I also need @francescaliablock ‘s book on healing through writing. ✨ The poet Marvin Bell once told me he could gauge the intensity of a friend’s depression by asking him if he was writing; if his friend said yes, then Marvin knew he was doing all right. Apart from a few poems in 2017, I haven’t written anything (beyond rambling Insta captions) since 2014. 😔 This must be remedied. #selfhelpmeobiwankenobi#thereisnotryonlydo#writing#booksonwriting#healing#magick
I feel like I REALLY need this book by @galadarling . I’ve been at rock bottom far too long. I’ve never in my life felt so lost. It’s more than needing out of this town—I need purpose and joy. I need a circle of friends and a full-time job. I need to support myself 100% and to feel in control. I need to live somewhere that makes me happy. I need to look in the mirror and not hate my reflection, and I need to not hate myself for my seemingly never-ending struggles. There has to be a way to accomplish my goals. I feel like, if I remain in Columbus, I’ll be dead at 40 of heart problems. It might already be too late... who knows? But I can’t keep getting caught up in what might happen. I’ve got to focus on my mental and physical health, and I’ve got to move on from this town. I’ve been trying to leave since 2016. I don’t want to hurt my parents by seeming ungrateful, but this is MY life. I’ve got to start living it for me. And I need to live somewhere that makes me happy. I hope someday I’m pretty, healthy, confident, and able to attract love. Everything feels so closed to me now. It’s been so long since I even had a real-life friend to hang with. 😔 Life isn’t meant to be lived in one room, all alone. NO MORE WISHING. ONLY DOING. #selfhelpmeobiwankenobi#thereisnotryonlydo#selflove
Surprise pause snatch pr @ 77 kilos this mornin. Lil wonky, but I’m happy. First time snatching in a couple weeks due to lil ab injury, but it’s feelin good and ready to gear up for @blackandredopen with my squad.
#prstarbarbell#weightlifting#thicc63#unitedlifters
Ps. Thanks for being my hype squad today, Joel :-)) #thereisnotryonlydo
Happy Birthday to the funniest, sweetest, most creative kid. As a mom, you can't imagine your heart expanding enough to love another human as much as your first child. And then, it just happens. I'm so blessed to have Grayson on loan from the Lord for as long as He wishes. #yodalife#thereisnotryonlydo#travelwithkids#paris#meditation#prayer
Some have ask how I practice my handstands. This is my hack! I use a hallway or door way and I use both sides for support. I put one foot up on the opposite wall, while my back is supported and my one foot is holding me I swing my other leg up straight. Then I slowly bring the other leg up to meet it. Even if it’s for a brief moment I still feel like I have accomplished my handstand!! Everyday my handstand feels different in my body. Some days I can get right up others it’s more of a struggle. I just feel good for trying. #handstand#inversion#tip#inversionhack#pilates#yoga#strong#bethebestyoucanbe#thereisnotryonlydo#fitmamas#fitforlife#wednesdaymotivation#humpday
Choices
We all have choices- every feeling.action is a choice
Yet I contemplate this choice - to pick up that dumbbell or not? Exercise or not? #life#choices#thereisnotryonlydo
Getting my #psych fix in while exercising 👍🏼💪🏼 Have to get back to it! No more shoulder issues = no more excuses!! 😉 HIIT workout done ✅ Now...3-5 miles on the treadmill #thereisnotryonlydo#yoda
My #selfcaresunday is finally going through boxes and shredding, filing, donating, trashing, recycling everything! This has been on my to do list for a long time. I go through down waves and up waves. This past month, more honestly, has been one pretty long steady down wave. I'm finally feeling my way back up. And, it's because of the encouragement from my amazing Posh team. They don't know that I've been on this down wave. I keep it to myself as much as I can. (Yea I know I shouldn't) but the constant positive vibe that my team puts out there is incredible. I never expected this random thing I did just for a discount would help me work to overcome so many inner battles I've had. I NEVER thought it would make feel that need and want to be organized again. I used to be crazy organized financially, but that went by the wayside years ago, I'm finally working towards that again. I haven't felt this motivated in awhile. It feels good. I have my posh team to thank. My gold premier who without even knowing is pushing me to be the best me I can be. Fear of failing and even succeeding is so real, it's holds me back on so many levels. Not anymore! You usually have to fail in someway to succeed. Time to embrace the process. Time to follow through with my goals. #myselfcarejourney#joinmeonmyjourney#highfunctioningdepression#selfimprovement#poshtimisticallybeautiful#startdoing#thereisnotryonlydo#failingisok#successhappens#youdeservehappiness#youdeservetobepampered#pamperingmyself#selfcareisselfrespect
After almost two weeks of vacation and not watching what I ate/drank, and no exercise, this is what happens. Swollen feet (2 weeks ago there was clear definition between my ankle and foot), and an almost 14lb weight gain. I'm shocked that it's that much, but, I know Once I get back on track, I'm good to go. I definitely learned a lot about my body on these last two weeks. #sugerequalsdeath#backinthesaddle#thereisnotryonlydo#mytrainerisgoingtokillme
Just a leafless tree in a busy parking lot. A hawk circling around marking its territory with a load screech. Nature adapts and so will I. #resilience#movingforwardinlife#wedowhatwedo
As a teacher of yoga, I’m always racking my brain on how to present classes to students that are sometimes a little bit “unconventional” or outside the typical yoga box. Sometimes I find something that lands. Sometimes I don’t. But I keep going for it. •
Last night’s class was partner yoga. The main purpose being having fun, letting go, not being afraid to touch another person, making a connection, releasing barriers of who we think we have to be in other people’s eyes, and also to work the body!! 💪🏽💪🏼 •
#virabadhrasana2 or #warrior2 pose. Being a warrior is a choice. You have to decide when the moment calls for strength. And when it calls for ease. That choice is always yours. No one else’s. *********
And who doesn’t like partner ab workouts? 🤛🏼🤛🏻 Yaow!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
#yogateachertraining#movement#partneryoga#responsibility#supporteachother#energyexchange#doasido#leglifts#createyourownexperience#yogacostarica#unafraid#thereisnotryonlydo
💫THERE IS NO TRY, ONLY DO✨
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I think that’s been my mantra for years now. It’s what helped me dig out of a rut. It’s what helped me kick my overeating 🍧addiction. It’s what helped me get my workouts. 🏋🏼♀️ in when I could barely lift my arms with 1-lb dumbbells.💪🏼
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It’s what getting me thru my trip to San Diego 🏖 I embarked upon today. #ThereIsNoTryOnlyDo
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I’m off to #SMMW18 (Social Media Marketing World 2018) and I gotta come clean...I’m completely freaked😯out. I’m the little wee fish 🐠 in the “big🐳fish” pond. I get such bad travel anxiety that I almost backed out at the last minute (well not for reals cuz I can’t cancel last minute)...but you get me. .
But here’s the thing...the only way I’m gonna get past the fear is to go straight thru it. 😎Dive in head first, just do it, no “I’ll try” happenin here. .
Have you taken a baby 👣step (or giant leap) lately? Was it terrifying? HELLS YA! ✊🏼Did you survive?? OF COURSE!!! Girl, share your recent “do” (not “try”) in the comments👇🏼b’low. Let’s celebrate your win together!🎉🎊