sending out these positive bees because i know some of my friends need some support and cheering up so like 🐝🐝🐝also i love all my friends i can't believe they are so great💓i had a challenge food today delievered by my dear friend @dabbyconstantinople whom i love so much💕and hershey kisses are so good and the note made it even better🌸#challengefood#eatittobeatit#kickinganorexiasass#edrecovery
— um so freaking yum.
this week has been such a good week so far! i have 10 days of high school left, my parents are on vacay, and ive asked and received so many more hours at work. also, a family friend wants to talk with me about renting their apartment from them- which would mean i would be MOVING OUT. (not far, but i would have my OWN HOUSE) so that’s very exciting. im praying it all works out. and the foodage has been great so far. ive actually been COOKING dinner lol. perks of my parents being away, i guess? also my siblings and i have actually been getting to school on time. my parents are truly great and i love them, just very stressed people. i must admit it’s so relaxing around here right now lol.
anywho, i hope your weeks continue getting better and better as the days go on. keep fighting it with everything you’ve got.☀️
Today I had my Boston children’s apt it went well!!! I’ve managed to stay at my healthy weight for the past 6 weeks with minor fluctuations❤️ today was also a big day in recovery because I went to clover,which was a restaurant I had a HUGE breakdown in when I was at resi and refused to eat because the calories were on the menu but today I was in the area and I decided all on my own to go back to clover and order the exact same sandwich and I finished it all plus having some fries!!! I feel amazing a few months ago I never pictured myself out of resi eating the same sandwich that cuase a panic attack peacefully along with fries after having a good apt🍏 I got to visit my old residential today to, to get my old jacket and I got to see @recovering.for.kate ❤️ I’m so proud of her for staying strong, I also got to see my favorite nutritionist megan😂 RECOVERY is possible even if it feels impossible it’s not you just have to keep making choices that encourage recover whenever you have the chance🤙 love yo’self bc your body doesn’t determine your self worth y’all are amazing 🤩🤩 #cloverrestaurant#anorexianervosa#edrecovery#eatingbalanced#eatingdisorder#eatittobeatit#recovering#foodisfeul#fuelyourbody#foodisnourishment#boston#cedc#anasucks#fightthethoughts#anorexiaisserious#fightthethoughts
What did the cheese day when it looked in the mirror?... Halloumi! 😅
Probably used that in one of the other 200+ posts by now, one's cheese joke repertoire is small and overused. If you tell me a cheese joke I haven't heard I will personally send you a large block of Wensleydale. 🧀
Regardless of what I do my stomach is determined to sabotage. It's like 'nah lunch at lunchtime wtf you on?' Sometimes listening to your body isn't the best idea when it's still catching up on the whole idea of eating properly 😙
Dinner tonight was chicken hot pot 🍗 😍 has a good afternoon and kept myself busy to distract myself from worrying about exams and food 😌👍🏻 just remember guys, there will come a time when this will be behind you, and it may seem impossible right now, but each step you take is a foot in the right direction, a step away from a life of misery and a step towards actually living 💗 sleep well ❤️
Needed some color on this grey, rainy day.... therefore, say hello to this delicious Matcha Smoothie Bowl! If you wanna make it here’s the recipe!
1 tablespoon of matcha
1 scoop vanilla protein powder
1/2 cup of coconut or Greek yogurt
1/2 cup of almond milk
1 tablespoon of honey
6 ice cubes
What ever toppings you want! What’s your favorite smoothie recipe? Let me know in the comments 👇👇
Bae admiring himself in the mirror 😂 if only it was this easy! I see my team for the first time in 6 weeks on Thursday and am so anxious about it. We agreed at that time to let me go rogue (ha) since I am pretty stable. I didnt get quite to the weight they recommended at that time, but my weight was healthy. I get SO damn anxious about being weighed and am dreading Thursday. I feel certain I didnt lose, which is good- they'll be happy about that and it proves I'm capable of less frequent appointments. I am terrified that I've gained. Realistically it may even be a good/healthy thing to have gained a weeee bit, but the idea makes me feel sick. It makes me fearful that my eating and appetites cannot be trusted and I'll just keep gaining with less frequent appointments. The truth is that no matter what my life is still my life, regardless of what happens with the scale. I still have the people I love, things to look forward to, and experiences to be had. That's what really matters. The summer days ahead with the people I care about matter more than a 5-10 lb weight fluctuation. #eatingdisorderrecovery#edrecovery#edwarrior#edwarriors#edfam#anorexiarecovery#anarecovery#2fab4ana#recovery#adultswitheatingdisorders#eatingdisordertreatment#eatittobeatit
Sunshine - please stay forever. I ALWAYS feel so much more motivated with whatever I'm doing when the weather's nice. I managed over 27k yesterday & 35k today from doing my workout in the garden and some extra long walks ☀️ I just don't want the crappy rain or cold to come back! It's also been hard to stick to my usual gym routine the past week or so as I've had some extra parent duties to attend too, so I've been using my gym at home a little more (Sunday I managed a heavy weight lower bod workout at the gym). I'm also trying to do more running outside rather than at the gym as the hills around by me make it harder - plus I've seen how far I've come since last summer which has made me more even more motivated .. AND I've also started doing a body pump class on a Wednesday after work which I'm also thoroughly enjoying. So at the mo my current workout routine is 2 lower bod days, 1 upper bod, 1 bodypump session a week (full bod) & 3-4 x runs a week (focusing on endurance a little more over hiit at the mo) I'm also still aiming for over 20k steps a day too 😁 so yeah - even though my routine is a little out of sync at the mo, I'm still getting my steps in and doing as much gym sessions as I can ❤🏋️♀️💪 Happy Tuesdaaaaaay
What a weekend! It’s been a bit of a whirlwind and I feel like I’ve only just now recovered (and it’s Tuesday 😅). On Saturday I graduated from college with my bachelors of science in Biochemistry 👩🏻🎓🤓 and it rained the whole time. My white wedges got totally ruined because we had to walk across the muddy lawn, and the ceremony was outside so we just sat in the rain for two hours. It was great 🙄 I was on the go for most of the day at departmental events and such, so thank God for yummy @larabar snacks to keep me awake on zero sleep. @ems_balanced_life recommended the PB cookie Larabar to me so I grabbed it and the PB chocolate chip (...don’t need to explain that one...) and whoa. BLISS 😭 It tastes like Pb cookie dough, and the PB chocolate chip one is even better! I will admit that having two Larabars in one day freaked me out initially (“too much sugar! You’ll crash and feel horrible! You’ll have insatiable cravings! You won’t get full! You’re wasting your calories!”) but honestly these days I’m so over the whole “justification” thing for eating. If it’s what I have available, I’m hungry, and it tastes good, what other reason is necessary? I don’t need to “balance” my macros. I don’t need to “limit my sugar intake” or “watch my grams of fat”. I’m sick and tired of a lifetime of overanalyzing ever darn minute detail of a nutrition label and ingredient list. I see people eat whatever they want and not ever mention or think about the macros or ingredients of their foods, and it makes me so envious of the freedom and mental space they have available for other things. I want that too, and it will only come by telling ED and diet culture to shut up while doing what works for MY body and MY mind.
Anywhooooo sorry for the mini rant but that’s what has been on my heart lately. Hope y’all are having a terrific Tuesday 💖
Hey 💜 Today was good! School was okay and after school I had psychologist which was really nice. Then I worked for school. I also made up with a friend and now we’re good 😊 In the evening I watched the sunset 🌞and I’m feeling so calm rn ☺️ AND also this: From now on I’m going to post every other day, since I dont really find these posts interesting all the time. I’ll probably post more on my story ✨
- Breakfast: 4 slices of bread with dark choc 🍫, marmelade and Nutella
- MS: an Apple and a Nakd bar
- Lunch: 4 slices of bread with salami and chicken 🐔curry + an orange 🍊
- AS: a raisin roll 😍
- Dinner: a hamburger with chicken🐔, cheese 🧀 & tomatos 🍅+ extra 1/4 of a bun - NS: mnm’s and blueberries
Goodnight and stay strong 💙✨
Breaking the fast with an Egg wrap!! It’s super duper cold at the moment! It makes it look really pretty and the sunrise on the mountains is so cool because it shines pink and purple coz of the snow!! 👍🏽
Appreciate the little things in life, like a warm house, view of mountains, cuddly pets!
I have some more gemstones arriving soon and then my collection will be over 150 and I’m so excited!!!
today i had a school visit to this new school with one staff from the ward. which i may be going to when im discharged. .
as we were getting out of the taxi on the way back i just ran for it. i made it down the road before i i was brought back. so scared I won’t have leave this weekend again ..
ive had enough of being here. i just want to go home.
My mom bought me an almond milk chai latte while we're out today. Been busy with appointments and stuff, but the weather is lovely and I got some books from the library. Now I'm on my way over to my mom's so I can help clean out my old room. So it's a busy day.
I got to see E last night though which was so lovely. I missed him so much. I get to see him again on the weekend and he's gonna meet my family.. I'm nervous for it..
Кроме того чтобы искать счастье под каждым кустом, я иногда фотографирую лица. И собираю в отдельную папочку любимые. Честно признаюсь в формате репортаж, фотографировать празднующих(выпивающих) людей, я целюсь в три любимые категории: дети, афроамериканцы, влюбленные.
И те и другие очень откликаются на реальность.
Никакого замаха на фотографическое искусство, просто лица.