Somthing diffrent somthing honest.
Not only is this picture beautiful but it also hides monsters.
I remeber taking it while my heart was pounding trough my chest all those eyes looking around and looking at me, so unpredictable so much hustle and bustle.
This is the start of me helping myself none of you apart from my manfolk close friends and family would know that I suffer with a crippling anxiety and for quite along time now .
Others probably assume I'm a hermet or unsociable . I'm not and my smile hides alot of fear. It's hard ok. And I'm sorry for all the times I've canceled on events I've lost alot of people because of this.
it can be so over powering that I'm mentally exhausted most times from just walking outside my house.
I'm now working incredibly hard on breaking that monster and getting myself better getting outside and facing it. It's not going to happen over night but I want, no need to do this or years will slip by there are many beautiful things out there in this world if I could get past this monster this feeling of worry and doubt and fear. I hope this is the first of many pictures showing that I am capable. I know in my heart it will never truly be fixed but I hope I can manage it so its bearable . Its taken me quite abit to speak out. The ones who are there for me and who know, care deeply and are patient with me I could never thank them enough for there support.
Here's To many new adventures however big or small.
Some people get lucky in life and land a great job through contacts or luck. My two have both grafted so hard to get to where they are today and continue to do so. Very proud of them both #son @lee_radley_art #daughter @christyradley @christy_hometown #tattooapprentice @yarsontattoostudio #girlbarber#blackandwhite8