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🌸 [27.05.2018] 🌸 [part iii] 🌸
arfid is traumatic. i cry because i want food i physically can’t eat. when i try—which is rare—my throat locks, and doesn’t ever open again. at some point yall are able to open your mouth to eat a fear food; i’ll most likely never. when i was 20, i finally discovered what arfid was. all this time, i thought there was nothing particularly wrong with me. i was picky, just need to be different. but the thing is, i don’t know how to be. arfid feels like a character flaw. it says that im not sick, only stupid. not sick enough, not struggling enough, that i don’t need to recover. but i do because it’s time i am happy. || #cerebralpalsy #cp #physicaldisability #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #anorexia #bulimia #osfed #ednos #arfid #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edsolider #edwarrior #arfidrecovery #osfedrecovery #anarecovery #miarecovery #fuckED #depression #anxiety #suicide #selfinjury #posttraumaticstressdisorder #ptsd #trauma #traumarecovery #kickEDNOSass
🌸 [27.05.2018] 🌸 [part iii] 🌸 arfid is traumatic. i cry because i want food i physically can’t eat. when i try—which is rare—my throat locks, and doesn’t ever open again. at some point yall are able to open your mouth to eat a fear food; i’ll most likely never. when i was 20, i finally discovered what arfid was. all this time, i thought there was nothing particularly wrong with me. i was picky, just need to be different. but the thing is, i don’t know how to be. arfid feels like a character flaw. it says that im not sick, only stupid. not sick enough, not struggling enough, that i don’t need to recover. but i do because it’s time i am happy. || #cerebralpalsy  #cp  #physicaldisability  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #anorexia  #bulimia  #osfed  #ednos  #arfid  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edsolider  #edwarrior  #arfidrecovery  #osfedrecovery  #anarecovery  #miarecovery  #fuckED  #depression  #anxiety  #suicide  #selfinjury  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #ptsd  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #kickEDNOSass 
Trigger warning: narcissistic abuse
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In the past two months I've slowly come to terms with the extent of my childhood trauma. This little guy is one of three reasons why I'm attacking this head on. 😍 No short cuts, as @BreneBrown puts it, I'm going through the middle. 
I'm not going to name names, just explain how I felt about what happened. I am sharing this because I haven't had a voice for 27 years, and I want to speak. I want to inspire others who haven't yet found their voice to see that they're not alone.

Even now, standing up and shedding light on my experiences is giving me anxiety and fear. An individual with narcissistic personality disorder comorbid with histrionic personality disorder will stop at nothing to keep THEIR version of reality the ONLY version of reality. 
Except it’s not. It’s not even close. 
My turn.

My emotional skin was removed daily, constantly, with tweezers a piece at a time. One comment here, another there, a false accusation, snide remarks, distortions of my reality, condemnation, ridicule, humiliation, the list goes on. I learned if I asserted myself, bigger chunks would be removed. So I sewed my mouth shut. I performed, I acted, I played the part. Still the pieces were removed. Going along with everything didn’t make it stop. I was still worthless, not good enough, evil, going to hell, cruel, emotionally unbalanced, over dramatic, attention seeking and demonic. Sometimes my abuser would see that I was raw and bloody, a small child who just needed love, and would put a few pieces of skin back on so the neighbors wouldn’t see what I mess I’d become. I relished those moments. But those pieces never went on the right way. They never quite fit the image of what I should have been. So they were removed again, examined, and put back, only to be removed once more. I was a science experiment in mental programming, a pawn in a chess game, a warm-blooded snack for vampires to feast on. 
I'm done
Trigger warning: narcissistic abuse . . . . . . . In the past two months I've slowly come to terms with the extent of my childhood trauma. This little guy is one of three reasons why I'm attacking this head on. 😍 No short cuts, as @BreneBrown puts it, I'm going through the middle. I'm not going to name names, just explain how I felt about what happened. I am sharing this because I haven't had a voice for 27 years, and I want to speak. I want to inspire others who haven't yet found their voice to see that they're not alone. Even now, standing up and shedding light on my experiences is giving me anxiety and fear. An individual with narcissistic personality disorder comorbid with histrionic personality disorder will stop at nothing to keep THEIR version of reality the ONLY version of reality. Except it’s not. It’s not even close. My turn. My emotional skin was removed daily, constantly, with tweezers a piece at a time. One comment here, another there, a false accusation, snide remarks, distortions of my reality, condemnation, ridicule, humiliation, the list goes on. I learned if I asserted myself, bigger chunks would be removed. So I sewed my mouth shut. I performed, I acted, I played the part. Still the pieces were removed. Going along with everything didn’t make it stop. I was still worthless, not good enough, evil, going to hell, cruel, emotionally unbalanced, over dramatic, attention seeking and demonic. Sometimes my abuser would see that I was raw and bloody, a small child who just needed love, and would put a few pieces of skin back on so the neighbors wouldn’t see what I mess I’d become. I relished those moments. But those pieces never went on the right way. They never quite fit the image of what I should have been. So they were removed again, examined, and put back, only to be removed once more. I was a science experiment in mental programming, a pawn in a chess game, a warm-blooded snack for vampires to feast on. I'm done
Sometimes we forget we are held and also alive because of something much larger. Something that holds us .... How surely gravity’s law

Strong as an ocean current,

Takes hold of even the strongest thing

And pulls it toward the heart of the world. 
Each thing – each stone, blossom, child – is held in place.

Only we, in our arrogance,

Push out beyond what we belong to

For some empty freedom. 
If we surrendered to Earth’s intelligence

We could rise up, rooted, like trees …

This is what the things can teach us: to fall,

Patiently to trust our heaviness.

Even a bird has to do that

Before he can fly. 
Rainer Maria Rilke Rilke’s Book of Hours: Love Poems to God New York: Riverhead, 1996 (Translated by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy)

#rilke #traumarecovery #life #hope #possibilities #presentmoment #poetry #gravity
Sometimes we forget we are held and also alive because of something much larger. Something that holds us .... How surely gravity’s law Strong as an ocean current, Takes hold of even the strongest thing And pulls it toward the heart of the world. Each thing – each stone, blossom, child – is held in place. Only we, in our arrogance, Push out beyond what we belong to For some empty freedom. If we surrendered to Earth’s intelligence We could rise up, rooted, like trees … This is what the things can teach us: to fall, Patiently to trust our heaviness. Even a bird has to do that Before he can fly. Rainer Maria Rilke Rilke’s Book of Hours: Love Poems to God New York: Riverhead, 1996 (Translated by Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy) #rilke  #traumarecovery  #life  #hope  #possibilities  #presentmoment  #poetry  #gravity 
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🌸 [27.05.2018] 🌸 [part ii] 🌸
-yeah, deanna looks fine, but her head’s a mess. i don’t know how to be “normal” around food yet. i just eat less and less. but i guess i never learned. i don’t like food. i see poison all over it. y’all know what you like; i don’t.’ eating causes panic attacks; literally any food, even safe ones. because anyone can choke on anything. my mum sometimes thinks i want this, daddy thinks it’s a phase. no wants to take me anywhere. im lonely all year because i avoid my school’s social clubs. i don’t even think im recovering because, well, how do i? my fear of chocking is fairly rational.
|| #cerebralpalsy #cp #physicaldisability #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #anorexia #bulimia #osfed #ednos #arfid #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edsolider #edwarrior #arfidrecovery #osfedrecovery #anarecovery #miarecovery #fuckED #depression #anxiety #suicide #selfinjury #posttraumaticstressdisorder #ptsd #trauma #traumarecovery #kickEDNOSass
🌸 [27.05.2018] 🌸 [part ii] 🌸 -yeah, deanna looks fine, but her head’s a mess. i don’t know how to be “normal” around food yet. i just eat less and less. but i guess i never learned. i don’t like food. i see poison all over it. y’all know what you like; i don’t.’ eating causes panic attacks; literally any food, even safe ones. because anyone can choke on anything. my mum sometimes thinks i want this, daddy thinks it’s a phase. no wants to take me anywhere. im lonely all year because i avoid my school’s social clubs. i don’t even think im recovering because, well, how do i? my fear of chocking is fairly rational. || #cerebralpalsy  #cp  #physicaldisability  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #anorexia  #bulimia  #osfed  #ednos  #arfid  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edsolider  #edwarrior  #arfidrecovery  #osfedrecovery  #anarecovery  #miarecovery  #fuckED  #depression  #anxiety  #suicide  #selfinjury  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #ptsd  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #kickEDNOSass 
So you’re afraid to make something because it hasn’t been done before and that scares you. Or maybe you’re afraid to make something that looks like something else and that scares you too because you want to be original and shit. Look friend, fear is a teacher. Check in. Create from a space that inspires. Ditch the ego. Honor the teachers that have brought you where you are. Collaborate. Dream big. Do it afraid. ✨
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#brave #warrior #mentalhealth #traumarecovery #healing #coach #lightworker #yogateacher #poetrycommunity #survivor #poetry #poet #embodycoach #tellyourstory #seattleyoga #vsco #writing #inspiration #poetsofinstagram #truth #writersofinstagram #writersofinstagram #discover #yogatherapy #surviver #arttherapy #brave #doitafraid
So you’re afraid to make something because it hasn’t been done before and that scares you. Or maybe you’re afraid to make something that looks like something else and that scares you too because you want to be original and shit. Look friend, fear is a teacher. Check in. Create from a space that inspires. Ditch the ego. Honor the teachers that have brought you where you are. Collaborate. Dream big. Do it afraid. ✨ ✨ ✨ #brave  #warrior  #mentalhealth  #traumarecovery  #healing  #coach  #lightworker  #yogateacher  #poetrycommunity  #survivor  #poetry  #poet  #embodycoach  #tellyourstory  #seattleyoga  #vsco  #writing  #inspiration  #poetsofinstagram  #truth  #writersofinstagram  #writersofinstagram  #discover  #yogatherapy  #surviver  #arttherapy  #brave  #doitafraid 
There is one word that has the ability to keep a person going, even when nothing seems to be going as planned: Hope. It keeps the positivity alive in an otherwise negative world.
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We have to hope that every negative thing we deal with during this journey to sobriety- recovery, fighting our urges, trying to stay afloat- will change. And we have to follow through on that hope, as you know. Hope isn't some magical power source. It is a motivator. It is a little sprout in the dry sand. A tool to aid you in your journey.
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#addictionrecovery #addictionrecoveryutah #traumarecovery #soberutah #soberinutah #hope #motivatornotmagic #recoverstrong
There is one word that has the ability to keep a person going, even when nothing seems to be going as planned: Hope. It keeps the positivity alive in an otherwise negative world. * We have to hope that every negative thing we deal with during this journey to sobriety- recovery, fighting our urges, trying to stay afloat- will change. And we have to follow through on that hope, as you know. Hope isn't some magical power source. It is a motivator. It is a little sprout in the dry sand. A tool to aid you in your journey. * #addictionrecovery  #addictionrecoveryutah  #traumarecovery  #soberutah  #soberinutah  #hope  #motivatornotmagic  #recoverstrong 
The only reason you should look back is either to see how far you've come or to reminish memories. Never look back in regret. #dancingmywaythroughlife
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PS: have you seen my Instagram Stories? I had 2 shoots today of which one ended up in blood!😱
(No worries, I'm fine after all!)
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📸by @gouniia
The only reason you should look back is either to see how far you've come or to reminish memories. Never look back in regret. #dancingmywaythroughlife  • PS: have you seen my Instagram Stories? I had 2 shoots today of which one ended up in blood!😱 (No worries, I'm fine after all!) • 👗by @basilicadancewear 📸by @gouniia
🌸 [27.05.2018] 🌸 [part i] 🌸
arfid isn’t like other ed. there is no returning to who i once was, there is only who i am. i’ve had this since age 7, after i chocked on an entire hotdog. so over time, from 7 to 11, i determined what i could eat by careful deliberation—colour, texture, size, shape and taste. no one noticed; nothing was ever wrong in blood work, weight, etc. arfid persisted, my list of safe foods growing smaller. now my shopping list covers half of a page, one column. when i was 16, my sister, refused to cook for me, being that i was “too picky.” i don’t remember the last time i ate a proper portion of veg. i cried when i ate chicken. at 18, i went pescatarian, claiming, “i don’t like meat.” truthfully, it petrified me; i’d choke.
|| #cerebralpalsy #cp #physicaldisability #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #anorexia #bulimia #osfed #ednos #arfid #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edsolider #edwarrior #arfidrecovery #osfedrecovery #anarecovery #miarecovery #fuckED #depression #anxiety #suicide #selfinjury #posttraumaticstressdisorder #ptsd #trauma #traumarecovery #kickEDNOSass
🌸 [27.05.2018] 🌸 [part i] 🌸 arfid isn’t like other ed. there is no returning to who i once was, there is only who i am. i’ve had this since age 7, after i chocked on an entire hotdog. so over time, from 7 to 11, i determined what i could eat by careful deliberation—colour, texture, size, shape and taste. no one noticed; nothing was ever wrong in blood work, weight, etc. arfid persisted, my list of safe foods growing smaller. now my shopping list covers half of a page, one column. when i was 16, my sister, refused to cook for me, being that i was “too picky.” i don’t remember the last time i ate a proper portion of veg. i cried when i ate chicken. at 18, i went pescatarian, claiming, “i don’t like meat.” truthfully, it petrified me; i’d choke. || #cerebralpalsy  #cp  #physicaldisability  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #anorexia  #bulimia  #osfed  #ednos  #arfid  #recovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edsolider  #edwarrior  #arfidrecovery  #osfedrecovery  #anarecovery  #miarecovery  #fuckED  #depression  #anxiety  #suicide  #selfinjury  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #ptsd  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #kickEDNOSass 
Who knew a single phone call could be so traumatic? Who knew hearing a voice say hello.... could send chills down your spine? An unrecognized voice by me was all too familiar for someone else. Those few sentences said threw me into a chaotic tornado of impulsivity, restlessness, and chaos. Today I woke up feeling Ok again after 48 hours of mental hell. #mentalhealthawareness #traumahealing #traumarecovery #rapesurvivor #ptsd #metoo #neverthelessshepersisted #nomore #nomoreexcuses #endthestigma #humantraffickingsurvivor #modernslavery #humantrafficking #selfcare #selfcarematters #endvictimblaming #endvictimshaming #nomoreexcuses #survivornotvictim #avoiceinthesilence #posttraumaticstressdisorder #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthmatters #youarestrong #strongerthanyouthink #youarenotalone
Who knew a single phone call could be so traumatic? Who knew hearing a voice say hello.... could send chills down your spine? An unrecognized voice by me was all too familiar for someone else. Those few sentences said threw me into a chaotic tornado of impulsivity, restlessness, and chaos. Today I woke up feeling Ok again after 48 hours of mental hell. #mentalhealthawareness  #traumahealing  #traumarecovery  #rapesurvivor  #ptsd  #metoo  #neverthelessshepersisted  #nomore  #nomoreexcuses  #endthestigma  #humantraffickingsurvivor  #modernslavery  #humantrafficking  #selfcare  #selfcarematters  #endvictimblaming  #endvictimshaming  #nomoreexcuses  #survivornotvictim  #avoiceinthesilence  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #mentalhealthsupport  #mentalhealthmatters  #youarestrong  #strongerthanyouthink  #youarenotalone 
Imagine beauty and love as never destroyed, only lost in winter until spring arrives. 
#peace #spring #flower #lilac #beauty #writing #writersofinstagram #poetrycommunity #traumarecovery #ptsd #mentalhealth
Healing yourself begins here. This is your job to do, and to figure out for yourself. Nobody else can convince you to do this, you have to decide.

Drop the grudge you’ve held against yourself for somehow not being who, how, or what you thought you should be. If you compare yourself to other people, and find you always come out short, you’re only hurting yourself.

If you’re mad at yourself because you made a few mistakes, you should know that I did too, lots of them actually. So did your best friends, family members, and everyone who was ever human. Mistakes are part of life, and if you haven’t gotten used to them, or you find them unforgivable, it’s time to find a way to lighten up and let that go.

The person you hurt the most by not loving yourself is you, but others notice too. Your energetic vibration is very different when you love yourself, versus when you don’t. Your self hatred will affect everyone around you. Some of them will stay away because it’s too uncomfortable to be near you. Some will try to heal you. Other people will simply refuse to do business with you until you begin running a happier healthier vibration of energy.

Read more at https://buff.ly/2Jbx5b0

#bravebird #selfcaresundays #Healing 
#selflove #LoveYourself 
#releaseyourself #forgiveandletgo #release #loveyourself #selfcarefirst #selfcareissacred #selfcare #selfcareritual #forgiveness #releasefear #loveyourselfenough 
#traumarecovery
#domesticviolencesurvivor
#domesticviolence #healthandfitness
#healthyeating
Healing yourself begins here. This is your job to do, and to figure out for yourself. Nobody else can convince you to do this, you have to decide. Drop the grudge you’ve held against yourself for somehow not being who, how, or what you thought you should be. If you compare yourself to other people, and find you always come out short, you’re only hurting yourself. If you’re mad at yourself because you made a few mistakes, you should know that I did too, lots of them actually. So did your best friends, family members, and everyone who was ever human. Mistakes are part of life, and if you haven’t gotten used to them, or you find them unforgivable, it’s time to find a way to lighten up and let that go. The person you hurt the most by not loving yourself is you, but others notice too. Your energetic vibration is very different when you love yourself, versus when you don’t. Your self hatred will affect everyone around you. Some of them will stay away because it’s too uncomfortable to be near you. Some will try to heal you. Other people will simply refuse to do business with you until you begin running a happier healthier vibration of energy. Read more at https://buff.ly/2Jbx5b0 #bravebird  #selfcaresundays  #Healing  #selflove  #LoveYourself  #releaseyourself  #forgiveandletgo  #release  #loveyourself  #selfcarefirst  #selfcareissacred  #selfcare  #selfcareritual  #forgiveness  #releasefear  #loveyourselfenough  #traumarecovery  #domesticviolencesurvivor  #domesticviolence  #healthandfitness  #healthyeating 
In recognition of #worldmsday.  I don’t want to make this all about me, but it is neither a secret nor my identity that I have MS. Many with chronic illness cannot choose how open to be about it - their symptoms announce their health condition to the world or they simply want to keep it to themselves. I personally chose to be open about my diagnosis as a means of coping. It’s grounding and reassuring to be transparent with my community. 
How is chronic illness trauma? Aside from the shock of initial diagnosis, even getting to that diagnosis and navigating the symptoms that lead one there can be pure hell. I know a lot of people with autoimmune conditions - I think most of us do anymore as our environment and lifestyles have become so inflammatory - and many still cannot get a diagnosis because their symptoms are so anomalous or there just isn’t a test for everything. I used to believe that diagnoses were harmful, that people placed too much identity in them, and this can be true, but I now see how trying to figure out just what the hell is wrong so I know what to do can be even worse. 
As I’ve said, trauma is more information than the nervous system can process, and when your body, the house of your Self, is behaving bizarrely, changing dramatically from day to day without clear causes it is hard to know what this Self of yours is and what to expect. Sounds like nervous system scramble to me. 
Or maybe your diagnosis is arrived at readily, but you still have the experience of being sick. Fluctuating or increasing symptoms. Fear of infecting others. Facing mortality. Concerns for affecting loved ones. Inability to work, play, ambulate, care for yourself. Fear of judgement. 
There are so many ways to personally experience chronic illness. 
I’ve found it is easy to feel sorry for myself. When I do I quit enjoying life and fail to see what good I have, becoming that dreaded victim of my diagnosis. I’ve learned a lot from my friends with longtime HIV. They got sick when their diagnosis meant death, yet here they remain decades later. They’ve taught me to live the life you want because you might just get it.
In recognition of #worldmsday . I don’t want to make this all about me, but it is neither a secret nor my identity that I have MS. Many with chronic illness cannot choose how open to be about it - their symptoms announce their health condition to the world or they simply want to keep it to themselves. I personally chose to be open about my diagnosis as a means of coping. It’s grounding and reassuring to be transparent with my community. How is chronic illness trauma? Aside from the shock of initial diagnosis, even getting to that diagnosis and navigating the symptoms that lead one there can be pure hell. I know a lot of people with autoimmune conditions - I think most of us do anymore as our environment and lifestyles have become so inflammatory - and many still cannot get a diagnosis because their symptoms are so anomalous or there just isn’t a test for everything. I used to believe that diagnoses were harmful, that people placed too much identity in them, and this can be true, but I now see how trying to figure out just what the hell is wrong so I know what to do can be even worse. As I’ve said, trauma is more information than the nervous system can process, and when your body, the house of your Self, is behaving bizarrely, changing dramatically from day to day without clear causes it is hard to know what this Self of yours is and what to expect. Sounds like nervous system scramble to me. Or maybe your diagnosis is arrived at readily, but you still have the experience of being sick. Fluctuating or increasing symptoms. Fear of infecting others. Facing mortality. Concerns for affecting loved ones. Inability to work, play, ambulate, care for yourself. Fear of judgement. There are so many ways to personally experience chronic illness. I’ve found it is easy to feel sorry for myself. When I do I quit enjoying life and fail to see what good I have, becoming that dreaded victim of my diagnosis. I’ve learned a lot from my friends with longtime HIV. They got sick when their diagnosis meant death, yet here they remain decades later. They’ve taught me to live the life you want because you might just get it.
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Just a small attempt at an update...
Things haven't been good with me, in fact they got as bad as they possibly could go... I had a meeting at uni - it wasn't the reason, but it was a big factor - it involved pushing myself a lot and a sense of holding myself together when there was a lot going on for me. 
I've had to stay with my parents (rabbits included) - it is temporary - the plan is to stay for 2 weeks and then review, but probably stay longer - basically until I feel able to live in my flat again and keep myself safe.
At first I didn't know what was wrong with me - it reallt felt as though I woke up one morning feeling like I couldn't live anymore. But I've since managed to establish with my therapist that there were actually lots of reasons. One of the main reasons - I seem to be struggling to manage and regulate certain emotions - mainly loneliness, but feeds into shame and anger. My therapist says I am also suffering from a severe depressive episode, that's on top of my usual struggles with DID and CPTSD. But it is also clear that other parts of me are not depressed - I may be able to draw upon them to help me through this.
I could say a lot more, I will hopefully say more. It's been so scary. I am still feeling so scared, lost and not myself. Just trying to stay 💪
 #depression #sucidal #update #journal #dissociativeidentitydisorder #cptsd #traumarecovery #mentalhealth #legs #laces #mentalhealth #nature #flowers #magical #amazingsight #glow #enchanting #peace #tranquility #tree #blossom #pretty #shade #stunning #calm #peaceful #breathe #green #fairytale #positivity #recovery
~ UPDATE/Explanation ~ Just a small attempt at an update... Things haven't been good with me, in fact they got as bad as they possibly could go... I had a meeting at uni - it wasn't the reason, but it was a big factor - it involved pushing myself a lot and a sense of holding myself together when there was a lot going on for me. I've had to stay with my parents (rabbits included) - it is temporary - the plan is to stay for 2 weeks and then review, but probably stay longer - basically until I feel able to live in my flat again and keep myself safe. At first I didn't know what was wrong with me - it reallt felt as though I woke up one morning feeling like I couldn't live anymore. But I've since managed to establish with my therapist that there were actually lots of reasons. One of the main reasons - I seem to be struggling to manage and regulate certain emotions - mainly loneliness, but feeds into shame and anger. My therapist says I am also suffering from a severe depressive episode, that's on top of my usual struggles with DID and CPTSD. But it is also clear that other parts of me are not depressed - I may be able to draw upon them to help me through this. I could say a lot more, I will hopefully say more. It's been so scary. I am still feeling so scared, lost and not myself. Just trying to stay 💪 #depression  #sucidal  #update  #journal  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #cptsd  #traumarecovery  #mentalhealth  #legs  #laces  #mentalhealth  #nature  #flowers  #magical  #amazingsight  #glow  #enchanting  #peace  #tranquility  #tree  #blossom  #pretty  #shade  #stunning  #calm  #peaceful  #breathe  #green  #fairytale  #positivity  #recovery 
Is our motherhood today serving our children’s sense of victimization, or enhancing their personal strength? This question is something I still ponder, still ask of myself, daily. .
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I gave birth to and raised five precious human beings. They each have their own adult lives, families, struggles, and unique personalities. Three of my children love and honor me today, two reject and judge me. .
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I find it curious that while we love each of our children the very same way, it won’t always feel like the same loving experience, it won’t always lead to the same mutual connection. Should I be grateful, or feel guilty?
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I’ve often asked myself how could I have done a better job. I know that I have loved them all. I still do and always will. And, I so much wish to have their love in return. But what I’ve come to realize is: how they relate to me is their choice.
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As a mother, I accept this and work to not judge them, or myself. Healthy perspective is a matter of choice. As mothers we pray that God watches over all of us, and guides us to a space of mutual compassion. .
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“You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are set forth.” ~ Kahlil Gibran.
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#kalilgibran #quotable #motherhood #authenticity #womenshealth #womensempowermentproject2018 
#womensempowerment #reallife #guilt #pmsd #writing #epiphany #raisingkids #moms #workshops #traumarecovery #traumarelease #healthychoices #healing #chakrahealing #mindfulness #faithbased #successmindset #healthylifestyle
Is our motherhood today serving our children’s sense of victimization, or enhancing their personal strength? This question is something I still ponder, still ask of myself, daily. . . . I gave birth to and raised five precious human beings. They each have their own adult lives, families, struggles, and unique personalities. Three of my children love and honor me today, two reject and judge me. . . . I find it curious that while we love each of our children the very same way, it won’t always feel like the same loving experience, it won’t always lead to the same mutual connection. Should I be grateful, or feel guilty? . . . I’ve often asked myself how could I have done a better job. I know that I have loved them all. I still do and always will. And, I so much wish to have their love in return. But what I’ve come to realize is: how they relate to me is their choice. . . . As a mother, I accept this and work to not judge them, or myself. Healthy perspective is a matter of choice. As mothers we pray that God watches over all of us, and guides us to a space of mutual compassion. . . . “You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are set forth.” ~ Kahlil Gibran. . . #kalilgibran  #quotable  #motherhood  #authenticity  #womenshealth  #womensempowermentproject2018  #womensempowerment  #reallife  #guilt  #pmsd  #writing  #epiphany  #raisingkids  #moms  #workshops  #traumarecovery  #traumarelease  #healthychoices  #healing  #chakrahealing  #mindfulness  #faithbased  #successmindset  #healthylifestyle 
I 100% believe this. We are not broken, or damaged - we just have some bullshit to clear off our soul. 
#selflove #recovery #traumarecovery #addictionrecovery #sobriety #loveyourself #cultivatinggrowth
#SuccessStorySundays with HBOT! This week is an inspiring story of a toddler with brain damage. 🧠 Check the link to see the full story! https://www.yahoo.com/gma/scientists-reverse-brain-damage-toddler-002314907.html  #braindamage #traumarecovery #HBOT #success #alternativemedicine #oxygenrevolution
Word choice shared by a 98 year-old conference participant, after engaging in a group somatic experience yesterday.
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May each of us continue to evolve until we’re 98 years young and beyond. (More on this sweet man’s impact in next month’s newsletter.)
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#traumarecovery #selfacceptance #alwaysastudent #somaticexperiencing #tuningin #gratitude #thankful #fcrp #embodyedtides
When you love someone you nurture and listen to them, so the same should go for your best friend in life: yourself. Your body communicates with you through signals and emotions, pain and harmony, ease and disease. It gives you hints everyday for what it needs, so you have to pay close attention to it. How do you feel when you are unheard and not attended to by others? That's exactly how your body feels when you are neglecting it. It feels hurt and apathy when it's needs are not met or when you disregard its signals. It creates disharmony when it is fed improperly with food that lacks nutrition as well as when it's over fed or malnourished. Prioritize your body, it enables you to live and experience this life. Respect your body, it is your vehicle and enabler for your divine soul to incarnate in this life. When body, mind and soul are integrated and aligned, you have the opportunity to truly live life to the fullest🌸 
Repost @law_of_positivism

#bravebird #selfcaresundays⠀
#releaseyourself #forgiveandletgo #release #loveyourself #selfcarefirst #selfcareissacred #selfcare #selfcareritual #forgiveness #releasefear #loveyourselfenough 
#traumarecovery
#domesticviolencesurvivor
#domesticviolence #healthandfitness
#healthyeating
#loveyourbody #loveyourself #healingfoods #healyourself #selfhealing #lawofpositivism #meditation #affirmation
When you love someone you nurture and listen to them, so the same should go for your best friend in life: yourself. Your body communicates with you through signals and emotions, pain and harmony, ease and disease. It gives you hints everyday for what it needs, so you have to pay close attention to it. How do you feel when you are unheard and not attended to by others? That's exactly how your body feels when you are neglecting it. It feels hurt and apathy when it's needs are not met or when you disregard its signals. It creates disharmony when it is fed improperly with food that lacks nutrition as well as when it's over fed or malnourished. Prioritize your body, it enables you to live and experience this life. Respect your body, it is your vehicle and enabler for your divine soul to incarnate in this life. When body, mind and soul are integrated and aligned, you have the opportunity to truly live life to the fullest🌸 Repost @law_of_positivism #bravebird  #selfcaresundays ⠀ #releaseyourself  #forgiveandletgo  #release  #loveyourself  #selfcarefirst  #selfcareissacred  #selfcare  #selfcareritual  #forgiveness  #releasefear  #loveyourselfenough  #traumarecovery  #domesticviolencesurvivor  #domesticviolence  #healthandfitness  #healthyeating  #loveyourbody  #loveyourself  #healingfoods  #healyourself  #selfhealing  #lawofpositivism  #meditation  #affirmation 
Life seems a little less overwhelming and fucking nuts 🥜 with our #colortherapy glasses on. We all got a new pair today and it completely shifted our moods, things really did feel better, we smiled, we laughed, we pointed and ooooh’d and ahhhhh’d at EVERYTHING we saw! !

You should totally check these out, not only will you look like a total badass but you’ll feel like one too, or at least we do!! !

There is a science behind it that I can’t begin to explain, so you should read up on them, but they work and my son wants one in every color!! !

If you’ve had them in the past I’d love to hear about your experience with them and which color you liked best or maybe didn’t like! !  #traumarecovery #therapyglasses #iseeyoulooking #wegotthis #onedayatatime #soulsalutations #sunshine #mylove #warrior #smile #livelifehappy #weekendvibes
Life seems a little less overwhelming and fucking nuts 🥜 with our #colortherapy  glasses on. We all got a new pair today and it completely shifted our moods, things really did feel better, we smiled, we laughed, we pointed and ooooh’d and ahhhhh’d at EVERYTHING we saw! ! You should totally check these out, not only will you look like a total badass but you’ll feel like one too, or at least we do!! ! There is a science behind it that I can’t begin to explain, so you should read up on them, but they work and my son wants one in every color!! ! If you’ve had them in the past I’d love to hear about your experience with them and which color you liked best or maybe didn’t like! ! #traumarecovery  #therapyglasses  #iseeyoulooking  #wegotthis  #onedayatatime  #soulsalutations  #sunshine  #mylove  #warrior  #smile  #livelifehappy  #weekendvibes 
#outofficus 😆 The last piece of my Chocolate Birthday Cake (ref previous posts) .... last piece #glutenfree
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Indulgence is #bliss and there’s a #childwithin that has #smile from ear to ear👦🏻
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Although not as nourishing as less processed foods, it’s moments like these that are best shared with others! It can create the opportunity for open dialogue, that’s not to serious and light hearted ... even if it means simply smiling at each other and sharing the moment 😊
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#ptsd #ptsdfamily #ptsdrecovery #ptsdawareness #complexptsd #cptsd #anxiety #yum #sundayafternoon #lgbt #🏳️‍🌈
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#image credit #ilariovitalis means #happylife
#outofficus  😆 The last piece of my Chocolate Birthday Cake (ref previous posts) .... last piece #glutenfree  • BUT i’ll share it with my beloved #partner  Mario 🏳️‍🌈👬🏳️‍🌈 ... with extra dollops of vanilla bean lactose free whipped cream ... view next image 😊 • Indulgence is #bliss  and there’s a #childwithin  that has #smile  from ear to ear👦🏻 • Although not as nourishing as less processed foods, it’s moments like these that are best shared with others! It can create the opportunity for open dialogue, that’s not to serious and light hearted ... even if it means simply smiling at each other and sharing the moment 😊 • #ptsd  #ptsdfamily  #ptsdrecovery  #ptsdawareness  #complexptsd  #cptsd  #anxiety  #yum  #sundayafternoon  #lgbt  #🏳️‍🌈 • #survivor  #traumarecovery  • #image  credit #ilariovitalis  means #happylife 
So this was interesting tonight, my first personal threat from social media that went beyond normal trolling...earlier in the comment string he also told me he could ruin my channel and personally, essentially, ruin every video and venture I am a part of as well as “exposing me to employers,” and telling me repeatedly I was personally responsible for the rapes of thousands of women’s for suggesting Tony Robbins said something incorrectly. This was on the video I did about Tony Robbins #metoo comments last month and suggesting he could do better...so let me just repeat, for the record, that I believe 100% it is right to call out those in positions of power or authority when they speak wrongly or go astray. I believe that good deeds do not justify bad ones - because Tony has done good for many people, I’m being told I should shut up and not speak up when I see him saying something that I believe is wrong. I disagree. We are allowed to question leaders and heroes - and we should. Good actions do not outweigh bad and should not be used to silence people - we should be called out when we do or say wrong. And that goes for me too - none of us are above fault. So I’m going to keep speaking what I see and believe, and if I ever go to far or say the wrong thing, I hope I will be called out and corrected and will honestly apologize...but I’m not going to stop fighting for this cause because of the threats of trolls.  Thank you for your continued incredible support. 💜
So this was interesting tonight, my first personal threat from social media that went beyond normal trolling...earlier in the comment string he also told me he could ruin my channel and personally, essentially, ruin every video and venture I am a part of as well as “exposing me to employers,” and telling me repeatedly I was personally responsible for the rapes of thousands of women’s for suggesting Tony Robbins said something incorrectly. This was on the video I did about Tony Robbins #metoo  comments last month and suggesting he could do better...so let me just repeat, for the record, that I believe 100% it is right to call out those in positions of power or authority when they speak wrongly or go astray. I believe that good deeds do not justify bad ones - because Tony has done good for many people, I’m being told I should shut up and not speak up when I see him saying something that I believe is wrong. I disagree. We are allowed to question leaders and heroes - and we should. Good actions do not outweigh bad and should not be used to silence people - we should be called out when we do or say wrong. And that goes for me too - none of us are above fault. So I’m going to keep speaking what I see and believe, and if I ever go to far or say the wrong thing, I hope I will be called out and corrected and will honestly apologize...but I’m not going to stop fighting for this cause because of the threats of trolls. Thank you for your continued incredible support. 💜
I took this picture today at an open house...I used to be completely terrified of being alone - ever. But especially in strange places. And now I work in a career where I routinely work open houses by myself, and I’m okay. For me, that’s a huge sign of progress...it’s taken six years, but I find I’m less on edge than I used to be, and I can be alone and not afraid somedays. Not every day - but somedays. Triggers DO get better. I’m still working on lowering that one for me, but it gets better year by year. Whatever yours are, know that with time and a bit of work, they will ease too. 💜
I took this picture today at an open house...I used to be completely terrified of being alone - ever. But especially in strange places. And now I work in a career where I routinely work open houses by myself, and I’m okay. For me, that’s a huge sign of progress...it’s taken six years, but I find I’m less on edge than I used to be, and I can be alone and not afraid somedays. Not every day - but somedays. Triggers DO get better. I’m still working on lowering that one for me, but it gets better year by year. Whatever yours are, know that with time and a bit of work, they will ease too. 💜
Shout out to my buddy @bda_pimmy for capturing a bit of the half marathon action🎥 This must’ve been around mile 10 or so coming into Hamilton
Shout out to my buddy @bda_pimmy for capturing a bit of the half marathon action🎥 This must’ve been around mile 10 or so coming into Hamilton
I forgive you. I understand you now. You have the heart of a warrior. I see you now. All of you. And You are loved. 
#wiseheart #selflove #traumarecovery #stillhere #stillhealing
Did you know forward folds help calm your nervous system? When you breathe and relax into these folds it is a cue to your parasympathetic nervous system that it is safe to let go. You want these folds to last 2-4 minutes for full effect. You can do them standing or sitting. Keep a big bend in your knees and allow gravity to do the work for you. All you have to do is hang and breathe. I like to interlace my fingers at the base of my neck to release tension from my occipital bone, but do what feels good for you. When you do soften out of this pose, take your time to come to hands and knees or slowly rise. No rush. Give your body time to readjust from the inversion. Namaste y’all. Let me know how it goes.✌🏼
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#brave #warrior #mentalhealth #traumarecovery #healing #coach #lightworker #yogateacher #storyteller #survivor #poetry #poet #embodycoach #seattle #seattleyoga #vsco #writing #inspiration #poetsofinstagram #truth #breathe #stralaeverywhere #writersofinstagram  #traumainformedyoga #traumasensitiveyoga #spiritjunkie #advocate #yogateacher
Did you know forward folds help calm your nervous system? When you breathe and relax into these folds it is a cue to your parasympathetic nervous system that it is safe to let go. You want these folds to last 2-4 minutes for full effect. You can do them standing or sitting. Keep a big bend in your knees and allow gravity to do the work for you. All you have to do is hang and breathe. I like to interlace my fingers at the base of my neck to release tension from my occipital bone, but do what feels good for you. When you do soften out of this pose, take your time to come to hands and knees or slowly rise. No rush. Give your body time to readjust from the inversion. Namaste y’all. Let me know how it goes.✌🏼 ✨ ✨ #brave  #warrior  #mentalhealth  #traumarecovery  #healing  #coach  #lightworker  #yogateacher  #storyteller  #survivor  #poetry  #poet  #embodycoach  #seattle  #seattleyoga  #vsco  #writing  #inspiration  #poetsofinstagram  #truth  #breathe  #stralaeverywhere  #writersofinstagram  #traumainformedyoga  #traumasensitiveyoga  #spiritjunkie  #advocate  #yogateacher 
The beautiful campus grounds of Pendle Hill... 🌳🍃🌱🌞🐿🦋🙏🏻🧚‍♂️
The beautiful campus grounds of Pendle Hill... 🌳🍃🌱🌞🐿🦋🙏🏻🧚‍♂️
Drunk dream last night. So happy to be able to wake up to my beautifully imperfect sober life! #gratitude#sobriety #recoverystories #anxiety #mindfulness #thankfulformylife #lovemylife #traumarecovery #realityrocks #cultivatinggrowth
As we uplevel into new layers of Consciousness, we are straddling two worlds, two versions of Us. THIS is one reason we practice Mindfulness...so that we can observe ourselves as we are in the moment...the moment of Emotional Reactions without fully engaging in them.
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This can present as either:
Feeling the truth of your new pattern, while watching yourself engage in old pattern behaviors.
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Feeling the old pattern, while watching yourself engage in new pattern behaviors.
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...probably another hundred more subtle and unique ways that we express our ever evolving and complex consciousness.
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Give yourself a compassionate pat on the back and find some time to practice Mindfulness. There is never a time you won't need it in your toolbox as we move forward into the next level.
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#mindfulmorning #witnessconsciousness #watchyourself #levelup #transition #healingisnonlinear #healingtools #evolveyourconsciousness #youareenough #youareinfinite #choosethenextbestthought #traumarecovery #ptsdrecovery #morningmotivation #mindfulness #mindfulnessisapractice #offthemat #healing #trust
As we uplevel into new layers of Consciousness, we are straddling two worlds, two versions of Us. THIS is one reason we practice Mindfulness...so that we can observe ourselves as we are in the moment...the moment of Emotional Reactions without fully engaging in them. . This can present as either: Feeling the truth of your new pattern, while watching yourself engage in old pattern behaviors. Or: Feeling the old pattern, while watching yourself engage in new pattern behaviors. And: ...probably another hundred more subtle and unique ways that we express our ever evolving and complex consciousness. . Give yourself a compassionate pat on the back and find some time to practice Mindfulness. There is never a time you won't need it in your toolbox as we move forward into the next level. . #mindfulmorning  #witnessconsciousness  #watchyourself  #levelup  #transition  #healingisnonlinear  #healingtools  #evolveyourconsciousness  #youareenough  #youareinfinite  #choosethenextbestthought  #traumarecovery  #ptsdrecovery  #morningmotivation  #mindfulness  #mindfulnessisapractice  #offthemat  #healing  #trust 
“Never lose faith in yourself, and never lose hope; remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back, there is still always hope.”
Pittacus Lore
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#addictionrecovery #addictionrecoveryutah #traumarecovery #soberutah #soberinutah #recoverstrong #hope #hopequotes #faithandhope
When upleveling yourself...FIND YOUR TRIBE! 💥🔥💥 Look in unusual places for them, they may not be anywhere near you.

These are my POWER PARTNERS! I've been on calls with them every morning for over a year and a half...BY CHOICE!📱📅 .
Today is only the SECOND time I've met them in person. They live in Utah, I'm in PA.

We support and empower each other to be better than the day before, and work through challenges and struggles.👏🙌 .
Who are your people that support your growth and expansion?

#empoweredoverthinker #vivifyyourlife #getouttayourhead #powerpartners #supportsystem #veteran #traumarecovery #ptsdawareness #laptoplifestyle #nourish #gratitude #abundance #ladyboss #entrepreneur #entrepreneurlife #businesstrip #motivationalspeaker #bikerchick #transformation
When upleveling yourself...FIND YOUR TRIBE! 💥🔥💥 Look in unusual places for them, they may not be anywhere near you. These are my POWER PARTNERS! I've been on calls with them every morning for over a year and a half...BY CHOICE!📱📅 . Today is only the SECOND time I've met them in person. They live in Utah, I'm in PA. We support and empower each other to be better than the day before, and work through challenges and struggles.👏🙌 . Who are your people that support your growth and expansion? #empoweredoverthinker  #vivifyyourlife  #getouttayourhead  #powerpartners  #supportsystem  #veteran  #traumarecovery  #ptsdawareness  #laptoplifestyle  #nourish  #gratitude  #abundance  #ladyboss  #entrepreneur  #entrepreneurlife  #businesstrip  #motivationalspeaker  #bikerchick  #transformation 
For those of you healing from unhealthy relationships and family trauma, this is an informative, badass read! @rossrosenberg_slri investigates why codependents and narcissists gravitate toward each other from a neutral point of view. We all have some of these traits in us—we are human—but different degrees of healthy to unhealthy. He explains couple and friendship chemistry, and how to not to be a victim of family programming and unresolved trauma, which pulls us to repeated history relationships. If we don’t open our eyes and heal from trauma we will repeat same but different scenarios until we figure it out. The universe is crazy like that. It seems painful to venture in this self-exploration arena, but it isn’t as uncomfortable as I thought. In fact it’s a beautiful healing. Rosenberg refers to codependency as Self Love Deficient Disorder, which is damn refreshing—yes we can recover. Lack of self love is what keeps us humans stuck. We can recover from Ground Hog Day style living. We can learn to love and respect ourselves, have meaningful, healthy, and expanding relationships, use compassion and understanding to forgive those who hurt us, and those we have hurt. It’s all in this book, a wonderful mental health read. 😍
When we tend to ourselves and heal with clear open minds we can experience amazing, fulfilling relationships with those who take responsibility to heal and love themselves, too. Doesn’t that sound epic? 😍
And check this out. Did you know that that intense I’ve-known-you-forever love at first sight chemistry is actually a red flag for the codependent-narcissist bond. The more unhealthy the individuals the more magnetic the pull. Not to say there isn’t chemistry in healthy love, there is, is just not needy or the cure all or life pausing. And there’s this, once that intense fizzle goes away the toxins always appear. And it’s sad and it sucks! I know. I know. Yes, there was love, but unhealthy love is emotionally dangerous. 😳
Thank you for you incredible work, @rossrosenberg_slri! Grateful! 😍✌️
#relationships #mentalhealth #healing #trauma #wedorecover #traumarecovery #recovery #codependent #narcissist #freedom #msdroeselives
For those of you healing from unhealthy relationships and family trauma, this is an informative, badass read! @rossrosenberg_slri investigates why codependents and narcissists gravitate toward each other from a neutral point of view. We all have some of these traits in us—we are human—but different degrees of healthy to unhealthy. He explains couple and friendship chemistry, and how to not to be a victim of family programming and unresolved trauma, which pulls us to repeated history relationships. If we don’t open our eyes and heal from trauma we will repeat same but different scenarios until we figure it out. The universe is crazy like that. It seems painful to venture in this self-exploration arena, but it isn’t as uncomfortable as I thought. In fact it’s a beautiful healing. Rosenberg refers to codependency as Self Love Deficient Disorder, which is damn refreshing—yes we can recover. Lack of self love is what keeps us humans stuck. We can recover from Ground Hog Day style living. We can learn to love and respect ourselves, have meaningful, healthy, and expanding relationships, use compassion and understanding to forgive those who hurt us, and those we have hurt. It’s all in this book, a wonderful mental health read. 😍 When we tend to ourselves and heal with clear open minds we can experience amazing, fulfilling relationships with those who take responsibility to heal and love themselves, too. Doesn’t that sound epic? 😍 And check this out. Did you know that that intense I’ve-known-you-forever love at first sight chemistry is actually a red flag for the codependent-narcissist bond. The more unhealthy the individuals the more magnetic the pull. Not to say there isn’t chemistry in healthy love, there is, is just not needy or the cure all or life pausing. And there’s this, once that intense fizzle goes away the toxins always appear. And it’s sad and it sucks! I know. I know. Yes, there was love, but unhealthy love is emotionally dangerous. 😳 Thank you for you incredible work, @rossrosenberg_slri! Grateful! 😍✌️ #relationships  #mentalhealth  #healing  #trauma  #wedorecover  #traumarecovery  #recovery  #codependent  #narcissist  #freedom  #msdroeselives 
Just hiked to this with my family! Nature is where the calm is at friends. Resource yourself by finding that special place where your breathing slows down,  your mind quiets and you feel whole. It might be in your backyard,  the park down the street, the beach, the mountains or anywhere you feel at ease. When you find your special place you can go there mentally whenever you get hijacked with anxiety, trauma, fear or self deprecating thoughts.  You absolutely have the ability to calm your nervous system down.  Enjoy this memorial day weekend! Love you ❤ #natureistherapy #resourcing #safeplace #calmplace #getoutside #recovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #bingeeatingdisorder #addiction #sobriety #sober #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #trauma #traumarecovery #divorcerecovery #affairrecovery #letitgo #breathe #justbreathe #beherenow #thistooshallpass
Just hiked to this with my family! Nature is where the calm is at friends. Resource yourself by finding that special place where your breathing slows down, your mind quiets and you feel whole. It might be in your backyard, the park down the street, the beach, the mountains or anywhere you feel at ease. When you find your special place you can go there mentally whenever you get hijacked with anxiety, trauma, fear or self deprecating thoughts. You absolutely have the ability to calm your nervous system down. Enjoy this memorial day weekend! Love you ❤ #natureistherapy  #resourcing  #safeplace  #calmplace  #getoutside  #recovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #bingeeatingdisorder  #addiction  #sobriety  #sober  #ptsd  #ptsdrecovery  #depression  #anxiety  #mentalhealth  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #divorcerecovery  #affairrecovery  #letitgo  #breathe  #justbreathe  #beherenow  #thistooshallpass 
I know we all appreciate the people on this page who take the time to comment their experiences in relation to these posts ~ we have done so much healing (I know I have) since @healingfromabuse was started and I just want to reach more people!!!!! Let’s help each other understand the red flags of abuse and give each other the strength and support to leave early. (The longer you wait the harder it gets) #freeyourself #supportsurvivors #keeptalking Violence and domestic violence murder is real lets fuckin try to stop it.
I know we all appreciate the people on this page who take the time to comment their experiences in relation to these posts ~ we have done so much healing (I know I have) since @healingfromabuse was started and I just want to reach more people!!!!! Let’s help each other understand the red flags of abuse and give each other the strength and support to leave early. (The longer you wait the harder it gets) #freeyourself  #supportsurvivors  #keeptalking  Violence and domestic violence murder is real lets fuckin try to stop it.
I LOVE dance. It is the truest experience of my being, every time I dance, and it has always been like that through out my life. I also love teaching dance I started teaching dance 23 years ago! I feel so blessed to have the opportunity now to teach again with my ‘Dance with Erica’ class geared to dancers with injuries and a somatic embodiment twist, so we can all still connect to that freedom inside. I have been teaching movement, and training, but not dance since before my son was born 5 years ago. So thank you for giving me the opportunity to share one of my passions and raison d’être. Music: Make me feel by Janelle Monáe⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
#deepcoremuscles #traumarecovery #traumahealing #somaticexperiencing #embodiment #breathwork #mindbody #movementtherapy #kinesiology #spinehealth #mindfulstrength #movementmedicine #workingmama #mombossliving #momentrepreneur #plantmedicine #nervoussystemregulation #dancelife #Ilovedance #danceforinjuries #squamish
I LOVE dance. It is the truest experience of my being, every time I dance, and it has always been like that through out my life. I also love teaching dance I started teaching dance 23 years ago! I feel so blessed to have the opportunity now to teach again with my ‘Dance with Erica’ class geared to dancers with injuries and a somatic embodiment twist, so we can all still connect to that freedom inside. I have been teaching movement, and training, but not dance since before my son was born 5 years ago. So thank you for giving me the opportunity to share one of my passions and raison d’être. Music: Make me feel by Janelle Monáe⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #deepcoremuscles  #traumarecovery  #traumahealing  #somaticexperiencing  #embodiment  #breathwork  #mindbody  #movementtherapy  #kinesiology  #spinehealth  #mindfulstrength  #movementmedicine  #workingmama  #mombossliving  #momentrepreneur  #plantmedicine  #nervoussystemregulation  #dancelife  #Ilovedance  #danceforinjuries  #squamish 
I opened my bible maybe 5 times since October. 
It hurt too much. Every time I touched it I had to keep myself from flinching. That book was carrying the weight of helping me survive over a year of deep grief, pain, spiritual abuse, debilitating anxiety, and intense trauma. It was like the pages were coated with this deeply negative energy. I could feel it emanating from its cover. I couldn’t squint through the wound it reopened to see the beauty & comfort I’d always found in it. 
Reading my Bible became spiritually damaging when every time I picked it up I spent hours feeling tortured and oppressed by the people who had used it against me.
No one told me that could happen. No one told me it was possible for an abuser to dunk my source of comfort in poison. It was when I picked up a bible that didn’t belong to me and LOVED it that I realized my copy was just too emotionally marred for me to read. 
Two days ago I got a new bible. It doesn’t look like a bible on the outside, it’s a different translation (CEB), and it feels different in my hands. It feels good and free and true and hopeful again. Oppression & shame flee when I open its pages. It’s no longer a heavy weight in my hands. 
In the past, I’ve always sought out a new bible for a new life season. I purchased a new copy in middle school, high school, college, when I got married, and before I got pregnant & moved cross country. 
This bible feels like a new season being placed in my hands with grace & compassion. I didn’t even recognize until it was in my grasp. I didn’t see it coming until I took hold of it & owned it. 
I welcome & embrace the openness & fresh breath that this bible is bringing into my life. I can only trust that this new season will feel the same 🖤🙏🏼
I’m thankful.
I opened my bible maybe 5 times since October. It hurt too much. Every time I touched it I had to keep myself from flinching. That book was carrying the weight of helping me survive over a year of deep grief, pain, spiritual abuse, debilitating anxiety, and intense trauma. It was like the pages were coated with this deeply negative energy. I could feel it emanating from its cover. I couldn’t squint through the wound it reopened to see the beauty & comfort I’d always found in it. Reading my Bible became spiritually damaging when every time I picked it up I spent hours feeling tortured and oppressed by the people who had used it against me. No one told me that could happen. No one told me it was possible for an abuser to dunk my source of comfort in poison. It was when I picked up a bible that didn’t belong to me and LOVED it that I realized my copy was just too emotionally marred for me to read. Two days ago I got a new bible. It doesn’t look like a bible on the outside, it’s a different translation (CEB), and it feels different in my hands. It feels good and free and true and hopeful again. Oppression & shame flee when I open its pages. It’s no longer a heavy weight in my hands. In the past, I’ve always sought out a new bible for a new life season. I purchased a new copy in middle school, high school, college, when I got married, and before I got pregnant & moved cross country. This bible feels like a new season being placed in my hands with grace & compassion. I didn’t even recognize until it was in my grasp. I didn’t see it coming until I took hold of it & owned it. I welcome & embrace the openness & fresh breath that this bible is bringing into my life. I can only trust that this new season will feel the same 🖤🙏🏼 I’m thankful.
Those mornings when the breath is still, the mind silences, and Big Mama Earth is there to fill the palette, a wounded warrior sets the fight down for a moment of peace. 
#peace #survivor #traumarecovery #motherearth #woods #spring #ptsd #emdrtherapy #mentalhealth #writing #writersofinstagram #tree #meditation #enlightenment #spirituality #morning #saturdays
Courage is not the absence of fear, it’s the ability to act in spite of it! ...
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If you find yourself waiting for the fear to lessen of go away before you take that next step, that first bite, or face whatever challenge feels overwhelming you will find yourself waiting a long time. Fear doesn’t just go away on its own, it’s the steps towards it that actually help to move you through it...
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For many years I struggled this idea, wanting fear to disappear or lessen before I could take those bites of food, abstain from exercising, or have the hard conversations. It was not until I began doing each of those things WHILE I was also experiencing a lot of fear that I was able to move forward in my recovery and into my life. ✨How have you been courageous this week? - Tessa Gordon @embodyinghope
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 #EmbodyingHope #psychotherapy #therapy #narrativetherapy #shermanoaks #shermanoakstherapist #therapist #psychotherapist #eatingdisordertherapist #latherapist #recoveredtherapist #therapistsofinstagram #counseling #coach #mentalhealthmatters #positivemindset #antianorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #traumarecovery #anxietyrelief #recoveryisworthit #balancedlife #chronicpainwarrior #asecondofwhimswy #momentsofmine #becourageous #faceyourfears #embracingaslowerlife @preview.app
Courage is not the absence of fear, it’s the ability to act in spite of it! ... . If you find yourself waiting for the fear to lessen of go away before you take that next step, that first bite, or face whatever challenge feels overwhelming you will find yourself waiting a long time. Fear doesn’t just go away on its own, it’s the steps towards it that actually help to move you through it... . For many years I struggled this idea, wanting fear to disappear or lessen before I could take those bites of food, abstain from exercising, or have the hard conversations. It was not until I began doing each of those things WHILE I was also experiencing a lot of fear that I was able to move forward in my recovery and into my life. ✨How have you been courageous this week? - Tessa Gordon @embodyinghope . . #EmbodyingHope  #psychotherapy  #therapy  #narrativetherapy  #shermanoaks  #shermanoakstherapist  #therapist  #psychotherapist  #eatingdisordertherapist  #latherapist  #recoveredtherapist  #therapistsofinstagram  #counseling  #coach  #mentalhealthmatters  #positivemindset  #antianorexia  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #traumarecovery  #anxietyrelief  #recoveryisworthit  #balancedlife  #chronicpainwarrior  #asecondofwhimswy  #momentsofmine  #becourageous  #faceyourfears  #embracingaslowerlife  @preview.app
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I’m declaring this song our ‘Unofficial Anthem’ my friends. 😊💪🏻🎶💖 For all those out there in pain or suffering.  For all those recovering from heartbreak, emotional, physical or narcissistic abuse, childhood trauma, ptsd or cptsd, anxiety, depression, self harm, suicidal ideation, addictions....... I just want you to know, you are not alone. 
United we stand. 
Together we fight.
To bring the darkness to the light. 
Even if you are not a lover of Metal music like me, trust me the lyrics say it all.  From one of my favorite metal bands of all time - ‘The Light’ by Disturbed.  Please give it a try and sing it with me today. 🎶 🎶 “When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show us the light.” https://youtu.be/_LypjOTTH6E #disturbed#metalhead#metal#youarenotalone#cptsdrecovery#cptsd#ptsd#anxiety#depression#traumarecovery#narcissisticabuserecovery#narcissisticabusesurvivor#lifecoach#recoverycoach#codependencyrecovery#takebackyourpower
I’m declaring this song our ‘Unofficial Anthem’ my friends. 😊💪🏻🎶💖 For all those out there in pain or suffering. For all those recovering from heartbreak, emotional, physical or narcissistic abuse, childhood trauma, ptsd or cptsd, anxiety, depression, self harm, suicidal ideation, addictions....... I just want you to know, you are not alone. United we stand. Together we fight. To bring the darkness to the light. Even if you are not a lover of Metal music like me, trust me the lyrics say it all. From one of my favorite metal bands of all time - ‘The Light’ by Disturbed. Please give it a try and sing it with me today. 🎶 🎶 “When you think all is forsaken Listen to me now (all is not forsaken) You need never feel broken again Sometimes darkness can show us the light.” https://youtu.be/_LypjOTTH6E #disturbed #metalhead #metal #youarenotalone #cptsdrecovery #cptsd #ptsd #anxiety #depression #traumarecovery #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticabusesurvivor #lifecoach #recoverycoach #codependencyrecovery #takebackyourpower 
#regulate4resilience 💖P E T S
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They just know.
They know sometimes even before I know.
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People and their pets connect via shared brain structures that predate the development of the human frontal cortex with its apparatus in language and rationality.  Animals and humans interact from their respective limbic systems, the brains EMOTIONAL parts.  Unlike people, animals are ACUTELY sensitive to messages from the limbic brain - BOTH their own and that of their owners
~Gabor Mate. M.D.
WHEN THE BODY SAYS NO
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#gabormate #furmom #unconditionallove #traumarecovery #nervoussystem #health #lovewins
#regulate4resilience  💖P E T S • They just know. They know sometimes even before I know. • People and their pets connect via shared brain structures that predate the development of the human frontal cortex with its apparatus in language and rationality. Animals and humans interact from their respective limbic systems, the brains EMOTIONAL parts. Unlike people, animals are ACUTELY sensitive to messages from the limbic brain - BOTH their own and that of their owners ~Gabor Mate. M.D. WHEN THE BODY SAYS NO . . . #gabormate  #furmom  #unconditionallove  #traumarecovery  #nervoussystem  #health  #lovewins 
Day 2. The answers are in your body. #traumarecovery #safety #remembrance #reconnection
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Hallo meine Lieben. Wie geht es euch? Mir geht's heute eigentlich recht gut. Allerdings ist mein body image heute total schlimm.
Ich bin gerade in Ulm shoppen und stand vor einer Riesen Herausforderung,Denn ich sollte in der Öffentlichkeit essen. In einem Restaurant. Mitten in der Stadt. Für mich ist das der absolute Horror aber es ging heute. Ich habe mir einen großen Salat bestellt und eine Cola.
Ich hab der essstörung den Kampf angesagt also versuche ich auch alles zu machen damit die Stimme leiser wird und es hat geklappt. Ich fühle mich nicht furchtbar, ich hab zwar gerade ziemlichen Bewegungsdrang aber ich sitze und schreibe diesen Post um mich abzulenken.
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Ich merke eine Veränderung in mir und mit mir und es macht mir Mut und gibt Zuversicht aber es macht auch angst. Ich hab angst zuzunehmen. Mein Kopf sagt mir das sich Menschen von mir abwenden aber ich weiß das es nicht so ist und das nur die kack essstörung versucht mich wieder tiefer in das Loch zu ziehen. Aber nicht mit mir. Liebe Essstörung ich bin stärker!
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Ansonsten ist soweit alles total in Ordnung, mir geht es gut, ich hab Höhen und Tiefen aber die gehören ja dazu. Ich hab derzeit so viel Motivation was zu ändern das ist wirklich sehr merkwürdig weil ich es nicht kenne aber ich glaube in meinem Kopf hat es klick gemacht. Ich freu mich einfach das es jetzt so gut läuft. Und morgen seh ich mich selbst bestimmt wieder besser.
Habt ein schönes Wochenende
. Hallo meine Lieben. Wie geht es euch? Mir geht's heute eigentlich recht gut. Allerdings ist mein body image heute total schlimm. Ich bin gerade in Ulm shoppen und stand vor einer Riesen Herausforderung,Denn ich sollte in der Öffentlichkeit essen. In einem Restaurant. Mitten in der Stadt. Für mich ist das der absolute Horror aber es ging heute. Ich habe mir einen großen Salat bestellt und eine Cola. Ich hab der essstörung den Kampf angesagt also versuche ich auch alles zu machen damit die Stimme leiser wird und es hat geklappt. Ich fühle mich nicht furchtbar, ich hab zwar gerade ziemlichen Bewegungsdrang aber ich sitze und schreibe diesen Post um mich abzulenken. . Ich merke eine Veränderung in mir und mit mir und es macht mir Mut und gibt Zuversicht aber es macht auch angst. Ich hab angst zuzunehmen. Mein Kopf sagt mir das sich Menschen von mir abwenden aber ich weiß das es nicht so ist und das nur die kack essstörung versucht mich wieder tiefer in das Loch zu ziehen. Aber nicht mit mir. Liebe Essstörung ich bin stärker! . Ansonsten ist soweit alles total in Ordnung, mir geht es gut, ich hab Höhen und Tiefen aber die gehören ja dazu. Ich hab derzeit so viel Motivation was zu ändern das ist wirklich sehr merkwürdig weil ich es nicht kenne aber ich glaube in meinem Kopf hat es klick gemacht. Ich freu mich einfach das es jetzt so gut läuft. Und morgen seh ich mich selbst bestimmt wieder besser. Habt ein schönes Wochenende
I learned at an early age to hide behind the dancing monkey. It was my job to be responsible for happiness of the narc parent as well as responsible for everything that was wrong in the family... I was what was wrong, never knowing that I was autistic. Functional enough to recognise I had to pretend to survive, but knowing that I defective and needed to compensate the mother and the rest of the family for my defectiveness.... I'm nearly 51 and have a 'Self' that didn't exist a year ago. So I'll be having 2 birthdays next month; 51 and 1... Sadly it's not a joke... But then I'm (almost) nobody's drug today... Fuck the blister pack!!! #recoveryispossible #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #narcissisticabusesurvivor #childhoodtrauma #childhoodabuse #dissociativedisorder #aspergers #autism #narcissisticabuse #childabuse #mentalhealth #mentalillness #traumarecovery #dysfunctionalfamily #scapegoat #mentalillnessawareness #recoveryjourney
#codependent #codependency #selfcare #selflove #selfrespect #selfesteem #motherissues 
Photo by Skitterphoto from Pixabay. Igram created with PicsArt.
I learned at an early age to hide behind the dancing monkey. It was my job to be responsible for happiness of the narc parent as well as responsible for everything that was wrong in the family... I was what was wrong, never knowing that I was autistic. Functional enough to recognise I had to pretend to survive, but knowing that I defective and needed to compensate the mother and the rest of the family for my defectiveness.... I'm nearly 51 and have a 'Self' that didn't exist a year ago. So I'll be having 2 birthdays next month; 51 and 1... Sadly it's not a joke... But then I'm (almost) nobody's drug today... Fuck the blister pack!!! #recoveryispossible  #cptsd  #cptsdrecovery  #narcissisticabusesurvivor  #childhoodtrauma  #childhoodabuse  #dissociativedisorder  #aspergers  #autism  #narcissisticabuse  #childabuse  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #traumarecovery  #dysfunctionalfamily  #scapegoat  #mentalillnessawareness  #recoveryjourney  #codependent  #codependency  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfrespect  #selfesteem  #motherissues  Photo by Skitterphoto from Pixabay. Igram created with PicsArt.
A lifetime of forced smiles that my face very rarely wanted, is slowly being unwound. Even dealing with the effects of cPTSD wasn't enough. Now with the aspergers diagnosis on the way, I'm giving myself permission to learn to stop pretending after 50 years of survival. My face loves the freedom to smile in moments of joy, or not to smile at all. However everyone else is struggling with the change. They all think something is wrong, and are uncomfortable, but finally something is 'right'. I'm slowly getting real... Well, real with others... Giving myself permission to be me... #recoveryispossible #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #childabuse #autism #mentalhealth #mentalillness #traumarecovery #getreal #authentic #authenticity #beingme #aspergers #childhoodtrauma #fakehappy #removethemask #smiling #selfcare #selflove #selfrespect #selfesteem #

Image by composita from Pixabay. Igram made with PicsArt
A lifetime of forced smiles that my face very rarely wanted, is slowly being unwound. Even dealing with the effects of cPTSD wasn't enough. Now with the aspergers diagnosis on the way, I'm giving myself permission to learn to stop pretending after 50 years of survival. My face loves the freedom to smile in moments of joy, or not to smile at all. However everyone else is struggling with the change. They all think something is wrong, and are uncomfortable, but finally something is 'right'. I'm slowly getting real... Well, real with others... Giving myself permission to be me... #recoveryispossible  #cptsd  #cptsdrecovery  #childabuse  #autism  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #traumarecovery  #getreal  #authentic  #authenticity  #beingme  #aspergers  #childhoodtrauma  #fakehappy  #removethemask  #smiling  #selfcare  #selflove  #selfrespect  #selfesteem  # Image by composita from Pixabay. Igram made with PicsArt
A-Z of Narcissism series.
X is for EXPOSURE.
Exposure is the narcissists biggest fear. It takes tireless effort for the narcissist to maintain their false persona, so when their true self is threatened to be exposed, watch out. They’ll do whatever it takes to prevent that. They are known to discredit their accusers with smear campaigns and defamation suits, or even move to another zip code to avoid the truth getting out. Unfortunately for them, we’re in an era where women are no longer staying silent. If you don’t want to be exposed, don’t be a monster. #timesup. ⏰
Runner up: EXES
#exposure #notafraid #comeforme #psychopath #sociopath #narcissist #narcopath #npd #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #domesticviolence #ifmywoundswerevisible #toxicrelationships #abusiverelationship #relationshipabuse #youcansitwithus #youarenotalone #youareenough #womensupportingwomen #emotionalabuse #traumarecovery #endabuse
A-Z of Narcissism series. X is for EXPOSURE. Exposure is the narcissists biggest fear. It takes tireless effort for the narcissist to maintain their false persona, so when their true self is threatened to be exposed, watch out. They’ll do whatever it takes to prevent that. They are known to discredit their accusers with smear campaigns and defamation suits, or even move to another zip code to avoid the truth getting out. Unfortunately for them, we’re in an era where women are no longer staying silent. If you don’t want to be exposed, don’t be a monster. #timesup . ⏰ Runner up: EXES #exposure  #notafraid  #comeforme  #psychopath  #sociopath  #narcissist  #narcopath  #npd  #narcissisticabuse  #narcissisticabusesurvivor  #narcissisticabuserecovery  #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder  #domesticviolence  #ifmywoundswerevisible  #toxicrelationships  #abusiverelationship  #relationshipabuse  #youcansitwithus  #youarenotalone  #youareenough  #womensupportingwomen  #emotionalabuse  #traumarecovery  #endabuse 
A-Z of Narcissism Series.
V is for VALIDATION.
Validation from loving friends, family, and other survivors is key in recovering from narcissistic abuse. 
Narcissists adore, devalue, abuse, destroy, and then abandon their victims at the worst possible time. They provide no closure and almost immediately “sail off into the sunset” with their next primary source of supply so that they appear to be the “stable, loving one” and the victim the “crazy, sad, one”. Betrayed, alone, ashamed, and afraid to expose the narcissist, many victims self-isolate, develop anxiety, PTSD, and spiral into serious episodes of depression. Ending a relationship with a narcissist is bigger than a bad breakup. It was an abusive relationship with a personality disordered individual that caused a traumatic event(s) in the victims life. Not only do victim needs to deal with the traumas of abuse, heartbreak, betrayal, and broken promises of a future, but keep in mind they have just ended a relationship with someone who controlled their friendships and social calendar, lacked empathy, made them feel alone even when they were seated right next to them, and played manipulative mind games that shattered their self worth. Now more than ever, victims need unconditional love and a patient, validating support system. If you know anyone going through this, please provide a safe place for them to tell their stories, process their experience and release the trauma. When a victim opens up about abuse, believe them. 🔑 
RUNNERS UP: VAMPIRE, VINDICTIVE.
#validation #relationshipabuse #abusiverelationship #npd #toxicrelationships #narcopath #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticabuserecovery #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #timesup #domesticviolence #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #youarenotalone #youcansitwithus #youareenough #ifmywoundswerevisible #womensupportingwomen #empath #trauma #traumarecovery #emotionalabuse
A-Z of Narcissism Series. V is for VALIDATION. Validation from loving friends, family, and other survivors is key in recovering from narcissistic abuse. Narcissists adore, devalue, abuse, destroy, and then abandon their victims at the worst possible time. They provide no closure and almost immediately “sail off into the sunset” with their next primary source of supply so that they appear to be the “stable, loving one” and the victim the “crazy, sad, one”. Betrayed, alone, ashamed, and afraid to expose the narcissist, many victims self-isolate, develop anxiety, PTSD, and spiral into serious episodes of depression. Ending a relationship with a narcissist is bigger than a bad breakup. It was an abusive relationship with a personality disordered individual that caused a traumatic event(s) in the victims life. Not only do victim needs to deal with the traumas of abuse, heartbreak, betrayal, and broken promises of a future, but keep in mind they have just ended a relationship with someone who controlled their friendships and social calendar, lacked empathy, made them feel alone even when they were seated right next to them, and played manipulative mind games that shattered their self worth. Now more than ever, victims need unconditional love and a patient, validating support system. If you know anyone going through this, please provide a safe place for them to tell their stories, process their experience and release the trauma. When a victim opens up about abuse, believe them. 🔑 RUNNERS UP: VAMPIRE, VINDICTIVE. #validation  #relationshipabuse  #abusiverelationship  #npd  #toxicrelationships  #narcopath  #narcissist  #narcissisticabuse  #narcissisticabuserecovery  #narcissisticabusesurvivor  #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder  #timesup  #domesticviolence  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthawarenessmonth  #youarenotalone  #youcansitwithus  #youareenough  #ifmywoundswerevisible  #womensupportingwomen  #empath  #trauma  #traumarecovery  #emotionalabuse 
Lmfao. Repost from @escaping_the_abuse
Lmfao. Repost from @escaping_the_abuse
[I believe that wounded people wound other people... a human that has “survived” trauma can be driven to incomprehensible things... what if we learned to take care of each other?]
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#100daysofpersonality #100dayproject #thewounded #trauma #hurt #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #pain #art #artist #artistoninstagram #womenofillustration #realtalk #personality #learnyourself #loveyourself #learnothers #loveothers @mentalhealthamerica @elleluna @lindsayjeanthomson @womenofillustration
[I believe that wounded people wound other people... a human that has “survived” trauma can be driven to incomprehensible things... what if we learned to take care of each other?] •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• 42/100 . . . . . #100daysofpersonality  #100dayproject  #thewounded  #trauma  #hurt  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #traumarecovery  #traumasurvivor  #pain  #art  #artist  #artistoninstagram  #womenofillustration  #realtalk  #personality  #learnyourself  #loveyourself  #learnothers  #loveothers  @mentalhealthamerica @elleluna @lindsayjeanthomson @womenofillustration
The paradox of trauma is that it has both the power to destroy and the power to transform and resurrect. -Peter A. Levine

May 25, 2012- a day that forever changed my life. Thank you, @divinewaffles for transforming a trauma anniversary date to a future of more pleasant memories. 
#silverbell #bloom #spring #canmaybeoversoon #traumarecovery #mentalhealth #PTSDsucks
Trauma isn’t something horrible that happened to you. Trauma doesn’t happen TO you. It happens WITHIN you. Trauma is a disconnection from yourself as a result of something horrible that happened, because being connected was too painful. But that’s the good news! Because if trauma was something that happened however many years ago, we could do nothing to change it. If trauma is a disconnection from ourselves, then the possibility of reconnecting is available to us at any time. .
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✨Dr. Gabor Mate’s words from his The Wounded Healer talk this evening. ✨
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📸from my walk in Kitsilano the other day. .
#trauma #traumarecovery #traumahealing #reconnect #woundedhealer #gabormate #embodiedmindfulnesstherapy #holistichealing #somatictherapy
Trauma isn’t something horrible that happened to you. Trauma doesn’t happen TO you. It happens WITHIN you. Trauma is a disconnection from yourself as a result of something horrible that happened, because being connected was too painful. But that’s the good news! Because if trauma was something that happened however many years ago, we could do nothing to change it. If trauma is a disconnection from ourselves, then the possibility of reconnecting is available to us at any time. . . . ✨Dr. Gabor Mate’s words from his The Wounded Healer talk this evening. ✨ . . . . . 📸from my walk in Kitsilano the other day. . #trauma  #traumarecovery  #traumahealing  #reconnect  #woundedhealer  #gabormate  #embodiedmindfulnesstherapy  #holistichealing  #somatictherapy 
The #Zgirls are starting a new adventure. It’s a journey of grieving and healing. We are learning to love living and love life. We are processing trauma, accepting disappointment, letting dreams die, and learning to hope. #hoperestored #griefjourney #traumarecovery #newlife #adventureawaits #widowmom #newstage #motherdaughtertime
I got caught up in my shit, as of late. Which particular shit, you ask? Well, this time, it was Expert shit. I'm Supposed to Know Everything shit. The shit that says I'm really (*really*, like, you don't even know, really) behind in my school work. And I told myself that it was all stupid anyway, because I know this stuff, and when are we going to get to the Real Ph.D Stuff? 
And that, my friends, is what we call Shadow. Dressed up and ready to host his grand ball, reveling in my silliness.

I came across this word in my reading this afternoon, sneaking in a bit of studying while Shadow napped in the sun, and....yes. I breathed, because it is all practice. Expertise comes from one thing, and one thing only: coming to our practice with humility and openness every day. When we're young, it's so easy, because we're told we don't know anything (ha!!). Well, I guess I'm still young, because I don't know shit about shit.
#practice #DepthPsychology #depthpsych #somatics #TraumaRecovery #EDRecovery #EveryDamnDay #Shadow
I got caught up in my shit, as of late. Which particular shit, you ask? Well, this time, it was Expert shit. I'm Supposed to Know Everything shit. The shit that says I'm really (*really*, like, you don't even know, really) behind in my school work. And I told myself that it was all stupid anyway, because I know this stuff, and when are we going to get to the Real Ph.D Stuff? And that, my friends, is what we call Shadow. Dressed up and ready to host his grand ball, reveling in my silliness. I came across this word in my reading this afternoon, sneaking in a bit of studying while Shadow napped in the sun, and....yes. I breathed, because it is all practice. Expertise comes from one thing, and one thing only: coming to our practice with humility and openness every day. When we're young, it's so easy, because we're told we don't know anything (ha!!). Well, I guess I'm still young, because I don't know shit about shit. #practice  #DepthPsychology  #depthpsych  #somatics  #TraumaRecovery  #EDRecovery  #EveryDamnDay  #Shadow 
Another piece from 1983, a series of collages I did together with @james_brook_berlin last summer. Portraying feelings of isolation and hopelessness, this series of collages was a starting point for me to express though collage, what I couldn’t express verbally back then. An uncovered trauma later I‘m still trying to find „my voice“ again, but collage has helped me ever since to recover. So yeah, if you ask me, I deeply believe in the healing power of expressing yourself through creativity and art. Any thoughts or similar experiences? .
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#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #mentalhealthawarenessweek #ptsd #ptsdawareness #depression #depressionawareness #traumarecovery #livingwithdepression #timetotalk #ptsd #endstigma #collage #collageart #analoguecollage #handmadecollage #handcutcollage #collagecollective #gluepaperscissors #lost #isolated #1983
Another piece from 1983, a series of collages I did together with @james_brook_berlin last summer. Portraying feelings of isolation and hopelessness, this series of collages was a starting point for me to express though collage, what I couldn’t express verbally back then. An uncovered trauma later I‘m still trying to find „my voice“ again, but collage has helped me ever since to recover. So yeah, if you ask me, I deeply believe in the healing power of expressing yourself through creativity and art. Any thoughts or similar experiences? . . . #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthawarenessmonth  #mentalhealthawarenessweek  #ptsd  #ptsdawareness  #depression  #depressionawareness  #traumarecovery  #livingwithdepression  #timetotalk  #ptsd  #endstigma  #collage  #collageart  #analoguecollage  #handmadecollage  #handcutcollage  #collagecollective  #gluepaperscissors  #lost  #isolated  #1983