Missing this place, these views and this guy the most! I'm so lucky to have a dude who supports me throughout all my endeavors. Starting my own businesses has not been easy and I find myself at times questioning what the heck I'm doing and comparing myself to my friends who have secure office jobs. BUT this guy truly believes in me and builds me up everyday. Surround yourself with positive people who support you and your goals! It is said that the five people closest to you shape your success, your interests and much more about you. If your five people aren't representative of things you love and aspire to become, re-evaluate. #byefelicia ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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We had a fun weekend! Friday was our dinner to celebrate a milestone with our relationship. Great food, amazing service and the view was awesome! Do check out Top of Waikiki.
On Saturday, we checked out KCC farmer's market since it was her 1st Saturday off in a while and she been wanting to go.
Sunday we finally hiked Lulumahu Waterfalls trail. We couldn't go last weekend because it was raining too hard.
Doing cardio doesn't have to be boring. Hiking is a great form of cardio and it's good to see the outdoors. But if all you got is the treadmill then that's perfectly fine as well.
A question that I came across last night:
What is it that you are willing to sacrifice for whom it is you desire to be?
While I've been through drastic and important changes this year already (especially with negative feedback loops and the inner critic that no longer serve me), I know there are things I can and will sacrifice in order to bring about even more change and unleash my best, most highest-vibrational self.
Y'all already know my history and struggle with skin picking disorder, and while that oddly enough brings me peace in the moment, I know that it only hurts me over time. The face I show the world is not the fave I see on the inside. Knowing that I harm my body, this vessel that I do nothing but preach about taking care of, breaks my heart. I want to love my body, so why am I hurting it?
I'm also I'm willing to sacrifice sugar for my best self. Again, in the present moment, I get such joy out of eating sugar. I know, however, that's it's not a true joy. I've gone months without sugar and have felt completely fine, if not better. I want to nourish my body with health, so why am I feeding it garbage?
There are so many other things I'm willing to sacrifice (trashy YouTube videos, sypmathy-seeking behavioral patterns, etc.) that I won't go into detail with this post. These are two examples of things that I'm more than happy to "sacrifice" in order to bring about positive change. It's vital to go inwards and figure out my shit in relation to who I desire to become. Creating the life and self I desire, one sacrifice at a time!
Climb the mountains and get their good tidings. Nature's peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees. The winds will blow their own freshness into you, and the storms their energy, while cares will drop away from you like the leaves of Autumn.
Absolutely amazing Sunday, even the rough parts had great teaching moments. Went hiking and exploring with our crew and bumped into a incredibly cool nesting bird, a sea cucumber and some gnarly caves! The kids were just amazed by it all!
Got to do our part for earth day and pick up trash during the hike so that felt good!! After that we came home to some more of the usual overwhelming fighting and complete chaos in the house. Truly everything has totally been completely falling a part and I am definitely guilty of being too lazy to make any changes.
Had a huge blowout with Jesse and he called me an idiot to my face and I slapped him really hard in the back. Just a complete raged reaction. And I mean HARD! Our house has been full of yelling, name calling and just flat out craziness. The other day I found myself blowing up as well and I actually slapped Jaxon across the face after he told me to shut up in my face. It wasn’t hard but it didn’t have to be to do the damage and shock both of us. I’ve never done that to any of my kids. Ever!
After I hit Jesse I totally was fed up with my lack of parenting and drew a line. I have never let it get this bad before. My kids are usually really great kids and I definitely don’t just whack my kids out of rage. I usually have a pretty calm presence and all this yelling is just too much.
I created some house rules and and incentive chart. 25 stars and they get to choose what we do for an entire day on the weekend (within reason). After we sorted that all out we spent a couple hours all teamed up cleaning the house for a fresh week next week! And they worked hard! Ending the night feeling really excited for a fresh new week and hopefully a little more love and order to our home again ❤️ #parenting#progressionjunkie#sundayfunday#sunday#weekprep#parentabuse#incentive#positiveparenting#enoughisenough#notmyproudestmoment#singlemom#singlemomlife#tomorrowisanewday#tomorrowisanotherday#hike#kauai#hawaii#hawaiihikes#kauaihiking#momlife#3kids