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Messagss, 20 minutes later:
‘Slut’
‘Nice 😍😘’
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Another PSA for you: my body does not exist as an object of attraction. BREASTS ARE NOT SEX ORGANS. My breasts do not exist for men, but for me to raise children if I so chose. They exist for ME and MY choice to nourish a child and MY choice to let the sun kiss them and MY choice to wear low-cut tops or undone tops or no top at all.
If my breasts raise a daughter, I hope she’s born into a world where the instagram ‘request’ box isn’t some terrible duskland that makes her spine crawl.
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#recovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anorexia #ptsd #ed #trauma #recoveryisworthit #bipolar #survivor #bipolar1 #recoveryispossible #realrecovery #prorecovery #recovering #runner #running #eatingdisorder #recover #eatingdisorderrecovery #dissociation #exerciseaddiction #cptsd #nature #mentalhealthawareness
Messagss, 20 minutes later: ‘Slut’ ‘Nice 😍😘’ ‘🍆’ Another PSA for you: my body does not exist as an object of attraction. BREASTS ARE NOT SEX ORGANS. My breasts do not exist for men, but for me to raise children if I so chose. They exist for ME and MY choice to nourish a child and MY choice to let the sun kiss them and MY choice to wear low-cut tops or undone tops or no top at all. If my breasts raise a daughter, I hope she’s born into a world where the instagram ‘request’ box isn’t some terrible duskland that makes her spine crawl. - - - #recovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #ptsd  #ed  #trauma  #recoveryisworthit  #bipolar  #survivor  #bipolar1  #recoveryispossible  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #recovering  #runner  #running  #eatingdisorder  #recover  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #dissociation  #exerciseaddiction  #cptsd  #nature  #mentalhealthawareness 
In light of summer slut shaming, here’s a little PSA from me & my wonky boobs: Feminism that tells you what to do with your body? That shit ain’t feminism.
I like shaving my legs, but not in winter because they keep me warmer. I hate wearing bras because they feel like a boob cage. I hate doing my hair, but quite like wearing makeup. I love getting my tits out because the sun feels nice on my skin.
What I love most? Doing whatever I like with my body.
Don’t let any female tell you what makes you an acceptable woman. We have enough of that shit from men.
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recovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anorexia #ptsd #ed #trauma #recoveryisworthit #bipolar #survivor #bipolar1 #recoveryispossible #realrecovery #prorecovery #recovering #runner #running #eatingdisorder #recover #eatingdisorderrecovery #dissociation #exerciseaddiction #cptsd #nature #mentalhealthawareness
In light of summer slut shaming, here’s a little PSA from me & my wonky boobs: Feminism that tells you what to do with your body? That shit ain’t feminism. I like shaving my legs, but not in winter because they keep me warmer. I hate wearing bras because they feel like a boob cage. I hate doing my hair, but quite like wearing makeup. I love getting my tits out because the sun feels nice on my skin. What I love most? Doing whatever I like with my body. Don’t let any female tell you what makes you an acceptable woman. We have enough of that shit from men. - - - recovery #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #anorexiarecovery  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #ptsd  #ed  #trauma  #recoveryisworthit  #bipolar  #survivor  #bipolar1  #recoveryispossible  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #recovering  #runner  #running  #eatingdisorder  #recover  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #dissociation  #exerciseaddiction  #cptsd  #nature  #mentalhealthawareness 
#depersonalization #dpdr 
#Repost @anxietysupport.info
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Its a coping mechanism to protect you 💛
Tips:
1.Do the things that make you feel the most alive 
2.Become aware of your surroundings
3.Start a conversation with someone you feel safe with
3.Describe the feeling to someone ,they might have a similiar experience to share
4.Accept it and understand the process . 
Healing is not linear 〰️
Written by S
#dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #notreal #copingmechanism #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #anxiety #safe #mind #body #live
#depersonalization  #dpdr  #Repost  @anxietysupport.info ・・・ Its a coping mechanism to protect you 💛 Tips: 1.Do the things that make you feel the most alive 2.Become aware of your surroundings 3.Start a conversation with someone you feel safe with 3.Describe the feeling to someone ,they might have a similiar experience to share 4.Accept it and understand the process . Healing is not linear 〰️ Written by S #dissociation  #depersonalization  #derealization  #notreal  #copingmechanism  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #safe  #mind  #body  #live 
Currently me...I’ve had such a mixed day with my mood. I have therapy again tomorrow which I’ve been looking forward to since last session ended. It seems I can’t ever get enough therapy. Probably because of how much of a mess I am. Anyways, my face feels like it’s in a permanent angry state. My muscles are are completely clenched to the point that I cannot open my mouth to speak because of how tight my jaw is clenched. This is honestly preferred though because I have a difficult time interacting with people and communicating when I’m in a depressive wave. Everything makes me so irritable and I sometimes lash out at others for small things. The best thing is to stay inside my body and just do my best to function with the rest of society. This doesn’t always work though because of that alone time being a reason to listen to your thoughts and start believing them. I’m just managing, which is okay, but my ultimate goal is to thrive. I don’t want to be like this forever. I want to be able to articulate my feelings and actually feel better. So, as of now, I really don’t know how I feel because I can’t just isolate one emotion. There’s way too many things to deal with and feelings that are building off of each other. Are you in the same boat of being overwhelmed with emotions? I’m doing the only thing I can do, wait till this depressive episode passes so I can go back to interpreting  how I feel and it not being so difficult. -
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#depression #depressed #anxiety #anxious #panicattacks #anxietyattacks #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #selflove #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealth #livingwithmentalillness #selfharmrecovery #depressionrecovery #anxietyrecovery #recovery #recoveryishard #ptsd #dissociation #cptsd #posttraumaticstressdisorder #endthestigma #iwillrecover
Currently me...I’ve had such a mixed day with my mood. I have therapy again tomorrow which I’ve been looking forward to since last session ended. It seems I can’t ever get enough therapy. Probably because of how much of a mess I am. Anyways, my face feels like it’s in a permanent angry state. My muscles are are completely clenched to the point that I cannot open my mouth to speak because of how tight my jaw is clenched. This is honestly preferred though because I have a difficult time interacting with people and communicating when I’m in a depressive wave. Everything makes me so irritable and I sometimes lash out at others for small things. The best thing is to stay inside my body and just do my best to function with the rest of society. This doesn’t always work though because of that alone time being a reason to listen to your thoughts and start believing them. I’m just managing, which is okay, but my ultimate goal is to thrive. I don’t want to be like this forever. I want to be able to articulate my feelings and actually feel better. So, as of now, I really don’t know how I feel because I can’t just isolate one emotion. There’s way too many things to deal with and feelings that are building off of each other. Are you in the same boat of being overwhelmed with emotions? I’m doing the only thing I can do, wait till this depressive episode passes so I can go back to interpreting how I feel and it not being so difficult. - - - - #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #panicattacks  #anxietyattacks  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #selflove  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealth  #livingwithmentalillness  #selfharmrecovery  #depressionrecovery  #anxietyrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryishard  #ptsd  #dissociation  #cptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #endthestigma  #iwillrecover 
Big Salad ™️
no one gets seinfeld references anymore :(
lol D made pancakes
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baby spinach • cucumber • @lovebeets • avo • peas • extra firm tofu • black pepper • @bragglivefoods acv
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tbh idk which was better tonight;
leaving toy story 3 on the tv on mute
while listening to childish gambino
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watching the thunderstorm roll out over the harbor (so much lightning wow the best)
while restarting arrested development season four (bc season five is coming omg)
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my head is so full rn :))))) whY
also really need to stop isolating
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#adultswitheds #adultswitheatingdisorders #edfamily #edfam #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdrecovery #exerciseaddiction #orthorexia #depression #anxiety #dissociation #oppositeaction #recoverywin #feelthefearanddoitanyway #norestrictingnoexcuses #eatittobeatit  #progressnotperfection #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #noslackingonsnacking
Big Salad ™️ no one gets seinfeld references anymore :( lol D made pancakes . baby spinach • cucumber • @lovebeets • avo • peas • extra firm tofu • black pepper • @bragglivefoods acv . tbh idk which was better tonight; leaving toy story 3 on the tv on mute while listening to childish gambino or watching the thunderstorm roll out over the harbor (so much lightning wow the best) while restarting arrested development season four (bc season five is coming omg) . . . my head is so full rn :))))) whY also really need to stop isolating . . . . . #adultswitheds  #adultswitheatingdisorders  #edfamily  #edfam  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #bpdrecovery  #exerciseaddiction  #orthorexia  #depression  #anxiety  #dissociation  #oppositeaction  #recoverywin  #feelthefearanddoitanyway  #norestrictingnoexcuses  #eatittobeatit  #progressnotperfection  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #noslackingonsnacking 
TY evenings on the deck after work
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TY relaxing after a v V busy day
TY time w big & little best friends 👨🏻🐕
TY for wanting to sit across from me bc i look nice
TY MJ
TY hookah
TY favorite music [dinosaur jr.]
TY favorite iced coffee
TY summer sun
TY bright warm evenings
TY beautiful sunsets
TY i missed you v much
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#gratitudeseries /7
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#adultswitheds #adultswitheatingdisorders #edfamily #edfam #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpd #bpdrecovery #exerciseaddiction #orthorexia #depression #anxiety #dissociation #oppositeaction #feelthefearanddoitanyway #norestrictingnoexcuses #progressnotperfection #realrecovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #gratitude #mindful #mindfulness
TY evenings on the deck after work . TY relaxing after a v V busy day TY time w big & little best friends 👨🏻🐕 TY for wanting to sit across from me bc i look nice TY MJ TY hookah TY favorite music [dinosaur jr.] TY favorite iced coffee TY summer sun TY bright warm evenings TY beautiful sunsets TY i missed you v much . #gratitudeseries  /7 . . . . . #adultswitheds  #adultswitheatingdisorders  #edfamily  #edfam  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #bpdrecovery  #exerciseaddiction  #orthorexia  #depression  #anxiety  #dissociation  #oppositeaction  #feelthefearanddoitanyway  #norestrictingnoexcuses  #progressnotperfection  #realrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #gratitude  #mindful  #mindfulness 
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This really isn’t okay @jennycraigofficial. I have never had a service dog issue like this before and I have taken him basically everywhere 
#jennycraig #psd #servicedog #sdissues #anxiety #panicattacks #breakdown #dissociation #caretaker #mamasboy #sleepypup #maltipoo #maltese #poodle  #phantomsilver #silverpoodle #fluffball #goodboy #workingdog
Self care isn’t always cute and glamorous. Sometimes it really is just managing to eat breakfast or trying to cope in a healthy way instead of turning to self-harm. It looks different for everyone🌸
Self care isn’t always cute and glamorous. Sometimes it really is just managing to eat breakfast or trying to cope in a healthy way instead of turning to self-harm. It looks different for everyone🌸
@lvndrmoon // “I‘m Jana, 23 years old and from Germany. I‘m suffering from a mental illness for about 10 years now. I got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and I still struggle with my emotions. I started to build up a system of different personality traits in my mind to cope with everything because sometimes it‘s just exhausting. Sure my happy times are extremely happy but same goes for bad times. I was suicidal and fought with self harm but I overcame these. I know I will have to live with BPD the rest of my life. But that‘s okay because it opens up my mind. For me it‘s important to accept having a mental illness so you can start working on yourself, that is key! I learned a lot about me and life in the last years and I appreciate it so much. You don‘t need to fight the battle alone, it‘s so strong to be able to reach out for help and I hope you‘ll do that when you really need it. That’s what I did and I have to say that it really saved my life. I got medication when I was 18 and I still do. Also getting my cat and dog in 2016/2017 was an important thing. I wouldn’t be able to leave them alone, I wanna stay strong for them because they’re so worth it. It’s not wrong to keep fighting for something or someone. Every reason is great. So stay strong and keep fighting, you owe it to you and I know you‘ll make it! 💖”
@lvndrmoon // “I‘m Jana, 23 years old and from Germany. I‘m suffering from a mental illness for about 10 years now. I got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and I still struggle with my emotions. I started to build up a system of different personality traits in my mind to cope with everything because sometimes it‘s just exhausting. Sure my happy times are extremely happy but same goes for bad times. I was suicidal and fought with self harm but I overcame these. I know I will have to live with BPD the rest of my life. But that‘s okay because it opens up my mind. For me it‘s important to accept having a mental illness so you can start working on yourself, that is key! I learned a lot about me and life in the last years and I appreciate it so much. You don‘t need to fight the battle alone, it‘s so strong to be able to reach out for help and I hope you‘ll do that when you really need it. That’s what I did and I have to say that it really saved my life. I got medication when I was 18 and I still do. Also getting my cat and dog in 2016/2017 was an important thing. I wouldn’t be able to leave them alone, I wanna stay strong for them because they’re so worth it. It’s not wrong to keep fighting for something or someone. Every reason is great. So stay strong and keep fighting, you owe it to you and I know you‘ll make it! 💖”
art by the incredibly talented @florencegiven // Focus on your recovery, your health, your future, your education, your career, and everything that benefits you in a positive way. Be so committed to loving yourself and your goals that you become untouchable 💫
art by the incredibly talented @florencegiven // Focus on your recovery, your health, your future, your education, your career, and everything that benefits you in a positive way. Be so committed to loving yourself and your goals that you become untouchable 💫
This is exactly what depersonalization derealization is like for me. I feel like I'm observing myself and like I'm looking through a screen. I made a #youtube #video about this a while back. .
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#depersonalization #dpdr #ddpd #dissociation #cptsd #cptsdawareness #complexptsd #complextrauma #childhoodtrauma #cptsdsymptoms
Heute Nacht mal bei meinen Eltern. Morgen dann mit einer guten Freundin unterwegs. Darauf freu ich mich schon! 
Mir geht es immer noch nicht wirklich besser. Innerlich sehr unruhig. Weiß nicht was richtig und was falsch ist. Was gut oder schlecht ist. Überfordert mit der Gesamtsituation. Dabei versucht man nur alles gut zu machen. Man möchte niemanden verletzen auch wenn man sich dabei selbst verletzt. Es tut mir so leid! 
#mentalillness #struggle #intensive #anorexia #selfharrm #anxiety #depressed #ptbs #panicattacks #bpd #borderline #grenzgänger #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #staystrong #dissociation #blackwhite #eatingdisorder #recovery #thoughts #feelings #recoveryisworthit #home #family #familytime #familygoals #sad #desperately
Heute Nacht mal bei meinen Eltern. Morgen dann mit einer guten Freundin unterwegs. Darauf freu ich mich schon! Mir geht es immer noch nicht wirklich besser. Innerlich sehr unruhig. Weiß nicht was richtig und was falsch ist. Was gut oder schlecht ist. Überfordert mit der Gesamtsituation. Dabei versucht man nur alles gut zu machen. Man möchte niemanden verletzen auch wenn man sich dabei selbst verletzt. Es tut mir so leid! #mentalillness  #struggle  #intensive  #anorexia  #selfharrm  #anxiety  #depressed  #ptbs  #panicattacks  #bpd  #borderline  #grenzgänger  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #staystrong  #dissociation  #blackwhite  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #thoughts  #feelings  #recoveryisworthit  #home  #family  #familytime  #familygoals  #sad  #desperately 
I guess the drawing speaks for itself. I’m feeling more frightened and helpless by the day. Mainly, I realised since I talked to two friends about this, is because my mentor isn’t helpful to me. He triggers me, setting me back and I feel like I felt throughout my teenaged years. Desperate to make him understand his help isn’t helping me. I’m going to call my therapist tomorrow instead of waiting for my appointment Friday. I can’t do this shit anymore. I need different help and a different mentor. She talked to him and he still doesn’t get it. Fuck all of this shit, I was done explaining myself over and over and here I am doing the exact same thing I did up until I went in to therapy. I don’t want to go back to being that girl. #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #ptsdawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillnessawareness #dissociation #dissociative #persistentdepressivedisorder #socialanxietydisorder #mentalhealthart #mentalhealthartist #chibi #chibidrawing #chibicartoon #manga #drawing #dailythoughts #dailythought #mangadrawing #cartoon #comic #dailycomic #dailycartoon #sketch #Fabercastell
I guess the drawing speaks for itself. I’m feeling more frightened and helpless by the day. Mainly, I realised since I talked to two friends about this, is because my mentor isn’t helpful to me. He triggers me, setting me back and I feel like I felt throughout my teenaged years. Desperate to make him understand his help isn’t helping me. I’m going to call my therapist tomorrow instead of waiting for my appointment Friday. I can’t do this shit anymore. I need different help and a different mentor. She talked to him and he still doesn’t get it. Fuck all of this shit, I was done explaining myself over and over and here I am doing the exact same thing I did up until I went in to therapy. I don’t want to go back to being that girl. #ptsd  #ptsdrecovery  #ptsdawareness  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillnessawareness  #dissociation  #dissociative  #persistentdepressivedisorder  #socialanxietydisorder  #mentalhealthart  #mentalhealthartist  #chibi  #chibidrawing  #chibicartoon  #manga  #drawing  #dailythoughts  #dailythought  #mangadrawing  #cartoon  #comic  #dailycomic  #dailycartoon  #sketch  #Fabercastell 
Jaha, och när ska man orka ta tag i detta? Men en anmälan behöver göras. Läkare får inte behandla patienter hur som helst. -

Vad hade jag gjort om inte @e_josefine talade med mig i telefon och @smedjan10 kom och hämtade mig där jag satt på en trottoar, oförmögen att röra på mig?
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Har tappat all tillit till läkare. Kan inte lita på någon.  #läkare #felbehandlad #patientnämnden #gällivarepsykiatri #nollrespekt #dissociation #ingentillit
Jaha, och när ska man orka ta tag i detta? Men en anmälan behöver göras. Läkare får inte behandla patienter hur som helst. - Vad hade jag gjort om inte @e_josefine talade med mig i telefon och @smedjan10 kom och hämtade mig där jag satt på en trottoar, oförmögen att röra på mig? Chock. Smärta. Ilska och sedan dissocierad. - Har tappat all tillit till läkare. Kan inte lita på någon. #läkare  #felbehandlad  #patientnämnden  #gällivarepsykiatri  #nollrespekt  #dissociation  #ingentillit 
Derealization - feeling detached from one's surroundings. .
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#derealization #dpdr #ddpd #dissociation #cptsd #complexptsd #complextrauma #childhoodtrauma #childabuse #cptsdawareness
Dissociation 🍀💔👽
Dissociation 🍀💔👽
The recovery road is never linear in the mental illness world 😳. So I’m in a great phase, came out of a depressive spell a few weeks ago and I have managed to contain and avoid the mania period that usually follows by being proactive and taking care of my body and being attentive to my behaviours. Yet here I am huddled under my 8kg weighted blanked in order to feel real in my body again, desperately sniffing essential oils to snap myself out of dissociation and controlling my breathing through the rhythmic reading of poetry. Even though you may not be working on anything specifically triggering in a therapy session, sometimes it hits you by surprise, the nature of opening up and talking about your inner most demons means that occasionally you will come across a connection you were not anticipating. In my case a connection between one of my OCD compulsions and a past trauma. I made it out of the session without a full on melt down, only because my therapist knows me so well she can catch dissociation and bring me back before it really takes hold. I get a little quiet, flat affect takes ahold of my face, and my breathing shallows. The world and my body are beginning to not feel real. I thought I was ok. We would talk about this next week or maybe through email before my next session if it’s really getting to me. But no, i was not ok. I pop into Tesco on my way home, feel a little on edge but nothing major. Next thing I know I must have been staring at the yogurts for a long enough time for a member of staff to tap me on the shoulder and ask if I needed to sit down. I felt like I was going to faint, like I was floating looking at myself and that my body wasn’t real. I had lost time in a dissociative state something that hasn’t happened in public for at least a year and a half. I was grateful for the concern however I think this really highlights to me how everyone could benefit from the knowledge sufferers learn in therapy such as how to ground someone when they are dissociating or panicking. Mental first aid is so important and I think classes should be mandatory in schools. #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #mentalhealthrecovery #anxiety #dissociation #stigmafighter
The recovery road is never linear in the mental illness world 😳. So I’m in a great phase, came out of a depressive spell a few weeks ago and I have managed to contain and avoid the mania period that usually follows by being proactive and taking care of my body and being attentive to my behaviours. Yet here I am huddled under my 8kg weighted blanked in order to feel real in my body again, desperately sniffing essential oils to snap myself out of dissociation and controlling my breathing through the rhythmic reading of poetry. Even though you may not be working on anything specifically triggering in a therapy session, sometimes it hits you by surprise, the nature of opening up and talking about your inner most demons means that occasionally you will come across a connection you were not anticipating. In my case a connection between one of my OCD compulsions and a past trauma. I made it out of the session without a full on melt down, only because my therapist knows me so well she can catch dissociation and bring me back before it really takes hold. I get a little quiet, flat affect takes ahold of my face, and my breathing shallows. The world and my body are beginning to not feel real. I thought I was ok. We would talk about this next week or maybe through email before my next session if it’s really getting to me. But no, i was not ok. I pop into Tesco on my way home, feel a little on edge but nothing major. Next thing I know I must have been staring at the yogurts for a long enough time for a member of staff to tap me on the shoulder and ask if I needed to sit down. I felt like I was going to faint, like I was floating looking at myself and that my body wasn’t real. I had lost time in a dissociative state something that hasn’t happened in public for at least a year and a half. I was grateful for the concern however I think this really highlights to me how everyone could benefit from the knowledge sufferers learn in therapy such as how to ground someone when they are dissociating or panicking. Mental first aid is so important and I think classes should be mandatory in schools. #mentalhealth  #mentalwellness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #anxiety  #dissociation  #stigmafighter 
How do I know if I'm dissociating? I also am not able to reply to comments on my videos or social media. I know it's because I am dissociating. Not trying to be rude. I just....can't. .
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#dissociation #cptsd #cptsdawareness #cptsdrecovery #complexptsd #complextrauma #childhoodtrauma #traumaresponse #emotionalflashback #howideal #mentalhealthawareness #KeepTalkingMH
This is probably my favourite book about compassion and training in compassion meditation techniques. Thupten combines science, stories from his own life as a former buddhist monk and now academic, and his work as one of the creators of the Compassion Cultivation Training course at Stanford University. The meditations in the book are all secularised versions of buddhist meditations, many of which use visualisation. They're simple but very effective ways of cultivating a sense of compassion and kindness towards yourself and others. I've put some quotes from the book in my Stories feed as well as one of the meditations, and will add them to the Highlights section on my profile. I can't recommend this book enough in terms of helping cope with illness and pain and life in general. I've owned it for a few years now and it's been a constant source of inspiration and a great reference for compassion knowledge. It's going for just under £7 on Amazon right now which I think is a bargain.
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I've been struggling with dissociation and panic today, which is such a lovely combination... not. Reading and writing have helped to distract me and I'm very grateful for them. One day I hope I will heal from these illnesses but for now I'm doing the best I can with a difficult situation. There are still many worthwhile things I can and am trying to do while I'm limited by them. Everyone can make an impact in their own small way.

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#mentalhealth#mentalhealthmatters#mentalhealthawareness#mentalillness#mentalillnessawareness#gad#anxiety#anxietydisorder#anxietyattack#panic#panicdisorder#panicattack#dissociation#ptsd#cptsd#agoraphobia#healing#wellbeing#wellness#compassion#metta#selfcompassion#lovingkindness#meditation#tonglen#book#bookworm
This is probably my favourite book about compassion and training in compassion meditation techniques. Thupten combines science, stories from his own life as a former buddhist monk and now academic, and his work as one of the creators of the Compassion Cultivation Training course at Stanford University. The meditations in the book are all secularised versions of buddhist meditations, many of which use visualisation. They're simple but very effective ways of cultivating a sense of compassion and kindness towards yourself and others. I've put some quotes from the book in my Stories feed as well as one of the meditations, and will add them to the Highlights section on my profile. I can't recommend this book enough in terms of helping cope with illness and pain and life in general. I've owned it for a few years now and it's been a constant source of inspiration and a great reference for compassion knowledge. It's going for just under £7 on Amazon right now which I think is a bargain. _ I've been struggling with dissociation and panic today, which is such a lovely combination... not. Reading and writing have helped to distract me and I'm very grateful for them. One day I hope I will heal from these illnesses but for now I'm doing the best I can with a difficult situation. There are still many worthwhile things I can and am trying to do while I'm limited by them. Everyone can make an impact in their own small way. _ _ _ #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalillnessawareness #gad #anxiety #anxietydisorder #anxietyattack #panic #panicdisorder #panicattack #dissociation #ptsd #cptsd #agoraphobia #healing #wellbeing #wellness #compassion #metta #selfcompassion #lovingkindness #meditation #tonglen #book #bookworm 
Trauma emocional infantil y la perpetración de acoso cibernético entre adultos emergentes: un modelo de mediación múltiple del papel del uso problemático de las redes sociales y la psicopatología

La investigación sugiere que una pequeña minoría de usuarios de redes sociales experimentan problemas como resultado de su uso en línea. El propósito del presente estudio fue examinar la asociación de la perpetración ciberacoso y el uso problemático de las redes sociales con el trauma emocional infantil, los rasgos de personalidad del grupo B (narcisista, histriónico, antisocial y límite), las experiencias disociativas (DE), la depresión y el autodominio estima en una muestra de estudiantes no clínicos. Un total de 344 estudiantes universitarios se ofrecieron como voluntarios para completar un cuestionario que incluía medidas sobre las dimensiones antes mencionadas. Treinta y ocho por ciento de los participantes tuvieron negligencia emocional y 27% tuvieron abuso emocional, mientras que el 44% de ellos demostraron al menos un comportamiento de perpetración ciberacoso. Los resultados indicaron que los perpetradores de acoso cibernético obtuvieron puntuaciones más altas en el uso problemático de las redes sociales, las experiencias disociativas, los rasgos del grupo B, la depresión y los traumas emocionales infantiles, y una menor autoestima. El análisis de la ruta demostró que, mientras se ajustaba por sexo y edad, el trauma emocional infantil se asociaba directa e indirectamente con la perpetración de acoso cibernético a través de los rasgos del Grupo B. Además, la depresión y la disociación se asociaron directamente con el uso problemático de las redes sociales. Los hallazgos de este estudio enfatizan el importante papel directo del trauma emocional infantil y los rasgos patológicos de la personalidad en la perpetración de acoso cibernético.  #Ciberbullying #problemático  #Redessociales #socialmedia #TraumaInfantil #Personality #Dissociation #Depression
Trauma emocional infantil y la perpetración de acoso cibernético entre adultos emergentes: un modelo de mediación múltiple del papel del uso problemático de las redes sociales y la psicopatología La investigación sugiere que una pequeña minoría de usuarios de redes sociales experimentan problemas como resultado de su uso en línea. El propósito del presente estudio fue examinar la asociación de la perpetración ciberacoso y el uso problemático de las redes sociales con el trauma emocional infantil, los rasgos de personalidad del grupo B (narcisista, histriónico, antisocial y límite), las experiencias disociativas (DE), la depresión y el autodominio estima en una muestra de estudiantes no clínicos. Un total de 344 estudiantes universitarios se ofrecieron como voluntarios para completar un cuestionario que incluía medidas sobre las dimensiones antes mencionadas. Treinta y ocho por ciento de los participantes tuvieron negligencia emocional y 27% tuvieron abuso emocional, mientras que el 44% de ellos demostraron al menos un comportamiento de perpetración ciberacoso. Los resultados indicaron que los perpetradores de acoso cibernético obtuvieron puntuaciones más altas en el uso problemático de las redes sociales, las experiencias disociativas, los rasgos del grupo B, la depresión y los traumas emocionales infantiles, y una menor autoestima. El análisis de la ruta demostró que, mientras se ajustaba por sexo y edad, el trauma emocional infantil se asociaba directa e indirectamente con la perpetración de acoso cibernético a través de los rasgos del Grupo B. Además, la depresión y la disociación se asociaron directamente con el uso problemático de las redes sociales. Los hallazgos de este estudio enfatizan el importante papel directo del trauma emocional infantil y los rasgos patológicos de la personalidad en la perpetración de acoso cibernético. #Ciberbullying  #problemático  #Redessociales  #socialmedia  #TraumaInfantil  #Personality  #Dissociation  #Depression 
Auf meine Eltern warten.
Bin ziemlich angespannt, nervös, unentschlossen, traurig. Ziemlich viel in mir los finde aber nicht die richtigen Worte um es entsprechend auszudrücken. Der Druck ist enorm. Aber ich muss standhaft bleiben. Darf nicht enttäuschen. Obwohl ich manchmal das Gefühl habe die einzige zu sein die versucht das bestmögliche zu geben um nicht zu versagen und selber nur enttäuscht werde. Ich hoffe das ich demnächst den Platz in der lvr bekomme. Es muss sich was ändern, es muss „besser“ werden. Aber in manchen Dingen bringt es nichts, wenn ich die einzige bin die dran arbeitet. 😞
#mentalillness #struggle #intensive #anorexia #selfharrm #anxiety #depressed #ptbs #panicattacks #bpd #borderline #grenzgänger #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #staystrong #dissociation #blackwhite #eatingdisorder #recovery #thoughts #feelings #recoveryisworthit #sad #tears #memories #fight #together #lonely
Auf meine Eltern warten. Bin ziemlich angespannt, nervös, unentschlossen, traurig. Ziemlich viel in mir los finde aber nicht die richtigen Worte um es entsprechend auszudrücken. Der Druck ist enorm. Aber ich muss standhaft bleiben. Darf nicht enttäuschen. Obwohl ich manchmal das Gefühl habe die einzige zu sein die versucht das bestmögliche zu geben um nicht zu versagen und selber nur enttäuscht werde. Ich hoffe das ich demnächst den Platz in der lvr bekomme. Es muss sich was ändern, es muss „besser“ werden. Aber in manchen Dingen bringt es nichts, wenn ich die einzige bin die dran arbeitet. 😞 #mentalillness  #struggle  #intensive  #anorexia  #selfharrm  #anxiety  #depressed  #ptbs  #panicattacks  #bpd  #borderline  #grenzgänger  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #staystrong  #dissociation  #blackwhite  #eatingdisorder  #recovery  #thoughts  #feelings  #recoveryisworthit  #sad  #tears  #memories  #fight  #together  #lonely 
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👆tag someone you know🖕 Staring at this world through my rear view !! Follow me to unfollow the told 👇 @chaturvedi_p.l.u.r @hopesick_dopesick #hopesickdopesick  #pretencesentence  #kp  #club27  #nahitohnahiindia  #youwee  #fitty  #poeticjustice  #poetrycommunity  #poetryofinstagram  #poetofthe22century  #poets  #bobdylan  #quoteoftheday  #makeyourownquotes  #99shadesofkp  #time  #dissociation  #past  #appstore  #talentshow  #talentodebarrio  #india  #smile  #lonewolf  @anabelamusic @vincentdesire91
2 new tricks! I’m so excited! “Sit Pretty” was something I tried to work on when he was younger, but at that point he was too nervous to even try to begin to sit like that - so I took a break from that particular trick all together. He has gained so much confidence in himself and trust in me that newer skills come easier. After learning various tricks over the past year, it now only takes a few minutes to teach him something new because of his grown confidence! My dad taught him “Crawl” when I wasn’t around and I was excited to see my dad working with him ☺️ warmed my heart! The video is of me trying it out for the first couple times.
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2 new tricks! I’m so excited! “Sit Pretty” was something I tried to work on when he was younger, but at that point he was too nervous to even try to begin to sit like that - so I took a break from that particular trick all together. He has gained so much confidence in himself and trust in me that newer skills come easier. After learning various tricks over the past year, it now only takes a few minutes to teach him something new because of his grown confidence! My dad taught him “Crawl” when I wasn’t around and I was excited to see my dad working with him ☺️ warmed my heart! The video is of me trying it out for the first couple times. . Follow our friend @cayenne.the.service.pup ! . . . #servicedog  #servicedogintraining  #servicedogs  #servicedogteam  #servicedogsofig  #trip  #dog  #dogsofinstagram  #bordercollie  #bordercolliesofinstagram  #heterochromia  #blueandbrowneyes  #twodifferentcoloreyes  #servicedogbordercollies  #ocd  #obsessivecompulsivedisorder  #ptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #panicattack  #panicdisorder  #anxiety  #anxietydisorder  #generalizedanxietydisorder  #depression  #dissociativedisorder  #derealization  #dissociation  #depersonalization  #dogs  #tricks 
Разлука, неопределенность, измотанность, напряжение неизвестности, фобии, депрессия, вина, чужой угол - система находится в режиме выживания. Есть цели, но путь к ним долог и извилист, труден и непредсказуем. Выжить, собрать систему снова в ожившую команду - цель первая. Пока не реализована. #3
#множественнаяличность #множественная_личность #multiplepersonalitydisorder
#multipersonalitydisorder #диссоциативноерасстройствоидентичности #dissociativeidentitydisorder #ДРИ #DID #MPD #система #system #ПТСР #PTSD #психология #psychology #депрессия #depression #диссоциация #dissociation #суицид #suicidal #love #разлука #психиатрия #psychiatrie #трансгендер #transgender #ftm #WeAreJustNumbers
Разлука, неопределенность, измотанность, напряжение неизвестности, фобии, депрессия, вина, чужой угол - система находится в режиме выживания. Есть цели, но путь к ним долог и извилист, труден и непредсказуем. Выжить, собрать систему снова в ожившую команду - цель первая. Пока не реализована. #3  #множественнаяличность  #множественная_личность  #multiplepersonalitydisorder  #multipersonalitydisorder  #диссоциативноерасстройствоидентичности  #dissociativeidentitydisorder  #ДРИ  #DID  #MPD  #система  #system  #ПТСР  #PTSD  #психология  #psychology  #депрессия  #depression  #диссоциация  #dissociation  #суицид  #suicidal  #love  #разлука  #психиатрия  #psychiatrie  #трансгендер  #transgender  #ftm  #WeAreJustNumbers 
TW: mention of sexual assault (inc CSA) - no details 
Lots of threads tie our sense of identity together. People look at a photograph of themselves as a child and know it was them, all because of these little threads of memory. Mine have been violently unpicked.
From the ages of 3 til 19, I’ve been sexually assaulted. Different men, different ways, I don’t know how many times, sometimes I don’t even know who, but the same end result - traumatisation. Each assault cut another thread, tore another hole, and eventually we began to unravel. 
Now I am sewing us back together again, with kindness. We have therapy later today and I’m stressed because it’s painful and sometimes I get spiked with the needle. Not all the parts co-operate. It’s very fiddly work but I’m getting better at it. 
I am not a broken person. We are a rich tapestry of parts, and it is beautiful.
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TW: mention of sexual assault (inc CSA) - no details Lots of threads tie our sense of identity together. People look at a photograph of themselves as a child and know it was them, all because of these little threads of memory. Mine have been violently unpicked. From the ages of 3 til 19, I’ve been sexually assaulted. Different men, different ways, I don’t know how many times, sometimes I don’t even know who, but the same end result - traumatisation. Each assault cut another thread, tore another hole, and eventually we began to unravel. Now I am sewing us back together again, with kindness. We have therapy later today and I’m stressed because it’s painful and sometimes I get spiked with the needle. Not all the parts co-operate. It’s very fiddly work but I’m getting better at it. I am not a broken person. We are a rich tapestry of parts, and it is beautiful. - - #ptsd  #dissociation  #mhaw  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #recovery  #recover  #healing  #cptsd  #did  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #recoveryisworthit 
During times of stress, or when heightened concentration is needed, focusing on one’s breathing or doing breathing exercises can indeed change the brain. The research findings show that the advice to “take a deep breath” may not just be a cliché. Exercises involving volitional breathing appear to alter the connectivity between parts of the brain and allow access to internal sites that normally are inaccessible to us. https://buff.ly/2zVs9SD #mindfullness #breathing #trauma #emotionalabuse ##lovegrowbehappy #DPDR #depersonalization #derealization #dissociation #mentalhealth #mentalhealthsupport #mentalwellbeing #mentalhealthawareness  #selfcare #childhoodtrauma #developmentaltrauma #motherwound #healing  #narcissisticmother #childhoodmemoties #childhoodmemory  #mentalabuse #depression #anxiety #mentaldisorder #mentalhealthrecovery  #myhappiness #myself #myjourney
During times of stress, or when heightened concentration is needed, focusing on one’s breathing or doing breathing exercises can indeed change the brain. The research findings show that the advice to “take a deep breath” may not just be a cliché. Exercises involving volitional breathing appear to alter the connectivity between parts of the brain and allow access to internal sites that normally are inaccessible to us. https://buff.ly/2zVs9SD #mindfullness  #breathing  #trauma  #emotionalabuse  ##lovegrowbehappy  #DPDR  #depersonalization  #derealization  #dissociation  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthsupport  #mentalwellbeing  #mentalhealthawareness  #selfcare  #childhoodtrauma  #developmentaltrauma  #motherwound  #healing  #narcissisticmother  #childhoodmemoties  #childhoodmemory  #mentalabuse  #depression  #anxiety  #mentaldisorder  #mentalhealthrecovery  #myhappiness  #myself  #myjourney 
Its a coping mechanism to protect you 💛
Tips:
1.Do the things that make you feel the most alive 
2.Become aware of your surroundings
3.Start a conversation with someone you feel safe with
3.Describe the feeling to someone ,they might have a similiar experience to share
4.Accept it and understand the process . 
Healing is not linear 〰️
Written by S
#dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #notreal #copingmechanism #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #anxiety #safe #mind #body #live
Its a coping mechanism to protect you 💛 Tips: 1.Do the things that make you feel the most alive 2.Become aware of your surroundings 3.Start a conversation with someone you feel safe with 3.Describe the feeling to someone ,they might have a similiar experience to share 4.Accept it and understand the process . Healing is not linear 〰️ Written by S #dissociation  #depersonalization  #derealization  #notreal  #copingmechanism  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #anxiety  #safe  #mind  #body  #live 
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Don’t think you know me
There’s a whole other half you’ve yet to see
A side drenched in darkness
A void in my chest that is heartless
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I made the mistake of rushing through my healing. I blocked out painful memories, forgetting them. My heart became filled with love and forgiveness quickly but this was the wrong move. As soon as I remembered I felt like I took steps back and am consumed with darkness again. Forgive but NEVER forget. I understand now 🙏 #dontrush #takeyourtime #mentalhealth#mentalillness#mentalhealthawareness#health#wellness#okay#feelings#depression#dissociation#anxiety#itsokaytofeel#happiness#love#inspiration#anxiety#anxietysupport#heal#live#love#forgive#forgiveness
I made the mistake of rushing through my healing. I blocked out painful memories, forgetting them. My heart became filled with love and forgiveness quickly but this was the wrong move. As soon as I remembered I felt like I took steps back and am consumed with darkness again. Forgive but NEVER forget. I understand now 🙏 #dontrush  #takeyourtime  #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #health #wellness #okay #feelings #depression #dissociation #anxiety #itsokaytofeel #happiness #love #inspiration #anxiety #anxietysupport #heal #live #love #forgive #forgiveness 
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Sometimes I feel like the front I put on is way too good. The person I put out for the world to see is so staged and perfect that not even my therapist can tell how bad things really are. This happened at my most recent therapy and it was surprising. I kept describing how I was feeling and I was having some difficulty putting feelings to words. Usually my therapist is great at understanding what I mean and she helps guide me. This time she took what I said and went off in a different direction. I was taken aback because then I had to re-explain. This went on several more times before I gave up and went with the phrase “I just feel terrible.” It’s as if she couldn’t see the pain on my face or how tense my muscles were. I thought she could. I really wonder if I’m getting too good at hiding everything externally and becoming unreadable. I don’t want that to be true. I want to be doing the opposite and be more transparent. I guess now I know of something else I want to work on. Has this ever happened to you? How have you managed to become more transparent and not so walled off from everyone else?
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-Artist: @bymariandrew - Sometimes I feel like the front I put on is way too good. The person I put out for the world to see is so staged and perfect that not even my therapist can tell how bad things really are. This happened at my most recent therapy and it was surprising. I kept describing how I was feeling and I was having some difficulty putting feelings to words. Usually my therapist is great at understanding what I mean and she helps guide me. This time she took what I said and went off in a different direction. I was taken aback because then I had to re-explain. This went on several more times before I gave up and went with the phrase “I just feel terrible.” It’s as if she couldn’t see the pain on my face or how tense my muscles were. I thought she could. I really wonder if I’m getting too good at hiding everything externally and becoming unreadable. I don’t want that to be true. I want to be doing the opposite and be more transparent. I guess now I know of something else I want to work on. Has this ever happened to you? How have you managed to become more transparent and not so walled off from everyone else? - - - - #depression  #depressed  #anxiety  #anxious  #panicattacks  #anxietyattacks  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalillness  #selflove  #mentalhealthrecovery  #mentalhealth  #livingwithmentalillness  #selfharmrecovery  #depressionrecovery  #anxietyrecovery  #recovery  #recoveryishard  #ptsd  #dissociation  #cptsd  #posttraumaticstressdisorder  #endthestigma  #iwillrecover 
Just got out of the shower. The bathroom has some memories I can’t access, but I have body flashback memories I’m unsure of what happens #narsissist #abuse #survivor #techniquesofabuse #sociopath #ptsd #anxiety #broken #damaged #domesticviolence #mentalillness #happy #stopthestigma #socialanxiety #battle #mosaic #heal #warrior #scars #flashbacks #memories #dissociation @copingwithptsd247
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