There is so much significance to me looking at this photo. The fighter on the left would walk out of that cage with a loss. The fighter on the right would walk out with the win. These photos are about a year apart and show two very different fighters right before a fight. A year ago I lost a fight, but the loss would indeed make me better in every way and I fought everyday after to get to the fighter on the right that would walk out of the cage a year later a completely different fighter. Although there’s still alot of improvements I need to make I’m happy today looking back on that fight. I’m happy knowing I didn’t stay knocked down, and I’m still in the fight everyday loving what I do. Just a happy martial artist getting 1% better everyday with the help of the amazing coaches, teammates and consistent deliberate practice. 🤙🏼 #jkdunlimitedcincinnati#wmma#mma#lftdathletesearch#lftdlifestyle#getlftd#staylftd#keepfighting#warriormentality#lftdwarriors
Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Surely He will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,” and you make the Most High your dwelling, no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent. For He will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him My salvation.”
My heart hurts so bad
These past few days have absolutely been a trigger for me. It’s been very difficult not to run to the one thing that always comforted me when I was down. I’ve kept fighting and been able to survive thus far. So prayers and positive vibes that as I head to work tonight to face my hard times head on that I can stay strong. Today is the day I’ve been dreading all weekend. 😔😔😔
I am fighting, every little bit of energy I have goes into selfcare, getting through the day and rest. This past week I relapsed in selfharm and couldn't find my inner strength. My therapists and psychiatrist worry a lot, but I didn't.. until friday. I got home after seeing my EMDR therapist, felt so sad, sat on the floor and looked at my arms. It's kinda weird to explain, but I got scared.. realised that I'm falling into this darkness again. A place I know all too well. Feeling alone, dirty, selfhate through the roof and a lot of shame. Some time ago I promised myself to do everything in my power to try to help, comfort and love myself.. not destroy and hate myself for what others have done to me. I have to keep going on this selfacceptance journey, and I feel so much support & love from you guys. Also, the EMDR therapist and psychiatrist are both great, so I better try and give them a fair chance to help me.
I had to reschedule or cancel the appointments I had with some of you for Project Impact, because the past two weeks were just fucking hard, but I hope to pick up the photographing soon. .
Within these last couple of weeks I have felt quite hopeless for many different reasons. I have tried to remain positive and ignore these issues, but it is always easier said than done. Today, I woke up and realized that instead of dodging these issues that have been eating me up inside, I need to face them. I need to be open to not only others, but with myself. One of my favorite quotes has always been “tough times don’t last — tough people do,” so although things have gotten a little bit confusing I refuse to let my mind make me lose the fight. So here is just a friendly reminder: express yourself, love yourself through difficult times, and don’t be scared to make a change. Sometimes a little self love is all you need. #mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#wellness#selflove#happiness#inspiration#bipolar#depression#keepfighting#dontgiveup#staystrong#recovery#itgetsbetter#tellyourstory
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