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Bit of an odd ball meal as I am in desperate need of a food shop!!! The new vegan @tescofood kale and broccoli nut roast with beans (?) and peas (?) 😂
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Bit of an odd ball meal as I am in desperate need of a food shop!!! The new vegan @tescofood kale and broccoli nut roast with beans (?) and peas (?) 😂 #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edfam  #edfighter  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiafighter  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit  #strongnotskinny  #foodisfuel  #2fab4ana  #pissoffana  #fuckana  #food  #prorecovery  #anawarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #anafamily  #adultswitheds  #healthy  #ed  #vegan  #plantbased  #veganfood  #delicious 
It’s the last day of school tomorrow. And tradition wise, graduating students wear silly costumes. It’s a children’s costume that I’m wearing (hence why it’s so short) but it was the only one that fit. It’s still a bit big..but it’ll do.

Please excuse my vile legs. They’re hideous and fat.
It’s the last day of school tomorrow. And tradition wise, graduating students wear silly costumes. It’s a children’s costume that I’m wearing (hence why it’s so short) but it was the only one that fit. It’s still a bit big..but it’ll do. Please excuse my vile legs. They’re hideous and fat.
lunch today was a toasted bagel w/ regular (not light!!) cream cheese & a half and half lemonade/iced tea 😛 this was a huge #recoverywin as bagels have always been one of my biggest fear foods (!!!) not gonna lie u guys i probably would’ve gotten the light cream cheese if my mom wasn’t with me as my ed tells me that’s “safer”  but i didn’t and i’m so proud of myself for smashing this 💪🏻 bagels were the one food in treatment that tripped me up the most, especially adding on cream cheese & i really didn’t work to habituate them after my discharge so they became a major fear again. BUTTTT i let myself enjoy this today which was huge! especially since i start my first day of work tomorrow so my anxiety & restriction urges are through the roof. @ ana bye bitch 👋🏻 going to do my best to push through & not restrict despite my ed thoughts telling me to try to look as small as possible for my first impression at work tomorrow because food is fuel and one meal will not change my life but deciding to give into my eating disorder will!!! i hope you all are having a lovely day🌸 we can do this!!!🌻✨💖
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lunch today was a toasted bagel w/ regular (not light!!) cream cheese & a half and half lemonade/iced tea 😛 this was a huge #recoverywin  as bagels have always been one of my biggest fear foods (!!!) not gonna lie u guys i probably would’ve gotten the light cream cheese if my mom wasn’t with me as my ed tells me that’s “safer” but i didn’t and i’m so proud of myself for smashing this 💪🏻 bagels were the one food in treatment that tripped me up the most, especially adding on cream cheese & i really didn’t work to habituate them after my discharge so they became a major fear again. BUTTTT i let myself enjoy this today which was huge! especially since i start my first day of work tomorrow so my anxiety & restriction urges are through the roof. @ ana bye bitch 👋🏻 going to do my best to push through & not restrict despite my ed thoughts telling me to try to look as small as possible for my first impression at work tomorrow because food is fuel and one meal will not change my life but deciding to give into my eating disorder will!!! i hope you all are having a lovely day🌸 we can do this!!!🌻✨💖 • • #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #nourishtoflourish  #eatittobeatit  #recoveryisworthit  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia  #edfighter  #edwarrior 
My head is a mess rn after my appointment!! I dont have the words or the time to explain so ill just leave u with lots of veggie, sweet potato falafel balls, potatoes and a weird dim sum that my mum and sis where having and i fancied one!!
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My head is a mess rn after my appointment!! I dont have the words or the time to explain so ill just leave u with lots of veggie, sweet potato falafel balls, potatoes and a weird dim sum that my mum and sis where having and i fancied one!! ' #edfighter  #edrecovery  #ed  #edwarrior  #eatittobeatit  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #recoverymotivation  #anawho  #2fab4ana  #beatana  #strongnotskinny  #balancednotclean  #healthy  #healthymindset  #healthyeating  #veganfoodshare  #veganeats  #veganfoodshare  #vegan  #thrivenotsurvive 
#dinner I’ve had a very challenging day. The feeling of disgust has been present and manifested itself in hatred and disgust towards my body. I find myself repulsive and vile, a big gluttonous pig. On the same time I’m terrified of my own reflection, it scares me, it makes me anxious and like I need to disguise and shield myself in fabrics. I’m stuck in this grey zone where I’m facing two different roads; one being the way forward and the other being a way to ultimate destruction. I know I should take the road forward, but it scares me. The future absolutely scares me. I wish I was a child again, I want to let someone else take responsibility of me. 
Sorry for this small venting. Im just so frustrated and torn between different choices. 
I want to feel love. I want someone to embrace me and comfort me, I want to feel safe.
#dinner  I’ve had a very challenging day. The feeling of disgust has been present and manifested itself in hatred and disgust towards my body. I find myself repulsive and vile, a big gluttonous pig. On the same time I’m terrified of my own reflection, it scares me, it makes me anxious and like I need to disguise and shield myself in fabrics. I’m stuck in this grey zone where I’m facing two different roads; one being the way forward and the other being a way to ultimate destruction. I know I should take the road forward, but it scares me. The future absolutely scares me. I wish I was a child again, I want to let someone else take responsibility of me. Sorry for this small venting. Im just so frustrated and torn between different choices. I want to feel love. I want someone to embrace me and comfort me, I want to feel safe.
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I always feel uncomfortable in the locker room.🐖🐳👙💫😒😭
(Scar through operation as I was a baby on my intestine)
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Good evening 🌺 snacking on another muller rice 😋 Yep I’ve had a meal out today, but that doesn’t mean I can’t have nice food the rest of the day 🙅🏼‍♀️
Going out for lunch and dinner tomorrow which I’m actually quite excited about!! I refuse to let numbers and thoughts ruin the opportunity to eat some lush food, I ain’t about that boring food life!!
Good night chumbs, hope you’ve all had lovely Monday’s 💕
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #balance
Good evening 🌺 snacking on another muller rice 😋 Yep I’ve had a meal out today, but that doesn’t mean I can’t have nice food the rest of the day 🙅🏼‍♀️ Going out for lunch and dinner tomorrow which I’m actually quite excited about!! I refuse to let numbers and thoughts ruin the opportunity to eat some lush food, I ain’t about that boring food life!! Good night chumbs, hope you’ve all had lovely Monday’s 💕 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #balance 
Buonasera🎆
Come state? Tutto bene il pomeriggio?
Io non tanto. I pomeriggi sono distruttivi, sono sola in casa dalle 4 alle 7.30 e mi cominciano i pensieri, e mi faccio seghe mentali su come andare avanti. Il pomeriggio non passa. È terribile.
Fatto sta che dopo cena, ho la mia dolce e attesa coccola serale😋🌒
Mi fate compagnia col #nightsnack ?😏 Ora stiamo guardando 'Shutter Island'🤓 ne sono completamente innamorata! 
Poi di corsa a letto😴 perché domani mattina ho il dietologo dopo più di una settimana con BocconiAmari🤞 Vi aggiornerò. 
Dormite bene💖

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Buonasera🎆 Come state? Tutto bene il pomeriggio? Io non tanto. I pomeriggi sono distruttivi, sono sola in casa dalle 4 alle 7.30 e mi cominciano i pensieri, e mi faccio seghe mentali su come andare avanti. Il pomeriggio non passa. È terribile. Fatto sta che dopo cena, ho la mia dolce e attesa coccola serale😋🌒 Mi fate compagnia col #nightsnack  ?😏 Ora stiamo guardando 'Shutter Island'🤓 ne sono completamente innamorata! Poi di corsa a letto😴 perché domani mattina ho il dietologo dopo più di una settimana con BocconiAmari🤞 Vi aggiornerò. Dormite bene💖 #prorecovery  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder   #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #food  #foodporn  #dca  #staystrong  #strongnotskinny  #diarioalimentare  #anorexia  #anawarrior  #anarecovery  #beatana  #foodblog  #chocolate 
the fact I get to see my lil bestie in 4 days is what’s keepin’ me going 🌈 hold on.
the fact I get to see my lil bestie in 4 days is what’s keepin’ me going 🌈 hold on.
Hello 👋
I really hope you all had a great start into the new week ❣️
I went on a little boat tour with a friend today 🤗
I wish you all a great evening and a good night 💕
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Hallo ❤️
Ich hoffe ihr hattet einen schönen Tag und es geht euch gut ❤️
Ich war heute mit einem Kumpel Tretbootfahren und danach haben wir bei ihm zu Hause einen Film angeschaut.
Es war echt schön und ich bin eben erst nach Hause gekommen und bin ziemlich müde...
Morgen fahre ich mit ihm und seinem Vater den Hund abholen, den sie morgen bekommen werden 😍
Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Abend und ganz viel Kraft ❤️
Hello 👋 I really hope you all had a great start into the new week ❣️ I went on a little boat tour with a friend today 🤗 I wish you all a great evening and a good night 💕 . . . Hallo ❤️ Ich hoffe ihr hattet einen schönen Tag und es geht euch gut ❤️ Ich war heute mit einem Kumpel Tretbootfahren und danach haben wir bei ihm zu Hause einen Film angeschaut. Es war echt schön und ich bin eben erst nach Hause gekommen und bin ziemlich müde... Morgen fahre ich mit ihm und seinem Vater den Hund abholen, den sie morgen bekommen werden 😍 Ich wünsche euch einen schönen Abend und ganz viel Kraft ❤️
PR city reached despite my adversity.
It wasn’t wise to train but I desperately needed to. I really did.
And we PRed in Bench, Squats & Front Squats.
Felt good after 2 weeks but I’m probably gonna regret it. Shingles is a shitstick but I also needed to train for my mental state so I did some & stopped!
Happy PR day.
R x
Ps: @robesselens needs to learn appropriate coaching etiquette!
PR city reached despite my adversity. It wasn’t wise to train but I desperately needed to. I really did. And we PRed in Bench, Squats & Front Squats. Felt good after 2 weeks but I’m probably gonna regret it. Shingles is a shitstick but I also needed to train for my mental state so I did some & stopped! Happy PR day. R x Ps: @robesselens needs to learn appropriate coaching etiquette!
Dinner🍴
Tonight I had a meat free burger, in a bun with avocado👌 and a salad made of spinach, pepper, cucumber and celery.
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Feeling superrr weak now even after food. I did plan to do some more college worm after a shower but I don't think that's going to happen😴 so going to get my stuff ready for tomorrow and just relax. I hope you're all having a lovely evening and are all well❤❤
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Dinner🍴 Tonight I had a meat free burger, in a bun with avocado👌 and a salad made of spinach, pepper, cucumber and celery. . Feeling superrr weak now even after food. I did plan to do some more college worm after a shower but I don't think that's going to happen😴 so going to get my stuff ready for tomorrow and just relax. I hope you're all having a lovely evening and are all well❤❤ . #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recovery  #prorecovery  #beatbulima  #bulimarecovery  #dinner  #happinesswins  #health  #nourish  #balance  #facefearfoods  #bebrave 
dinner when we got home was chilli 🌶 with rice. I think I’ll do a proper update on Milan tomorrow because they’re was so much!! Also I was terrified I was gonna magically balloon 🎈 up which obviously didn’t happen - my ed lies again 😭. Anyway I was about to post my ICE CREAM in a cone from today but I remembered that my last post was ice cream 😂 so that’s I’ll do it tomorrow - goodnight!!
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dinner when we got home was chilli 🌶 with rice. I think I’ll do a proper update on Milan tomorrow because they’re was so much!! Also I was terrified I was gonna magically balloon 🎈 up which obviously didn’t happen - my ed lies again 😭. Anyway I was about to post my ICE CREAM in a cone from today but I remembered that my last post was ice cream 😂 so that’s I’ll do it tomorrow - goodnight!! ———————————————————————— .... ... .. . .. ... .... ..... #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #edfam  #edfamily  #edcommunity  #balancednotclean  #bethebiggerbully  #recoverywin  #mentalhealthawareness  #prorecovery  #realrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #to  #anarecovery  #eatingdisorder  #nourishnotpunish 
‼️1K FOLLOWERS QUESTION‼️.
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First of all: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR FOLLOWING ME!❤️😍
So I wanna do a big challenge and I wanna give you some options (because these options are REALLY scared but I know it’s feasible💪🏽 So please give a comments which two I need to do or which two you would like to see I CAN do that🙋🏼‍♀️. You can choose 1 meal challenge and 1 challenge against my social anxiety.
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MEALCHALLENGE
1. An XL (instead of my normal medium) frozen yoghurt strawberry crunch special with strawberries🍓, homemade granola🥜 and white chocolate (!!)🍫 at the @yoghurtbarn.
2. A large milkshake chocolate flavour at the snackbar 🥤🍫.
3. B&J pint party🍨.
4. Truffle mushroom tortellini at a restaurant🍝.
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5. Going to stay in the evening at the korfbal, to have a drink instead of going home directly🍷.
6. Going to the public toilet instead of waiting when I’ll be home💧.
7. Eat my evening snack before my training in the ‘kantine’ instead of hide myself on the field when almost nobody can see I eat something💁🏼‍♀️.
8. At the groupstherapy I’ll talk about myself as first of the group instead of waiting till everbody told something so I’ll be the last person who’ll talk🗣.
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‼️PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT‼️ LOVEU GUYS!!!!❤️❤️❤️
‼️1K FOLLOWERS QUESTION‼️. ••• First of all: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR FOLLOWING ME!❤️😍 So I wanna do a big challenge and I wanna give you some options (because these options are REALLY scared but I know it’s feasible💪🏽 So please give a comments which two I need to do or which two you would like to see I CAN do that🙋🏼‍♀️. You can choose 1 meal challenge and 1 challenge against my social anxiety. — MEALCHALLENGE 1. An XL (instead of my normal medium) frozen yoghurt strawberry crunch special with strawberries🍓, homemade granola🥜 and white chocolate (!!)🍫 at the @yoghurtbarn. 2. A large milkshake chocolate flavour at the snackbar 🥤🍫. 3. B&J pint party🍨. 4. Truffle mushroom tortellini at a restaurant🍝. — SOCIAL ANXIETY CHALLENGE 5. Going to stay in the evening at the korfbal, to have a drink instead of going home directly🍷. 6. Going to the public toilet instead of waiting when I’ll be home💧. 7. Eat my evening snack before my training in the ‘kantine’ instead of hide myself on the field when almost nobody can see I eat something💁🏼‍♀️. 8. At the groupstherapy I’ll talk about myself as first of the group instead of waiting till everbody told something so I’ll be the last person who’ll talk🗣. — ‼️PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT‼️ LOVEU GUYS!!!!❤️❤️❤️
Dinner tonight was a quorn five grain fillet with potatoes and veggies 😝 And supper was the usual☺️ So today’s weigh in didn’t go too well, my weight has dropped a little bit again, it’s not enough that anyone is concerned though so it’s okay 💪🏻 Never lose hope that you will recover because you can and you WILL my lovelies 💕 Nobody said it’d be easy but it’ll be worth it 😋 Hope you all have a great evening 🌙💗 #anawho #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nevergiveup #nourishtoflourish #nourishyourbody #fuckana #kickinganasbutt #dinner #supper #goodfood #mealplan #strongnotskinny #staystrong #keepfighting #staypositive #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #mondaymotivation #neverlosehope #spreadlove #slay #goodnight 💖🌈
Dinner tonight was a quorn five grain fillet with potatoes and veggies 😝 And supper was the usual☺️ So today’s weigh in didn’t go too well, my weight has dropped a little bit again, it’s not enough that anyone is concerned though so it’s okay 💪🏻 Never lose hope that you will recover because you can and you WILL my lovelies 💕 Nobody said it’d be easy but it’ll be worth it 😋 Hope you all have a great evening 🌙💗 #anawho  #anarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nevergiveup  #nourishtoflourish  #nourishyourbody  #fuckana  #kickinganasbutt  #dinner  #supper  #goodfood  #mealplan  #strongnotskinny  #staystrong  #keepfighting  #staypositive  #prorecovery  #recoveryisworthit  #mondaymotivation  #neverlosehope  #spreadlove  #slay  #goodnight  💖🌈
Yes, I ate this entire pizza by myself last night. And no, I didn’t calculate the nutrition facts. I know that not everyone who counts macros and calories has an ED. Some people can do it and not obsess over it or have a bad relationship with food because of it. However, if you have a history of EDs, I really don’t recommend tracking because it’ll keep you halfway in your ED by satisfying your need to have control and you’ll be way too tempted to restrict. In life, it’s normal to eat more one day than you did on another day. Counting macros and calories will get you in this mindset of having to do the same thing every day which just isn’t realistic or an enjoyable way to live your life. No, I don’t eat an entire pizza every day but I also don’t count this as a cheat day or meal and I didn’t “make up” for it today. I’m just living my life according to how I want to live it. 💕 #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #intuitiveeating #vegan #plantbased #daiyapizza #prorecovery #recoverywarrior #health #happiness #mentalhealth
Yes, I ate this entire pizza by myself last night. And no, I didn’t calculate the nutrition facts. I know that not everyone who counts macros and calories has an ED. Some people can do it and not obsess over it or have a bad relationship with food because of it. However, if you have a history of EDs, I really don’t recommend tracking because it’ll keep you halfway in your ED by satisfying your need to have control and you’ll be way too tempted to restrict. In life, it’s normal to eat more one day than you did on another day. Counting macros and calories will get you in this mindset of having to do the same thing every day which just isn’t realistic or an enjoyable way to live your life. No, I don’t eat an entire pizza every day but I also don’t count this as a cheat day or meal and I didn’t “make up” for it today. I’m just living my life according to how I want to live it. 💕 #anorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #intuitiveeating  #vegan  #plantbased  #daiyapizza  #prorecovery  #recoverywarrior  #health  #happiness  #mentalhealth 
1 year ago today I flew home after an amazing couple of weeks spent at disney world with my family - today I finally finished the last little bit of disney chocolate that I brought back from that trip - pretty sure this means it’s time to go back and get more! 😍
1 year ago today I flew home after an amazing couple of weeks spent at disney world with my family - today I finally finished the last little bit of disney chocolate that I brought back from that trip - pretty sure this means it’s time to go back and get more! 😍
Nowadays it's way too easy to hide disordered eating. There is an eating style to avoid everything.
Whenever I meet someone who asks me if I want to eat something there is always an excuse to not eating without making anybody suspicious.

I avoid gluten right now.
I quit sugar for some weeks.
I cannot stomach lactose.
I just eat at a certain time.
I just eat raw food.
I am dieting.
I only eat clean foods.
I try to avoid "bad" fats.
I don't eat food when I don't know how it's prepared and what's in it..... There are so many ways of eating that I personally think it gets harder and harder to differentiate a lifestyle from an eating disorder. Thus trying to regain a not disordered eating habit is nearly impossible. Because a person who eats whatever he or she wants is unsual. There is always someone who thinks that your food might kill you because it's so bad for your body and tries to convince you that a different eating style would be better for you. 
The sentence "it's hard to recover from an eating disorder in a society that has an eating disorder" is sadly so true and probably getting truer day by day.

#edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edfighter #recoverforhappiness #edstruggles #recoveryishard #prorecovery #eatingdisorderssuck #edsoldier #edawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #beatmentalillness #recoverywarriors #beatthestigma #nostigma #breakthestigma #fuckdietculture #fuckcalorierestriction #eatwhatyouwant #eattolive #society #sunset #green #nature #landscape #sunnyday
Nowadays it's way too easy to hide disordered eating. There is an eating style to avoid everything. Whenever I meet someone who asks me if I want to eat something there is always an excuse to not eating without making anybody suspicious. I avoid gluten right now. I quit sugar for some weeks. I cannot stomach lactose. I just eat at a certain time. I just eat raw food. I am dieting. I only eat clean foods. I try to avoid "bad" fats. I don't eat food when I don't know how it's prepared and what's in it..... There are so many ways of eating that I personally think it gets harder and harder to differentiate a lifestyle from an eating disorder. Thus trying to regain a not disordered eating habit is nearly impossible. Because a person who eats whatever he or she wants is unsual. There is always someone who thinks that your food might kill you because it's so bad for your body and tries to convince you that a different eating style would be better for you. The sentence "it's hard to recover from an eating disorder in a society that has an eating disorder" is sadly so true and probably getting truer day by day. #edwarrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #recoverforhappiness  #edstruggles  #recoveryishard  #prorecovery  #eatingdisorderssuck  #edsoldier  #edawareness  #mentalhealthisimportant  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #beatmentalillness  #recoverywarriors  #beatthestigma  #nostigma  #breakthestigma  #fuckdietculture  #fuckcalorierestriction  #eatwhatyouwant  #eattolive  #society  #sunset  #green  #nature  #landscape  #sunnyday 
rant (part 2): my fucking step mom is so fucking annoying. idek why she’s here like her and my dad fight 24/7 and everyone knows it’s not gonna last so why is she still here. anyways she wants to go to this gala with me tomorrow even though pretty much no one else’s parents are going and i want to go and get ready with my friends at their house and have fun there, and she won’t let me cause we “won’t spend time together” like bitch we will be there the whole time together i just wanna be with my friends before i leave for the summer, and school ends in like a week and a half. i’m so mad cause all my other friends are going -
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rant (part 2): my fucking step mom is so fucking annoying. idek why she’s here like her and my dad fight 24/7 and everyone knows it’s not gonna last so why is she still here. anyways she wants to go to this gala with me tomorrow even though pretty much no one else’s parents are going and i want to go and get ready with my friends at their house and have fun there, and she won’t let me cause we “won’t spend time together” like bitch we will be there the whole time together i just wanna be with my friends before i leave for the summer, and school ends in like a week and a half. i’m so mad cause all my other friends are going - - - - - - - - - (ignore these) #losewieght  #motivation  #prorecovery  #skinny  #skinnygirl  #smallwaist  #collarbones  #thighgoals  #perfect  #perfect  #gymmotivation  #sad  #notenough  #fat  #fatty  #thinspo  #fitandthinspo  #healthinspo  #eatingdisorder  #mentalillness  #diet  #healthyfood  #health  #skinnywishes 
♡ How come 'imperfections' on animals are cute and yet we humans spend millions of pounds and hours trying to get rid or minimise them??
♡ If Henry came embrace his underbite and look even more cute than he would with a normal jawline in my opinion (and if you disagree I'll fight you 😂) then you can accept and embrace your 'imperfections.' ♡ Your cellulite? CUTE AF.
♡ Your stomach rolls whether permanent or friendly visitors when you sit or bend? CUTE AF.
♡ Your spots, your hip dip, your scars, your crooked smile, your wonky teeth, your stretch marks - you guessed it, ALL CUTE AF. ♡ You deserve to feel as cute as a doggo and to embrace all your insecurities, no matter what they may be. And also remember that imperfections are only imperfections if you see them like that, if you decide to embrace them completely then they're no longer imperfections, they're just cute additions to the rest of your perfectly imperfect self 🤷‍♀️
Love and air hugs, KEEP BEING THE BEAUTIFUL BADASSES YOU ARE 💕
Anna x
♡ How come 'imperfections' on animals are cute and yet we humans spend millions of pounds and hours trying to get rid or minimise them?? ♡ If Henry came embrace his underbite and look even more cute than he would with a normal jawline in my opinion (and if you disagree I'll fight you 😂) then you can accept and embrace your 'imperfections.' ♡ Your cellulite? CUTE AF. ♡ Your stomach rolls whether permanent or friendly visitors when you sit or bend? CUTE AF. ♡ Your spots, your hip dip, your scars, your crooked smile, your wonky teeth, your stretch marks - you guessed it, ALL CUTE AF. ♡ You deserve to feel as cute as a doggo and to embrace all your insecurities, no matter what they may be. And also remember that imperfections are only imperfections if you see them like that, if you decide to embrace them completely then they're no longer imperfections, they're just cute additions to the rest of your perfectly imperfect self 🤷‍♀️ Love and air hugs, KEEP BEING THE BEAUTIFUL BADASSES YOU ARE 💕 Anna x
rant: i’m so fucking fat for one, i have to wear this tight ass formal dress tomorrow and friday and it is super low cut like down to my stomach and i’m so fat. i need one of those waist things that make you look skinny cause i might have a mental breakdown. i wanted to not eat anything from last tuesday to today and i failed. i wanted to lose weight for this dress and i failed. ugh i hate myself and i can’t stop eating.
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rant: i’m so fucking fat for one, i have to wear this tight ass formal dress tomorrow and friday and it is super low cut like down to my stomach and i’m so fat. i need one of those waist things that make you look skinny cause i might have a mental breakdown. i wanted to not eat anything from last tuesday to today and i failed. i wanted to lose weight for this dress and i failed. ugh i hate myself and i can’t stop eating. - - - - - - - - - (ignore these) #losewieght  #motivation  #prorecovery  #skinny  #skinnygirl  #smallwaist  #collarbones  #thighgoals  #perfect  #perfect  #gymmotivation  #sad  #notenough  #fat  #fatty  #thinspo  #fitandthinspo  #healthinspo  #eatingdisorder  #mentalillness  #diet  #healthyfood  #health  #skinnywishes 
I've actually lost count of how many women in recovery I've talked to, myself included, who've gotten completely derailed by diets and cleases. 😩 Usually a friend or co-worker suggests it, and we feel like we can "handle it." Then it spirals into something we can't control and before long it's a full-blown relapse. 🤦🏼‍♀️ I'm not saying this happens to EVERYone, but it happens a LOT. If this is happening to you now, all is not lost! You can get back on track! 💕  I don't recommend dieting for anyone, but it can be very dangerous for those of us who have or used to have eating disorders. ☠️ Ultimately it's our responsibility to say no and honor our bodies and boundaries. I always politely decline, and educate when appropriate. 👩🏼‍🏫 Friends and loved ones, you can make it easier by educating yourselves and always asking first! Your support is extremely valuable. 💗
I've actually lost count of how many women in recovery I've talked to, myself included, who've gotten completely derailed by diets and cleases. 😩 Usually a friend or co-worker suggests it, and we feel like we can "handle it." Then it spirals into something we can't control and before long it's a full-blown relapse. 🤦🏼‍♀️ I'm not saying this happens to EVERYone, but it happens a LOT. If this is happening to you now, all is not lost! You can get back on track! 💕 I don't recommend dieting for anyone, but it can be very dangerous for those of us who have or used to have eating disorders. ☠️ Ultimately it's our responsibility to say no and honor our bodies and boundaries. I always politely decline, and educate when appropriate. 👩🏼‍🏫 Friends and loved ones, you can make it easier by educating yourselves and always asking first! Your support is extremely valuable. 💗
"Of course, counter dependents are stuck in a kind of arrested development. The behaviour patterns are often as a result of or occur alongside CPTSD, developmental trauma and PTSD. Counter dependency can look like Borderline Personality Disorder, however there is usually not the same propensity towards covert or overt manipulation, ostentatious vulnerability or sickness, lack of empathy, and there is not a fundamentally predatory nature to the counter dependent, although they can be needlessly aggressive and confrontational. Lots of their time is spent hiding how hard they are finding things at any given moment and attempting to maintain an avoidance of dependence upon the other, so they can appear arrogant and do suffer with grandiosity at times, but this may not be an exact mirror of the grandiosity found in Narcissistic Personality Disorder and in the Cluster B spectrum of personality disorders." #quotes #reading #writing #books #counterdependency #counterdependents #cptsd #ptsd #cptsdrecovery #prorecovery #complextrauma #complexptsd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #psychology #speculation #truth #thoughts #mind #thinking #philosophy #learning #life
"Of course, counter dependents are stuck in a kind of arrested development. The behaviour patterns are often as a result of or occur alongside CPTSD, developmental trauma and PTSD. Counter dependency can look like Borderline Personality Disorder, however there is usually not the same propensity towards covert or overt manipulation, ostentatious vulnerability or sickness, lack of empathy, and there is not a fundamentally predatory nature to the counter dependent, although they can be needlessly aggressive and confrontational. Lots of their time is spent hiding how hard they are finding things at any given moment and attempting to maintain an avoidance of dependence upon the other, so they can appear arrogant and do suffer with grandiosity at times, but this may not be an exact mirror of the grandiosity found in Narcissistic Personality Disorder and in the Cluster B spectrum of personality disorders." #quotes  #reading  #writing  #books  #counterdependency  #counterdependents  #cptsd  #ptsd  #cptsdrecovery  #prorecovery  #complextrauma  #complexptsd  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #psychology  #speculation  #truth  #thoughts  #mind  #thinking  #philosophy  #learning  #life 
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These are probs my favourite crisps ever; only recently started eating them again and I’m addicted !! This time last year crisps were a massive fear for me💪🏼 I feel pretty productive as I finally got around to cleaning my room today which I’ve been meaning to do for aaaages but kept putting it off😅
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- These are probs my favourite crisps ever; only recently started eating them again and I’m addicted !! This time last year crisps were a massive fear for me💪🏼 I feel pretty productive as I finally got around to cleaning my room today which I’ve been meaning to do for aaaages but kept putting it off😅 - #edrecovery  #edfam  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #prorecovery  #recovery  #bodypositivity  #recoverywarrior  #foodisfuel  #balancednotclean  #edwarrior  #edsoldiers  #mentalhealth  #nourishtoflourish 
When you go out into the woods and you look at trees, you see all these different trees. And some of them are bent and some of them are straight. Some of them are evergreens and some of them are whatever. And you look at the trees and you allow it. You see why it is the way it is. You sort of understand that It didn't get enough light and so it turned that way. And you don't get emotional about it. You just allow it. You appreciate the tree.
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#quotes #fitness #fbg #tblogger #contiki #girlsthatexplore #travelblog #girlslovetravel #adventuregirls #welltravelled #fitfam #fitfamuk #lifestyle #fblogger #traveldeeper #yoga #healthy #prorecovery #girlsthatwander #girlsthatadventure #fashionblogger #thekaylamovement #wmglobaltravellers #pilates #fitnessgirl #thediscoverer #yogagirl #bbg #health #kaylaitsines
When you go out into the woods and you look at trees, you see all these different trees. And some of them are bent and some of them are straight. Some of them are evergreens and some of them are whatever. And you look at the trees and you allow it. You see why it is the way it is. You sort of understand that It didn't get enough light and so it turned that way. And you don't get emotional about it. You just allow it. You appreciate the tree. - - The minute you get near humans you lose all that. And you are constantly saying: "You're too this, or I'm too this." That judging mind comes in. So I practice turning people into trees. Which means appreciating them just the way they are. 🌲 . . . #quotes  #fitness  #fbg  #tblogger  #contiki  #girlsthatexplore  #travelblog  #girlslovetravel  #adventuregirls  #welltravelled  #fitfam  #fitfamuk  #lifestyle  #fblogger  #traveldeeper  #yoga  #healthy  #prorecovery  #girlsthatwander  #girlsthatadventure  #fashionblogger  #thekaylamovement  #wmglobaltravellers  #pilates  #fitnessgirl  #thediscoverer  #yogagirl  #bbg  #health  #kaylaitsines 
Omg latest lunch post ever. I ate the cherries🍒 and finished the smoothie after breakfast then lunch was a chicken breast, spinach, cherry tomatoes🍅, beetroot, cucumber 🥒and seeds with pineapple🍍 cottage cheese.

Since then I've had a banana🍌, an Apple🍏, a Babybel, a kiwi🥝, a satsuma 🍊and a portion of fruit and🍇🥜🌰 nut mix.

Always move forward; because you can.

#recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #recovering #recover #anarecovery #bullimia #bullimiarecovery #prorecovery #bullimic #bullimicanorexia #bullimicana #bullimicanorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderhelp #proudofmyself #glutenfree #cleaneating #food #healthyfood #lunch #snacks #postworkoutmeal
Omg latest lunch post ever. I ate the cherries🍒 and finished the smoothie after breakfast then lunch was a chicken breast, spinach, cherry tomatoes🍅, beetroot, cucumber 🥒and seeds with pineapple🍍 cottage cheese. Since then I've had a banana🍌, an Apple🍏, a Babybel, a kiwi🥝, a satsuma 🍊and a portion of fruit and🍇🥜🌰 nut mix. Always move forward; because you can. #recovery  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryispossible  #recovering  #recover  #anarecovery  #bullimia  #bullimiarecovery  #prorecovery  #bullimic  #bullimicanorexia  #bullimicana  #bullimicanorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderhelp  #proudofmyself  #glutenfree  #cleaneating  #food  #healthyfood  #lunch  #snacks  #postworkoutmeal 
A dinner of dreams (not quite but still bomb👅) @goshfreefrom beetroot burger, paprika spiced potatoes, broccoli & Brussels😋
So yum, very content✨
A dinner of dreams (not quite but still bomb👅) @goshfreefrom beetroot burger, paprika spiced potatoes, broccoli & Brussels😋 So yum, very content✨
Today was weird; woke up feeling very anxious and low. Think everything’s starting to catch up with me as I’ve been so stressed lately, so my head’s starting to not cope with everything. Had quite a bad panic attack earlier on and have been shaking and breathless for the majority of the day. Work was a good distraction though, so I just need to keep my mind busy✨ #mentalhealthawareness #anxietyrecovery #depressionrecovery #recovery #prorecovery #breakthestigma #positivity #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety
Today was weird; woke up feeling very anxious and low. Think everything’s starting to catch up with me as I’ve been so stressed lately, so my head’s starting to not cope with everything. Had quite a bad panic attack earlier on and have been shaking and breathless for the majority of the day. Work was a good distraction though, so I just need to keep my mind busy✨ #mentalhealthawareness  #anxietyrecovery  #depressionrecovery  #recovery  #prorecovery  #breakthestigma  #positivity  #mentalhealth  #depression  #anxiety 
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SUPPER: lettuce, cucumber, celery, tomatoes, beetroot, spring onions, olives and chicken. - - - Shouldn’t of had this, was completely unsatisfying. For some reason although I’m hungry I have no appetite. Is this because I am seeing my sister tomorrow and have another big social event on Thursday and I’m going home for my mothers birthday this weekend? My urge to restrict is strong, but I am stronger! I know that life without ed is worth fighting for, I want to have a baby, I want to go back to work, I want my anxiety to reduce so my hair grows back - I want this more than Ed’s hold on me. Fuck you ed and all you stand for! - - - - #adultswitheds  #adultswitheatingdisorders  #ed  #edrecovery  #recovery  #recoverywin  #recovering  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #reasonstorecover  #reasonsforrecovery  #edfighter  #edfam  #edsoldier  #edwarrier  #prorecovery  #mentalhealthawareness  #edcommunity  #beatana  #nourishtoflourish  #healthynotskinny  #balancednotclean  #healthynothungry  #anxiety  #supper 
Questa sera pollo al curry e zucchine ✅
Sempre più fiera di non saltare più la cena. 
Fallo per #te, impara a #volertibene. 
#edfamily #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #edfighter #beatana #recovery #selflove #recoverywin #ed #fightingana #kickana #dinner #fooddiary #recovering #recoveryispossible #prorecovery
MONDAY BAKE CHALLENGE! 
PLUM CLAFOUTIS 😋😋 with vanilla ice cream and candied plum sauce !!!! 😍 
These have a wonderful.toffee sauce in the bottom! It goes so melty when its all baked together and then all thick and delicious when it touches the ice cream! The plums had such a viberant flavour and all of the vanilla just made it so delicious! It was a beautiful dessert!!! I feel so motivated at the moment ! 
I have so much fun baking with my aunty on our mondays! Its been nice to escape the stress of home today! I don't deal well with disruption! But I seem to be coping !! Hope everyone else has had a wonderful day! 💜💛💚💙 #baking #EDchallenge #edwin #recoverywin #anxiety #balancednotclean #balancedeating #strongnotskinny #nourishnotpunish #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #depression #ana #anarecovery #prorecovery  #healthyishappy #edfighter #edfam #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #caloriesdontmatter #beatana #realrecovery #fuckanorexia #homecooking #reasonstorecover #foodporn #dessert #cutefood
MONDAY BAKE CHALLENGE! PLUM CLAFOUTIS 😋😋 with vanilla ice cream and candied plum sauce !!!! 😍 These have a wonderful.toffee sauce in the bottom! It goes so melty when its all baked together and then all thick and delicious when it touches the ice cream! The plums had such a viberant flavour and all of the vanilla just made it so delicious! It was a beautiful dessert!!! I feel so motivated at the moment ! I have so much fun baking with my aunty on our mondays! Its been nice to escape the stress of home today! I don't deal well with disruption! But I seem to be coping !! Hope everyone else has had a wonderful day! 💜💛💚💙 #baking  #EDchallenge  #edwin  #recoverywin  #anxiety  #balancednotclean  #balancedeating  #strongnotskinny  #nourishnotpunish  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #depression  #ana  #anarecovery  #prorecovery  #healthyishappy  #edfighter  #edfam  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #caloriesdontmatter  #beatana  #realrecovery  #fuckanorexia  #homecooking  #reasonstorecover  #foodporn  #dessert  #cutefood 
I’ve recently had a revelation: that left over korma bean curry hiding in the freezer goes great with rice noodles and it’s super quick, perfect for those days you’ve got individual therapy followed by a asthma check and only half an hour before you have to head out again for an evening group! Busy busy busy, not to mention the shopping I had to do because tomorrow I’m having pizza and crumble! Getting my chef hat on already 👨🏻‍🍳 <- I know that’s a man and I’m female but he’s got a really cute dark moustache and hey when I’m old and grey I’ll probably have one too 😆 #dinner #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery
I’ve recently had a revelation: that left over korma bean curry hiding in the freezer goes great with rice noodles and it’s super quick, perfect for those days you’ve got individual therapy followed by a asthma check and only half an hour before you have to head out again for an evening group! Busy busy busy, not to mention the shopping I had to do because tomorrow I’m having pizza and crumble! Getting my chef hat on already 👨🏻‍🍳 <- I know that’s a man and I’m female but he’s got a really cute dark moustache and hey when I’m old and grey I’ll probably have one too 😆 #dinner  #recovery  #recovering  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recoverywarrior  #beatana  #fuckana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #edfam  #mentalhealthawareness  #orthorexia  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #prorecovery 
Simplicity 😋 ~228 kcal
Simplicity 😋 ~228 kcal
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Update i have gained 400g of muscle mass in a week slower progress compared to first week but oh well my body is starting to look better i like the mirror now 😌 #prorecovery #plantpowered (mostly) #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #anorexia #orthorexia #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #strongnotskinny #gains #weightgain #fitspo #weightgainjourney #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery
− Update i have gained 400g of muscle mass in a week slower progress compared to first week but oh well my body is starting to look better i like the mirror now 😌 #prorecovery  #plantpowered  (mostly) #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexia  #orthorexia  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #strongnotskinny  #gains  #weightgain  #fitspo  #weightgainjourney  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery 
To myself, from myself 🦋
S.E.L.F.L.O.V.E ❤️
Sent something similar to a dear one lately in a different context and had a moment of realisation that I now apply this to my self. I choose me, for me, always 💖
To myself, from myself 🦋 S.E.L.F.L.O.V.E ❤️ Sent something similar to a dear one lately in a different context and had a moment of realisation that I now apply this to my self. I choose me, for me, always 💖
So results are in; I didn't manage to restore sweet fuck all this week, I managed a 0.15 gain so not counted as its probably water retention so a complete kick in the teeth when I feel I'm eating enough to make me burst. So alas I still remain 'underweight' more restoration eating it is, challenge is to add spreads to things - peanut butter, jam etc. Good egg boyf is out for dinner making pals, was supposed to go to my parents for dinner to ensure I had dinner but I just couldn't. Got myself some olives, hummus and crackers to sit on my tod and eat in my car hating my entire existence💪🏻(why am I like this? Why at nearly 26 can I not eat if I'm alone like an actual child? What is my life🙃🙃) #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #prorecovery #recovery #vegan #veganfood#vegansofig #eatingdisorder #healthyeating
So results are in; I didn't manage to restore sweet fuck all this week, I managed a 0.15 gain so not counted as its probably water retention so a complete kick in the teeth when I feel I'm eating enough to make me burst. So alas I still remain 'underweight' more restoration eating it is, challenge is to add spreads to things - peanut butter, jam etc. Good egg boyf is out for dinner making pals, was supposed to go to my parents for dinner to ensure I had dinner but I just couldn't. Got myself some olives, hummus and crackers to sit on my tod and eat in my car hating my entire existence💪🏻(why am I like this? Why at nearly 26 can I not eat if I'm alone like an actual child? What is my life🙃🙃) #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #recovery  #vegan  #veganfood #vegansofig  #eatingdisorder  #healthyeating 
Today is one of those days where my head loves telling me how much easier life would be if I restricted and lost weight. I’d be in hospital and everything is sorted. But that’s no life

There’s no joy or happiness in living like that, I’ve seen first hand people who sadly live like that and I don’t want it. I’d lose my friends. My freedom. Hockey. Patrick. Life and my future!

So although this adulting thing is hard and you have to make so many decisions and I’m always questioning whether it’s the right decision and whether I can actually cope. I’m going to try cause I want to live

#anorexia #anorexianervosa #edrecovery #eatittobeatit #eattolive #eattogrow #foodisfuel #adultswitheds #prorecovery #nevergiveup
Today is one of those days where my head loves telling me how much easier life would be if I restricted and lost weight. I’d be in hospital and everything is sorted. But that’s no life There’s no joy or happiness in living like that, I’ve seen first hand people who sadly live like that and I don’t want it. I’d lose my friends. My freedom. Hockey. Patrick. Life and my future! So although this adulting thing is hard and you have to make so many decisions and I’m always questioning whether it’s the right decision and whether I can actually cope. I’m going to try cause I want to live #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #edrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #eattolive  #eattogrow  #foodisfuel  #adultswitheds  #prorecovery  #nevergiveup 
MONDAY BAKE CHALLENGE! 
PLUM CLAFOUTIS 😋😋 with vanilla ice cream and candied plum sauce !!!! 😍😍😍😍 heres me being happy because I love cooking. And Counting calories is a waste of time. And just enjoying ehat you love is far more fun than slowly killing your self for a piece of mind you will never achieve. 💪 
#baking #EDchallenge #edwin #recoverywin #anxiety #balancednotclean #balancedeating #strongnotskinny #nourishnotpunish #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #depression #ana #anarecovery #prorecovery  #healthyishappy #edfighter #edfam #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #caloriesdontmatter #beatana #realrecovery #fuckanorexia #homecooking #reasonstorecover
MONDAY BAKE CHALLENGE! PLUM CLAFOUTIS 😋😋 with vanilla ice cream and candied plum sauce !!!! 😍😍😍😍 heres me being happy because I love cooking. And Counting calories is a waste of time. And just enjoying ehat you love is far more fun than slowly killing your self for a piece of mind you will never achieve. 💪 #baking  #EDchallenge  #edwin  #recoverywin  #anxiety  #balancednotclean  #balancedeating  #strongnotskinny  #nourishnotpunish  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthrecovery  #depression  #ana  #anarecovery  #prorecovery  #healthyishappy  #edfighter  #edfam  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #caloriesdontmatter  #beatana  #realrecovery  #fuckanorexia  #homecooking  #reasonstorecover 
It’s ok folks, I didn’t forget entirely to show you my morning snack (only 9 hours too late!) which was these four beauties. What was special about this snack was the surprise element - that someone had agreed to bring snacks for all of us in the ed recovery centre I’m part of so we all had these biscuits! Perfect with a nice cuppa milky tea 😋 #morningsnack #recovery #recovering #recoverywin #edrecovery #anarecovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #recoverywarrior #beatana #fuckana #anawho #anawarrior #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #edfamily #edfam #mentalhealthawareness #orthorexia #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #prorecovery
It’s ok folks, I didn’t forget entirely to show you my morning snack (only 9 hours too late!) which was these four beauties. What was special about this snack was the surprise element - that someone had agreed to bring snacks for all of us in the ed recovery centre I’m part of so we all had these biscuits! Perfect with a nice cuppa milky tea 😋 #morningsnack  #recovery  #recovering  #recoverywin  #edrecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #recoverywarrior  #beatana  #fuckana  #anawho  #anawarrior  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #edfam  #mentalhealthawareness  #orthorexia  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #prorecovery 
Some days it gets horrendously tough and I feel like I can't take another moment of existing in my own skin. I feel repulsed and disgusted, like my skin is crawling to the point I want to harm myself to feel some kind of relief from this feeling. I completely spiral into hating every ounce of my body, existence and self. 
So today was an ok, let's take off your proper clothes that feel like they are clingy to your skin, put on that t-shirt and shorts screwed up on the floor that your not sure the last time they had a wash and calm the fuck down. Let's think about what's actually going on in your brain and question everything until you are questioning your teaspoons. I made myself spend some time with Luna when all I wanted to do was let my mind go crazy. I fought hard. 
The want to return to clutches of anorexia's control right now is simply because it's familiar. I know her control, I know what happens and I know what she does and if I return to that, I can put life back on hold for her. I won't have to face others situations I can't control simply because I won't be involved with them. I won't be involved in life. 
I'm not in the mood for getting nowhere constantly because an eating disorder holds me back. I'm going to break the cycle of relapse. I'm going to break free from the thoughts. Wearing baggy clothes and in bitch damn who is she dresses, balance is everything. Especially in pole dance. 
Baby steps are actually leaps when you look back over them.  #realrecovery  #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #cutegirl #recoveryisworthit #comfort #eatittobeatit #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #fuckana #fuckanorexia #selfcare #mentalillness #bodypositive #bopowarrior #strongnotskinny #anawho #selflove #mentalhealth #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery
Some days it gets horrendously tough and I feel like I can't take another moment of existing in my own skin. I feel repulsed and disgusted, like my skin is crawling to the point I want to harm myself to feel some kind of relief from this feeling. I completely spiral into hating every ounce of my body, existence and self. So today was an ok, let's take off your proper clothes that feel like they are clingy to your skin, put on that t-shirt and shorts screwed up on the floor that your not sure the last time they had a wash and calm the fuck down. Let's think about what's actually going on in your brain and question everything until you are questioning your teaspoons. I made myself spend some time with Luna when all I wanted to do was let my mind go crazy. I fought hard. The want to return to clutches of anorexia's control right now is simply because it's familiar. I know her control, I know what happens and I know what she does and if I return to that, I can put life back on hold for her. I won't have to face others situations I can't control simply because I won't be involved with them. I won't be involved in life. I'm not in the mood for getting nowhere constantly because an eating disorder holds me back. I'm going to break the cycle of relapse. I'm going to break free from the thoughts. Wearing baggy clothes and in bitch damn who is she dresses, balance is everything. Especially in pole dance. Baby steps are actually leaps when you look back over them. #realrecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edfam  #cutegirl  #recoveryisworthit  #comfort  #eatittobeatit  #ana  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexianervosa  #prorecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia  #selfcare  #mentalillness  #bodypositive  #bopowarrior  #strongnotskinny  #anawho  #selflove  #mentalhealth  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery 
Tate, oggi è stato un GIORNO SPECIALE😍🌟 perché, DOPO 2 ANNI🔙, ho ballato di nuovo il mio ASSOLO PREFERITO😍!!!
"SUONO INTERIORE"🎻!!! Questa è stata la prima volta che l'ho provato, quindi è normale che abbia fatto degli sbagli oppure non ci abbia messo tanta energia, perché è molto faticoso da fare, poi non sono abituata di fiato, ma mi ha detto la mia insegnante CHE GIÀ ORA LO STO FACENDO MOLTO BENE... LO PROVEREMO ANCORA ED ANCORA E SARÀ PERFETTO😍👌!!! Vi giuro, è stata la sensazione PIÙ BELLA DEL MONDO😍😍😍!!! Ero molto EMOZIONATA😍, tutte mi guardavano e alla fine mi hanno applaudita👏. Avevo i brividi😲 e le lacrime😭!!! Purtroppo non c è la fine perché lo spazio sulla memoria del telefono era esaurito, ma spero di avervi reso l'idea. Nonostante ci siano degli errorini, voglio pubblicarlo perché è una PARTE VITALE DI ME. È IL MIO PASSATO E IL MIO PRESENTE. È LA MIA RINASCITA🦋🎀❤. LA NICOLE BALLERINA È TORNATA❤!!! Tate, spero vi piaccia❤

BUONA VISIONE❤

@stefano.pierangeli.rock @ivano_ilari @steshenic 
#dance #breakfast #anorexia #anoressia #recovery #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #fearfood #foodporn #eatingdisorder #recoveringanorexic #health #edsoldier #edproblems #skinny #ed #ricover #edwarrior #prorecovery #ednos #anorexic #eatingdisorderrecovery #food #anorexianervosa #happy
Tate, oggi è stato un GIORNO SPECIALE😍🌟 perché, DOPO 2 ANNI🔙, ho ballato di nuovo il mio ASSOLO PREFERITO😍!!! "SUONO INTERIORE"🎻!!! Questa è stata la prima volta che l'ho provato, quindi è normale che abbia fatto degli sbagli oppure non ci abbia messo tanta energia, perché è molto faticoso da fare, poi non sono abituata di fiato, ma mi ha detto la mia insegnante CHE GIÀ ORA LO STO FACENDO MOLTO BENE... LO PROVEREMO ANCORA ED ANCORA E SARÀ PERFETTO😍👌!!! Vi giuro, è stata la sensazione PIÙ BELLA DEL MONDO😍😍😍!!! Ero molto EMOZIONATA😍, tutte mi guardavano e alla fine mi hanno applaudita👏. Avevo i brividi😲 e le lacrime😭!!! Purtroppo non c è la fine perché lo spazio sulla memoria del telefono era esaurito, ma spero di avervi reso l'idea. Nonostante ci siano degli errorini, voglio pubblicarlo perché è una PARTE VITALE DI ME. È IL MIO PASSATO E IL MIO PRESENTE. È LA MIA RINASCITA🦋🎀❤. LA NICOLE BALLERINA È TORNATA❤!!! Tate, spero vi piaccia❤ BUONA VISIONE❤ @stefano.pierangeli.rock @ivano_ilari @steshenic #dance  #breakfast  #anorexia  #anoressia  #recovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #fearfood  #foodporn  #eatingdisorder  #recoveringanorexic  #health  #edsoldier  #edproblems  #skinny  #ed  #ricover  #edwarrior  #prorecovery  #ednos  #anorexic  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #food  #anorexianervosa  #happy 
Ana has made it her mission to make me feel like shit about myself so I'm making it my mission to break her rule of no peanutbutter bars twice in a day because that's a dumb rule ya know.  #realrecovery  #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edcommunity #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #anorexianervosa #prorecovery #recoveryispossible #fuckana #fuckanorexia #wholeearth #peanutbutter #nourishyourbody #fighting #strongnotskinny #anawho #anawarrior #anafighter #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery
Ana has made it her mission to make me feel like shit about myself so I'm making it my mission to break her rule of no peanutbutter bars twice in a day because that's a dumb rule ya know. #realrecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #edfamily  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #edfam  #edcommunity  #recoveryisworthit  #recoverywin  #eatittobeatit  #ana  #anarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexianervosa  #prorecovery  #recoveryispossible  #fuckana  #fuckanorexia  #wholeearth  #peanutbutter  #nourishyourbody  #fighting  #strongnotskinny  #anawho  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery 
🌟My #nightsnack tonight was this hugee bowl of beautiful fruit (#raspberries #cherries #blueberries #grapes ) and unpictured whole milk(!!!)..
🌟I was craving cherries so we bought them and they are sooo good...
🌟depression is a bitch...
🌟day 2 of no calorie counting is going okay...my heads giving me a lot of grief but i dont need to count my calories!!!
🌟one thing im struggling with atm is my perfectionism and the depression...part of me wants to go into school and do everything productive but my depression is making it hard for me to even get up... I feel like im just wasting away...school isnt going to plan and tbh i dont want to go back there...this upsets me so much because for school was my main motivation for a very long time...
I honestly dont know what im going to do...
🌟sorry to be so negative xx🌟
💗stay safe and have a nice evening💗
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #freefromed #fruit #edcommunity #edwarrior #edfighter #beautybeyondbones #beatana #surivor #fightback #honouryourcravings #fuelyourself #foodshouldnotbefeared #foodisfuel #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #staystrong #prorecovery #keepfighting #realrecovery #chooselife #choosehappiness #chooserecovery
🌟My #nightsnack  tonight was this hugee bowl of beautiful fruit (#raspberries  #cherries  #blueberries  #grapes  ) and unpictured whole milk(!!!).. 🌟I was craving cherries so we bought them and they are sooo good... 🌟depression is a bitch... 🌟day 2 of no calorie counting is going okay...my heads giving me a lot of grief but i dont need to count my calories!!! 🌟one thing im struggling with atm is my perfectionism and the depression...part of me wants to go into school and do everything productive but my depression is making it hard for me to even get up... I feel like im just wasting away...school isnt going to plan and tbh i dont want to go back there...this upsets me so much because for school was my main motivation for a very long time... I honestly dont know what im going to do... 🌟sorry to be so negative xx🌟 💗stay safe and have a nice evening💗 #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #freefromed  #fruit  #edcommunity  #edwarrior  #edfighter  #beautybeyondbones  #beatana  #surivor  #fightback  #honouryourcravings  #fuelyourself  #foodshouldnotbefeared  #foodisfuel  #strongnotskinny  #eatittobeatit  #staystrong  #prorecovery  #keepfighting  #realrecovery  #chooselife  #choosehappiness  #chooserecovery 
Dinner 🥘 
Dinner was veggie balls and tortellini •
Evening meal was a skyr yogurt, raisins and cucumber •
Night snack was some cucumber 🥒 •
How was your day?
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#beatinganorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #freedom #food #anorexia #prorecovery #bodypositivity #bodypositive #dinner #eveningmeal #not1in5
#update in 🇩🇪
💯TW - ZAHLEN ETC. 💯
es ist seit ein paar monaten ein auf und ab mit dem gewicht. ich nehme ab und paar tage später ist das ganze gewicht wieder drauf. ich binge und hasse mich danach mehr und mehr. ich reduziere wieder, nehme ab und habe kaum noch kraft. mir ist wieder ständig schwindlig und so wirkliche lust zum leben habe ich auch nicht. ich habe in den letzten 2 wochen etwa 2-3 kilo abgenommen wobei ich fast immer unter 1500 kalorien esse, an manchen tagen nichtmal 1000. der schneidedruck kommt schubweise und meistens kann ich ganz gut damit umgehen. am mittwoch bin ich 3 wochen clean &' ich hoffe, dass es diesmal mehr als 21 tage hält.. klar ich werde oft getriggert. wenn ich wunden sehe, frage ich mich, wieso ich mich nicht verletzen darf. und die suizidgedanken kommen auch schubweise. ich versuche gerade sie mir, "abzutrainieren", aber es ist hart. ende juni habe ich meinen abschluss in der tasche und irgendwie will ich echt noch 3 kilo abnehmen (wäre dann bei 60kg) und das war ja von anfang an mein GW. ich habe einfach angst, dass ich nicht in mein kleid passe und dann fett bin und hässlich noch dazu. ich gehe auch selten mit freunden raus und wenn ich raus gehe dann MUSS ich 10000 schritte gehen. es ist alles nicht so leicht. mit meiner therapeutin bearbeite ich jetzt schon die themen, die ich stationär behandeln will, weil es bis zu aufnahme noch fast ein jahr ist..🙄🙄das war mein ehrliches update, friends. ich weiß es ist hart,aber ich versuche weiterzukämpfen! stay strong!💕#weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #warrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recovery #triggerwarning #anorexia #struggling #depression #depressed #deutschland #selfharmrecovery #selfacceptance #selfharm #selfharmmm #germany #prorecovery #healing #loveyourself #loveyourselffirst #leipzig #neverstopfighting #iwasnotbuilttobreak #mentalillnesses
#update  in 🇩🇪 💯TW - ZAHLEN ETC. 💯 es ist seit ein paar monaten ein auf und ab mit dem gewicht. ich nehme ab und paar tage später ist das ganze gewicht wieder drauf. ich binge und hasse mich danach mehr und mehr. ich reduziere wieder, nehme ab und habe kaum noch kraft. mir ist wieder ständig schwindlig und so wirkliche lust zum leben habe ich auch nicht. ich habe in den letzten 2 wochen etwa 2-3 kilo abgenommen wobei ich fast immer unter 1500 kalorien esse, an manchen tagen nichtmal 1000. der schneidedruck kommt schubweise und meistens kann ich ganz gut damit umgehen. am mittwoch bin ich 3 wochen clean &' ich hoffe, dass es diesmal mehr als 21 tage hält.. klar ich werde oft getriggert. wenn ich wunden sehe, frage ich mich, wieso ich mich nicht verletzen darf. und die suizidgedanken kommen auch schubweise. ich versuche gerade sie mir, "abzutrainieren", aber es ist hart. ende juni habe ich meinen abschluss in der tasche und irgendwie will ich echt noch 3 kilo abnehmen (wäre dann bei 60kg) und das war ja von anfang an mein GW. ich habe einfach angst, dass ich nicht in mein kleid passe und dann fett bin und hässlich noch dazu. ich gehe auch selten mit freunden raus und wenn ich raus gehe dann MUSS ich 10000 schritte gehen. es ist alles nicht so leicht. mit meiner therapeutin bearbeite ich jetzt schon die themen, die ich stationär behandeln will, weil es bis zu aufnahme noch fast ein jahr ist..🙄🙄das war mein ehrliches update, friends. ich weiß es ist hart,aber ich versuche weiterzukämpfen! stay strong!💕#weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat  #warrior  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #triggerwarning  #anorexia  #struggling  #depression  #depressed  #deutschland  #selfharmrecovery  #selfacceptance  #selfharm  #selfharmmm  #germany  #prorecovery  #healing  #loveyourself  #loveyourselffirst  #leipzig  #neverstopfighting  #iwasnotbuilttobreak  #mentalillnesses 
#snack i’m obsessed with quest bars😍 -also had a couple baked lays but I couldn’t get myself to eat any more:/ maybe i’ll get the courage to eat them later.
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#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #meals #anorexianervosa #anawho #edfamily #anafamily #edrecovery #edarmy #eattolive #recovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #healthy #strongnotskinny #edfood
#mindovermatter #foodisfuel #progress #edpositive #edfighter #selflove #prorecovery #edfamily #iwillbeatthis
#snack  i’m obsessed with quest bars😍 -also had a couple baked lays but I couldn’t get myself to eat any more:/ maybe i’ll get the courage to eat them later. —————————————— #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #meals  #anorexianervosa  #anawho  #edfamily  #anafamily  #edrecovery  #edarmy  #eattolive  #recovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #healthy  #strongnotskinny  #edfood  #mindovermatter  #foodisfuel  #progress  #edpositive  #edfighter  #selflove  #prorecovery  #edfamily  #iwillbeatthis 
phu. i'm really NOT happy with it. Should i make a new bujo? With beautiful things?? i HATE this desicion. #bujo #bulletjournal #bujoinspiration #mentalhealth #prorecovery #bujolove #bulletjournalcommunity
Buonaseraaa pescioline🐟🐟
Come state? Io sono stancaa però UDITE UDITE psico é andata bene😍📚sono abbastanza soddisfatta, speriamo che non sia solo un'impressione hahahaha
Ora il problema é igiene che devo ancora iniziare e l'esame é domani🤯tra l'altro domani dovrò pure fare gli esami del sangue💉💉ho pauraaaaa
Vi scrivo ora cosi mi metto sotto subito e se dopo riesco guardo qualche vostro post, dipende da che ora finisco⏲️ CENETTA con
~ passato di verdure @dimmidisi_official con pastina🍵🍵
~180g di orata🐟🐟con olio, limone e prezzemolo🍋
~50g di pane integrale con 2 fette di bresaola e philly alla greca🇬🇷🇬🇷🍼
~pezzetto di grana🧀
E voi patatine?❤️❤️❤️ #dinner#cena#likes#anoressia#anorexianervosa#disturbialimentari#dca#edrecovery#edfighter#ana#anafighter#anarecovery#dispercion#dispercezione#dcarecovery#difficile#sad#happy#prorecovery#prorebirth#rinascita#ricovero#rebirth#butterfly#nonmollare#ednos#passatodiverdura#pastina#orafa#philadelphia
Buonaseraaa pescioline🐟🐟 Come state? Io sono stancaa però UDITE UDITE psico é andata bene😍📚sono abbastanza soddisfatta, speriamo che non sia solo un'impressione hahahaha Ora il problema é igiene che devo ancora iniziare e l'esame é domani🤯tra l'altro domani dovrò pure fare gli esami del sangue💉💉ho pauraaaaa Vi scrivo ora cosi mi metto sotto subito e se dopo riesco guardo qualche vostro post, dipende da che ora finisco⏲️ CENETTA con ~ passato di verdure @dimmidisi_official con pastina🍵🍵 ~180g di orata🐟🐟con olio, limone e prezzemolo🍋 ~50g di pane integrale con 2 fette di bresaola e philly alla greca🇬🇷🇬🇷🍼 ~pezzetto di grana🧀 E voi patatine?❤️❤️❤️ #dinner #cena #likes #anoressia #anorexianervosa #disturbialimentari #dca #edrecovery #edfighter #ana #anafighter #anarecovery #dispercion #dispercezione #dcarecovery #difficile #sad #happy #prorecovery #prorebirth #rinascita #ricovero #rebirth #butterfly #nonmollare #ednos #passatodiverdura #pastina #orafa #philadelphia 
I have the joys of camhs tomorrow 🙃🙃
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@mental_health_memes_2 ~T
I have the joys of camhs tomorrow 🙃🙃 •backup• @mental_health_memes_2 ~T
Hey ihr da draußen

Einen frohen Pfingstmontag wünsche ich euch! Ich hoffe, dass die Sonne bei jedem den ganzen Tag am Himmel stand und ihr die Chance genutzt habt, ein kühles Eis zu essen 🍨☀ Ich habe eigentlich genau das gleiche wie gestern gemacht. Zwei mal mit dem Hund Gassi, Gartenarbeit, Schulaufgaben und Kreuzworträtsel lösen. So konnte ich mich die ganze Zeit ablenken und meinen negativen Gedanken entkommen. Zwar bin ich jetzt recht erschöpft, aber zumindest war meine Laune nicht im Keller und damit das auch so bleibt, werde ich mir jetzt noch irgendwelche lateinischen Texte zum Übersetzen raussuchen 🤔

Das Problem mit dem Gefühl eines zu leeren Magens und dem daraus resultierenden Hunger (also ich glaube, dass es Hunger ist, es fühlt sich aber irgendwie komisch an. Als ob zu viel Luft in mir wäre) ist heute zum Glück etwas weniger geworden. Erneut habe ich extrem viel getrunken und nicht mehr gegessen, was falsch ist, ich weiß, aber mich überfordern bereits wenige Kalorien, die ich zu viel esse 😓😕 Falls ihr morgen noch Ferien habt, genießt diese und wenn nicht, startet gut in die verkürzte Woche! Bis dann! 👋🏼
Hey ihr da draußen Einen frohen Pfingstmontag wünsche ich euch! Ich hoffe, dass die Sonne bei jedem den ganzen Tag am Himmel stand und ihr die Chance genutzt habt, ein kühles Eis zu essen 🍨☀ Ich habe eigentlich genau das gleiche wie gestern gemacht. Zwei mal mit dem Hund Gassi, Gartenarbeit, Schulaufgaben und Kreuzworträtsel lösen. So konnte ich mich die ganze Zeit ablenken und meinen negativen Gedanken entkommen. Zwar bin ich jetzt recht erschöpft, aber zumindest war meine Laune nicht im Keller und damit das auch so bleibt, werde ich mir jetzt noch irgendwelche lateinischen Texte zum Übersetzen raussuchen 🤔 Das Problem mit dem Gefühl eines zu leeren Magens und dem daraus resultierenden Hunger (also ich glaube, dass es Hunger ist, es fühlt sich aber irgendwie komisch an. Als ob zu viel Luft in mir wäre) ist heute zum Glück etwas weniger geworden. Erneut habe ich extrem viel getrunken und nicht mehr gegessen, was falsch ist, ich weiß, aber mich überfordern bereits wenige Kalorien, die ich zu viel esse 😓😕 Falls ihr morgen noch Ferien habt, genießt diese und wenn nicht, startet gut in die verkürzte Woche! Bis dann! 👋🏼
Pitta pizzas were much improved today, as am I. I am feeling quite a bit better today, pain is a little better and I have a little more energy.

Currently challenging having bread as a meal. For some reason having toast as a snack feels safer than having bread for a meal. Only one way to fix the fear... face it!

#edrecovery #prorecovery #selflove #success #youareenough #intuitiveeating #anxiety #selfimprovement #listentoyourbody #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit #chronicpain #pain
Pitta pizzas were much improved today, as am I. I am feeling quite a bit better today, pain is a little better and I have a little more energy. Currently challenging having bread as a meal. For some reason having toast as a snack feels safer than having bread for a meal. Only one way to fix the fear... face it! #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #selflove  #success  #youareenough  #intuitiveeating  #anxiety  #selfimprovement  #listentoyourbody  #recoverywarrior  #recoveryisworthit  #chronicpain  #pain 
[ 21/5 ] lounas oli riisiä ja kasviksia. 🌻 aloittamisen vaikeus.. -
 #ruokapäiväkirja #edstruggles #eddiary #fooddiary #anxious #anxiety #depression #ednos #edfighter #anorexia #anoreksia #prorecovery #eatingdisorders #syömishäiriö #foodporn #lunch
Afternoon snack is a plate of baby carrots, celery, and cucumber with some hummus for dipping 😋 had some watermelon this morning.
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Tonight we are getting together with my sister and her boyfriend to play virtual reality. We don't get along the best just because we're so different, so there's always this unspoken tension when we're together. Also, she's always been judgemental of my weight. Even before I started losing weight, she's made comments about how thin I am because she's always been quite overweight. So I know there will be some kind of comment tonight after my seeing her for months. 😓
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They want to go out for ice cream or something afterwards and I've been stressing out over that so much. I haven't had ice cream in years and if I ever do have it, there's no way I'm wasting it on a night with people who I don't fully enjoy being with. I'm gonna try to suggest frozen yogurt or something that will be a bit easier to portion control or get something healthier. I don't wanna come home with guilt after it will already be kinda stressful with the tension between us hanging out. Thank god my husband will be there... I don't think I could get through anything without him! 😥❤️
Afternoon snack is a plate of baby carrots, celery, and cucumber with some hummus for dipping 😋 had some watermelon this morning. . Tonight we are getting together with my sister and her boyfriend to play virtual reality. We don't get along the best just because we're so different, so there's always this unspoken tension when we're together. Also, she's always been judgemental of my weight. Even before I started losing weight, she's made comments about how thin I am because she's always been quite overweight. So I know there will be some kind of comment tonight after my seeing her for months. 😓 . They want to go out for ice cream or something afterwards and I've been stressing out over that so much. I haven't had ice cream in years and if I ever do have it, there's no way I'm wasting it on a night with people who I don't fully enjoy being with. I'm gonna try to suggest frozen yogurt or something that will be a bit easier to portion control or get something healthier. I don't wanna come home with guilt after it will already be kinda stressful with the tension between us hanging out. Thank god my husband will be there... I don't think I could get through anything without him! 😥❤️
Sometimes, we all need a reminder due to the stigma surrounding eating disorders and mental illness in general, that people can put a facade and fake persona on in the midst of immense struggle. That’s the dangerous part about mental illness in my opinion. Cancer, for example, is a medical ordeal that many can see and perceive due to the physical effects it occasionally causes, i.e. hair loss from chemo, among other side effects. Some mental illnesses can be seen, such as anorexia when people are severely underweight. But most cannot be seen. Here in these photos, I am nowhere NEAR my lowest body weight; however, I am equally as sick in both photos, the right photo is just more evident because I am actively in treatment, struggling, and with an NG tube. The right picture was taken I believe less than a week ago, and the left literally months before. I guarantee bystanders in anthropologie (the store in which the left photo was taken) NEVER would’ve known the level of suffering I was enduring. The immense amount of pain—physically and mentally—, the many pounds gained prior, the numerous medical and inpatient/residential/partial hospitalizations endured beforehand, etc. I post this just as a gentle reminder for all (I struggle with this too, and we are ALL human!) to always remember that many may be fighting a battle we know nothing about.
❤️ #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #nourishnotpunish #edsoldier #minniemaud #prorecovery #weightrestored #anawho #strongnotskinny #edfamily #realrecovery #edwarrior #nourishtoflourish #gainingweightiscool #eatingdisorder #orthorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderssuck
Sometimes, we all need a reminder due to the stigma surrounding eating disorders and mental illness in general, that people can put a facade and fake persona on in the midst of immense struggle. That’s the dangerous part about mental illness in my opinion. Cancer, for example, is a medical ordeal that many can see and perceive due to the physical effects it occasionally causes, i.e. hair loss from chemo, among other side effects. Some mental illnesses can be seen, such as anorexia when people are severely underweight. But most cannot be seen. Here in these photos, I am nowhere NEAR my lowest body weight; however, I am equally as sick in both photos, the right photo is just more evident because I am actively in treatment, struggling, and with an NG tube. The right picture was taken I believe less than a week ago, and the left literally months before. I guarantee bystanders in anthropologie (the store in which the left photo was taken) NEVER would’ve known the level of suffering I was enduring. The immense amount of pain—physically and mentally—, the many pounds gained prior, the numerous medical and inpatient/residential/partial hospitalizations endured beforehand, etc. I post this just as a gentle reminder for all (I struggle with this too, and we are ALL human!) to always remember that many may be fighting a battle we know nothing about. ❤️ #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anarecovery  #nourishnotpunish  #edsoldier  #minniemaud  #prorecovery  #weightrestored  #anawho  #strongnotskinny  #edfamily  #realrecovery  #edwarrior  #nourishtoflourish  #gainingweightiscool  #eatingdisorder  #orthorexiarecovery  #eatingdisorderssuck 
Ate so much food and I cannot even cope with it🙃 Tomorrow is a new day and proper meal planning will have to happen
Ate so much food and I cannot even cope with it🙃 Tomorrow is a new day and proper meal planning will have to happen
okay, so we all know the saying "mental health over everything" and we all know that it's a fucking lie. you fail your class and say it's because of your mental illness? - "you had enough time to study. you should have just started earlier." NO SHIT SHERLOCK! try to study when you have several mental illnesses that all tell you other things, what you should do, etc. you reach the point. you don't know what to do, you're overwhelmed and you're like "okay fuck it".
and guess what? now you're sitting in class, trying to write your exam and your holding back your tears because you're panicking. congratulations you feel like a failure and it all starts again. a never-ending cycle. so stop the bullshit with "mental health over everything". and now I'm going to study (or rather I'm going to try)

#eatingdisorder #ed #ednos #ana #anxiety #depression #anxiety #wannabethin #wannabeskinny #prorecovery #me #mentalhealth #mentalhealthovereverything #mentalhealth
okay, so we all know the saying "mental health over everything" and we all know that it's a fucking lie. you fail your class and say it's because of your mental illness? - "you had enough time to study. you should have just started earlier." NO SHIT SHERLOCK! try to study when you have several mental illnesses that all tell you other things, what you should do, etc. you reach the point. you don't know what to do, you're overwhelmed and you're like "okay fuck it". and guess what? now you're sitting in class, trying to write your exam and your holding back your tears because you're panicking. congratulations you feel like a failure and it all starts again. a never-ending cycle. so stop the bullshit with "mental health over everything". and now I'm going to study (or rather I'm going to try) #eatingdisorder  #ed  #ednos  #ana  #anxiety  #depression  #anxiety  #wannabethin  #wannabeskinny  #prorecovery  #me  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthovereverything  #mentalhealth 
Allora stamattina psichiatra - colloquio con la doc Ruzzi alle 10:00; mi ha detto che è fiera del mio lavoro e che mi vuole bene. Inutile dire che anche io la adoro e che non potevo chiedere di meglio 🤗 Poi alle 16:00 sono andata dal mio dentista preferito,il doc Assumma ,mi ha devitalizzato un premolare,ha aperto e chiuso le radici,in pratica due sedute in una. Non ho sentito niente 😍 Il ritmo è ogni lunedì Ruzzi alle 10 e dentista Assumma alle 16😅  #Mollichina#SabatoItaliano#StorieItaliane#anasolider#Anoressia#AnoressiaRecovery #Angyrecovery #Prorecovery #Dca  #DcaRecovery #Dcaweb #Dcablog #DcaNapoli #inspiremyinstagram #Inspiration  #Motivator #Motivation #Motivated #Niceday #Blogger #WebInfluencee #BloggerInfluencer #NapoletanBlogger #ItalianBlogger #Angygram #Instagood #Instadaily #Instaweb #Instablog #Instagra
Allora stamattina psichiatra - colloquio con la doc Ruzzi alle 10:00; mi ha detto che è fiera del mio lavoro e che mi vuole bene. Inutile dire che anche io la adoro e che non potevo chiedere di meglio 🤗 Poi alle 16:00 sono andata dal mio dentista preferito,il doc Assumma ,mi ha devitalizzato un premolare,ha aperto e chiuso le radici,in pratica due sedute in una. Non ho sentito niente 😍 Il ritmo è ogni lunedì Ruzzi alle 10 e dentista Assumma alle 16😅 #Mollichina #SabatoItaliano #StorieItaliane #anasolider #Anoressia #AnoressiaRecovery  #Angyrecovery  #Prorecovery  #Dca  #DcaRecovery  #Dcaweb  #Dcablog  #DcaNapoli  #inspiremyinstagram  #Inspiration  #Motivator  #Motivation  #Motivated  #Niceday  #Blogger  #WebInfluencee  #BloggerInfluencer  #NapoletanBlogger  #ItalianBlogger  #Angygram  #Instagood  #Instadaily  #Instaweb  #Instablog  #Instagra