what sweet relief it is, to let go of who you think you are, so that you may embrace what you are becoming.
it is so hard. in the heat. in the stickiness of the moment. in the shit. in the ego-noise-hamster-wheel. to ask yourself the simple question: what is more important? my identity? or love?
can you risk the person you love still thinking they’re right and you’re wrong? can you risk shutting up? can you risk not making your point? can you risk taking deeper breaths?
it is such a fxxxing challenge.
but it is so. much. harder. on yourself, your precious nervous system, your heart, your lungs, your loved ones. to remain rooted in ego.
ego weeds emerge from ego roots. love can only bloom from love.
(conversations with the tree part 2 🌳)
holy water eco retreat: june 30 - july 6. link in bio.
We most often regret the things we feel we have done to others that caused pain in some form... Yet the things we have done, said or allowed to be done to ourselves is often the most egregious! Changing this alone will lead us to a life we most want!
I witnessed two robberies and did what I felt was right in the face of great fear for myself but more so my loved ones. The consequences are intimidation and those who did these crimes I am so angry at and I have beat myself up for doing what I had to do because it put my loved ones at great risk & myself. I was protecting others and in return have unwittingly hurt myself. I think could I have just walked away and act like I did not see what I saw. I get angry that I couldn’t. I have punished myself along with the dangers posed. Why I could not just look away is not me. Hard to believe protecting others could cause such sick to my stomach drama. I had to stop 🛑 Stop beating myself up. It is done. Please be kind to yourselves as you would a dear loved one. I hope I learn quickly what I could have done maybe smarter yet just as effective or whatever this lesson is and move on. I just 🙏 #trials#lessons#lessonslearned#forgiveness#forgiveyourself#treatyourself#begood#to#you#crime#loveyourself#selfcare#healthylifestyle#liveandlearn#getbackup#standup#instamagic#zen#philosophy#sage#wisdom#wisdomoftheday#yoga
A central point of maintaining a healthy relationship with the Lord is prayer, however an issue many Christians struggle with today is how to go about doing so. Here, I provide verses Matthew 6: 9-13, which is if you do not know, Jesus's model prayer. As an exercise, I ask you to analyze this prayer; take a minute to break down what each verse is REALLY saying here in Jesus's prayer. The goal of this activity is to better understand the model of how to pray and how you yourself can structure your prayers. When you begin to grasp the concept of each verse, you can better understand the model in which Jesus provided so that you may pray more effectively (I do NOT mean this in a way where He hears you better) in the future. As you further your connection with God and apply what you have learned about prayer, speaking to the Lord becomes a desire, an outlet to worship, and a way to cry out, but most of all, the power of prayer will bring you ever more close and will build a strong relationship to the Father.
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What does it look like, to forgive yourself ?
Story Medicine (from my 4 year old) .. ..
So I ‘lost my mind’ about something. F.E.A.R -> false evidence appearing real. When it comes to my children’s safety, experiences I’ve had sometimes still sing from my cells. Trauma, we all have them.
Me: I apologize for yelling my love, I’m so sorry.
Him: it’s okay mama. But can you say sorry now to yourself ?
.... I did, yet turns out it took a moment longer to forgive. To forgive my fallible humanness, to surrender the fear, the shame and stay childlike and open to the current of love. #process
.... What does it look like, to forgive yourself ?
I ask YOU. This is an important question. Perhaps THE most.
Forgive yourself the vulnerability and insecurity of being not enough. Relinquish.
Who, what, where is your safe space ?
Another important question.
Inquire and perspire on it if you must.
And then be brave and let that shit go.
Again and again.
I love you, you are love !
This time lapse; June 2017 ❤️
People who’ve stabbed you want to forever see you bleed. They want you to be bitter. They want your life to stop moving and get stuck in the past. It’s sad isn’t it?
But what’s even more sad is that they’re are actually and only at war with THEMSELVES. You’re not the problem, they are. They are stuck in a prison cell of DELUSION. .
You on your side is FREE to develop your gifts, they’re not. They’re jealous of you because you’re everything they’re not and will never be. Like how are you still standing after everything they’ve made you go through? you were supposed to be DESTROYED why aren’t you destroyed? Why and how can you be happy if they’re not in the picture? How are you able to breathe without them? They were supposed to be the end of your world remember?🙄 .
But you’re here on your way to have a RESTORED life ( if that hasn’t happened yet). You’ll do great, I promise. Start by FORGIVING yourself for what you didn’t know before you LEARNED it. Then keep giving yourself more chances; meet new people who care about you with an SINCERE heart; they’ll make you realize that you’re great and worth loving. They’ll treat you like you SHOULD be treated. Cause honestly you’re wonderful and sometimes all you truly need is to be reminded of it regularly by people who care about how you feel. Change your CIRCLE, change your LIFE!