My coaches always thought I would be a miler, but I hated running distance. I made every excuse I could. This is not a comfortable thing for me. I’m not good at the mental game of distance running and probably could be psyched out easily. These legs can go fast for short distances but could be trained to go longer, further. After coaching myself to the start line on Sunday, I feel like I did myself a favor by taking on the challenge. It’s annoying to think of yourself as never being able to be good at something, so you have to throw the expectation out the window and just GO. So maybe now that road races aren’t so scary anymore, I will try more. The only runner I can be today is the one that I am.
YAY for even the smallest personal bests! 🤗 ... I am FINALLY able to do a couple regular positioned push-ups! a movement that I continue to struggle with since the day I started working out. •It’s the little successes that make me the most proud because I was once unable to do regular push-ups and now I can.. perseverance and determination is key. 🔑
Today was chest and triceps day and let me tell you my chest & triceps were on fire!🔥 I hope everyone had a great day and made someone smile today. 💕✌🏻
"Pray as if God will take care of all; act as if all is up to you."
Never expect perfect circumstances. It's easy to say that conditions are not perfect, you've been dealt an unfair hand and nothing is going your way. Those are all excuses. Use what is at your disposal to keep you moving forward in life. Know that you are in total control of your own life. Many people make excuses for themselves by saying that luck determines whether they are successful or not. You are in control of your own luck- success or failure is all in your control. Don't waste mental energy worrying about what might happen. Control your own luck by seizing opportunities to improve your life or situation. The result will either be a lucky break or the regret of a road not taken. 🔥 #strongmom#empoweringwomen#buildyourownhouse#faith#warrior#strongwomen#strongkids#love#God#perserverance#fitmom#journey#boymom#toddlermom#happy
The beautiful Sandy has recently visited to give us her exciting news ✨ In the Nationals Special Olympics Sandy achieved gold, bronze, and two 6th places in the Equestrian events 🐎We couldn’t be more proud of her determination and perseverance to let nothing get in her way!! If you see Sandy in our club please congratulate her 🏅🐴
“I’ll TRY AGAIN”
Said our 2yr old as he tried to throw the rock and make it into the water like dad. Each time he failed to do so, he said the words “I’LL TRY AGAIN”
It makes me think of all the people today who “GIVE UP” on life, GIVE UP on their relationships, GIVE UP on their health, GIVE UP on their wealth.
You see at some point in our life, we were that kid who didn’t let outside circumstance affect our decisions in life. We simply TRIED AGAIN!
Where could you take inventory in your life and TRY AGAIN?
When your shoes match your dumbbells 😊 I didn't want to work out today. Last night was rough emotionally. It's never fun to hear about negative things that were said behind your back, especially when it's from family. I've been called a hypochondriac, it was said "well, she's not dying, it's not that bad", from family. It crushed me. But, I can't control or change them. I can only control myself and the steps I'm taking to recover and improve. I choose to be positive (I got the crying part out of the way last night lol). I felt strong today. I've missed it.
⚠️ RECOVERY TALK ⚠️ ⠀
3 years ago today I took this picture! It was the morning after I came home from ED treatment out of state. I remember sitting on my picnic table outside - LOST! It was such a confusing feeling to me! I had spent almost 90 days in treatment , didn’t this mean I should feel some profound feeling of being saved or found?! Wasn’t that the whole point of treatment? My world was spinning! What do I do? Who do I talk to? What do I eat? Are we going to play the same “games” at the table every time I eat? Do I have to talk about every feeling I had while eating this damn meal? You understand a little why I felt so lost?! ⠀
I wish I could tell you that after this day things just got easier. That I was magically recovered. I would be a liar if I said that. I WILL tell you that the next two years were HARD AF! I fell back into the ED hard. I ran from loved ones. I shut people completely out. I tried to end it all one night in my bathroom. I became addicted to Benadryl in hopes to just sleep through all the pain! See? It was NOT an overnight fairy tale of recovery! ⠀
Recovery IS POSSIBLE! That’s what I am here to tell you! Not every journey of recovery is the same (drugs, alcohol, ED, binge eating), but every story matters! With every day I wake up now, I know recovery is possible because I’m living proof. ⠀
If you are struggling with recovery or just life in general reach out to me! I would love to help you! To share more of my story or even just be an open ear to listen! Keep pushing! It’s so worth it! ⠀
When life comes full circle.
So in January 2000, upon returning from the United States my grandma saw it fit for me to attend a school where she knew the principal. I ended up at St Ann’s Bay Primary School. I remember after she left me at school on the first day, my “uncle” Mr Rupert Jimmy Brown introduced me to my classmates and he sat me in the FRONT of the class next to @yourstruly_minerva I felt out of place. I did not have the right uniform and thought everyone was staring at me lol. For the next few years I blossomed and excelled in Education and Sports. Mr Brown hated the fact that I used to give up, if I felt like I was going lose or fail. At my very first DA Sports, I was to anchor the 4x1 relay and I received the baton LAST and instead of finishing the race, I walked to the finish line with tears in my eyes. Nuh ask if him nuh cuss me. A few years later I was placed 2nd in the Parish for tennis and was going to represent the School in Kingston and he said “ And yuh can nuh badda give up before the game done” 😂 He was much harder on me compared to other students and because of that I worked to make him proud. Today, I continue pushing to the very end because of the values that he instilled in me at age 9. I remember when GSAT results came out and he called me to his office and told me my results and said “ yuh see if yuh never pass” and smiled. I also can’t forget my Grade 6 teacher, Mrs Gardner, who pushed me beyond my capabilities. When I was leaving Jamaica to move to the USA, I saw her at the airport and she said “ You are a bright girl, so nuh go ova there go mek a fool of yourself” (lol so rough)
Today, I got confirmation that I will be back at the St Ann’s Bay Primary School, not as a student, not as a teacher but a pioneer of Personalized Education. I am looking forward to instilling the same values that Mr Brown and Mrs Gardner instilled in me. Thank you to Principal Cole and Vice Principal Simpson for this amazing opportunity.
Ps: Leighton @mazdaspeedbrown Thanks for reviewing my proposal and offering insights to make it better and thanks @jayboog876 for making the connection happen. 🙏🏾 #perserverance
I had a sciatica “attack” (as I call it) a few days ago and its impact has been lingering still. Which normally I’d be use to- I’ve suffered from sciatica pain (feels like a knife running down your leg) since i was 19 but this most recent episode brought me down a bit. After a sciatica attack I struggle to perform normal task like getting out of bed in the morning, walking down the street, or sitting down for too long. And yesterday I got frustrated with life a bit. But i am grateful still. Grateful that with just a little patience, and help from others, i get to pursue those things which I love. Im dancing in those videos as a testament that obstacles, even the physical ones, dont have to become setbacks yall. #sciatica#moderndance#miami#perserverance#backpain#dreamers#praisedance
Update, I’ve lost 5kg so far just over a week by eating right. But there were those with comments: it’s bad for your body, he will end up putting it back on.. This quote is so true, there will be those in your life that will hate your progress and the manner in which you are happy and living your life.. let them, don’t let them drag you down, just because they are not happy with themselves.. be patient, you will be victorious. #love#live#laugh#letthemhate#bebetter#drive#perserverance#believeinyourself#neverbackdown#gains