doesn’t mean you have gone backwards, it just means you’re at the foot of the next mountain to climb after overcoming the last one. ⛰
Ps. Special shoutout to my friends and Boyf who have to deal with my neurotic inner monologue more than social media does. Props 🤘🏻