When your hubby is on the other side of the planet, you guilt your mom into visiting before the talking to yourself/yelling at your children gets out of control. THEN you shirk all responsibilities and get pedicures. It’s called being an adult guys. /// Sidenote: Does anyone else HATE feet. I really, really do. Example: During my dating years if a guy had ugly feet, I would shutter when we held hands. (I’m a weirdo, let’s move on.) Because of my phobia, I always feel guilty and am constantly apologizing during pedicures to the technician. It has to feel like that Dumb and Dumber scene on the daily for them, doesn’t it?
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Comme vous pouvez le constater , j'ai changer de photo de profil et j'ai poster mes deux prochaines lectures . " Happy 40 " et " Phobia " .
Je vous en avais parler un peu plus loin comme quoi j'allai alterner entre les deux , que je donnerai mon avis à chaque nouvelles et après sur le livre .
Et je commence ce soir avec la première nouvelle de ~ Happy 40 ~ " Avec toi , ailleurs c'est ici " de N. C. Bastian .
Je vous souhaite une bonne nuit 💤 #bookstagram#happy40#phobia#nouvelle#ncbastian#avectoiailleurscestici#lecture#livrespapier .•
so this is how I spent my day today..
basically (tmi alert sorry lol) my urine had blood in it. I went to my regular doctor. I haven’t seen him in months & ofc he weighed me & looked back at my previous weight & was instantly concerned.
He then tested my urine & the blood in it & it came back that I had proteins & ketones as well as other bad things in it. He said that my results came back as if my body was in starvation mode & he wanted me to go to the hospital to get more tests done.
I think i made it a lot worse bc the whole time I was hysterically crying & really could not keep myself together tbh.
I went to the er with my dad & they took blood took urine did an ultra sound lots of tests & gave me 3 bags of iv.
I literally was shaking the whole time I was so anxious I am so drained now.
My doctor said this is a result of what I am doing to myself. I am literally destroying myself. I need to get a hold of this, I cant go on like this.
It was so hard to sit in a hospital bed crying watching my parents cry also.
I also spoke to a social worker & although I felt so suicidal, when she asked if I wanted to harm myself I shook my head no.. I just couldn’t bring myself to say yes. After all I put my parents through, that would have killed them to hear (plus they prob would have admitted me) I was very honest with her about everything else though, but I knew that would have been what would have made them keep me and although inpatient might not be a horrible idea, I know I won’t fully benefit unless I am like willing, and I just know I would not be a willing participant at this point.
It was a horrible day & I feel absolutely terrible but I’m thankful to be home, I feel like I really need to push myself to eat & hydrate or i’m gonna end up right back in this bed which absolutely terrifies me, it’s like I have all the control, but I feel like I have no control
I hated barbies growing up.. In fact, I despised them and had a weird phobia of them. They truly scared the crap out of me. 🤷🏻♀️ Anyway, I remember always saying if I ever had a daughter, I would “NEVER” buy them for her. Well, then I had a daughter 😂🤦🏻♀️ Sophia may be my clone and all, but the one thing we will never share is her love for these things. 😖 #BarbieLover#HerNotMe#NeverSayNever
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