“I have on my farm a magnificent old pear tree. I was told when we bought our farm house that this old tree may never flower again. But in the second year, it blossomed into spectacular abundance. "Ki-Seki" in Japanese means "Tree - Mark" but also "Miracle”... May such small resurrections be seen all around us, and may our journey be ever more generative.” -Mako Fujimura
When I saw and read about this painting by one of our favorite artists, it stopped me dead in my tracks. I was early into this pregnancy after a history of two difficult miscarriages. The truth is, we had stopped trying to have a baby. I had accepted our circumstances. And then, our own Ki-Seki appeared. A seeming miracle. I knew the moment I saw this painting and read about its meaning that a print would hang in our nursery, if we could even get to the point of needing a nursery one day.
Now the time is here. I keep waiting for something bad to happen, for death or disease to snatch this miracle away. But I went to my check up yesterday and heard our daughter’s heartbeat and discussed her delivery with my doctor. Our first parenting class is Saturday.
I did not imagine myself to be a woman that would care much about babies and nurseries. But now that it is here, I cannot escape the wild miracle of what it is. It won’t really be real until she is here, but until then, I can’t quite stop obsessing. So please forgive me or simply unfollow if it’s not your cup of tea. It wasn’t mine for a long time. After our losses, I couldn’t stand to see pregnancy/baby/nursery posts. And that’s okay. But know that I will always try to share the darkness as well as the light, the fallow seasons as well as the harvest, because that’s what makes it even more beautiful. That’s what this painting encapsulates for me. I’m grateful for @iamfujimura’s work that displays God’s patterns of bringing beauty from brokenness, and the reminder that the life about to be born into this world is a miracle.